#exoriation

[sentientworm]

You know what is totally not cool

Preface: there is nothing wrong with you if you have derm/trich. You are beautiful no matter what. Patches, scabs, scars, or any other damage cause by bfrb dont define you. This is just a vent.

tw: skin picking/ hair pulling

I started repetitively running my hands through my hair and pulling on parts of it. I’ve dealt with excoriation/ Dermatillomania. BUT NOW. Are you kidding me. I started to grow out my hair.. One of my biggest worries about being on T was losing my hair. I didnt start to notice my hair falling out (I think a normal amount) until my hair was about 6 inches. It makes sense since it harder to not notice long hairs flowing about. Now I catch myself doing it a lot. Just fucking with my hair. I dont know what worse. Making my face all gross, broke out, and full of scabs, or have piles of hairs surrounding just waiting for there to be patches. I will actively pursue loving myself no matter what, but damn. I have too much to deal with as it is... thats probably why its happening. fuck bfrbs

[death-of-the-self]

Lemos 2018

Finally indulging in this mess of a ship.

Use with credit, I bite.

[beforeiruinmyself]

Okay, so today in my Public Speaking class (which has 12 people in it due to it being the summer semester), I gave a speech on DSM-5, and included Exoriation Disorder, and I even showed pictures of my legs and told everyone what it was and how I had improved because of the treatment I've been doing... SCARIEST THING I HAVE EVER. DONE. IN MY LIFE. Not over-emphasizing at all. I almost passed out. I went way over the time limit because I kept tripping over my words I was so nervous. But right now I don't really care if I get my grade deducted. I feel so much better. I'm glad I'm actually at a point where I can do something like that.