Hello, my King. I've been starting to do my meditations and breathing techniques for my anxiety, and so far it's been helping a lot with my stress and manic episodes. My fiance has been much more accepting of myself, and I passed all my classes this semester. Besides work stressing me out (when does work not stress someone out?), life has actually been great! Well, until something happened. A friend of mine whom I haven't seen in years found me and wanted to meet up. After that, she sends me a
text saying she needs 40 dollars for bills and will let me use the same amount of her food stamp card as a trade. Out of the kindness of my heart, I let her. Then she needed a ride from her house to the welfare center about 20 minutes away to pick up her car, and she was going to give me gas money. According to her, it was going to take 10 minutes after we got off the freeway. I picked her up and drove down there, but she said she couldn’t remember where it was. I drove for 45 minutes in a pretty shady area during rush hour, but I was getting extremely late for band practice. Afterwards, she made me drop her off at an intersection because her friend was going to pick her up from there. Then she gives me $4 for gas. Note that I drove for 45 minutes during rush hour, AND my car runs on premium gas. I received a text from her approximately 30-45 minutes later saying that it was a block away from where I dropped her off. I don’t recall seeing it before when I was driving. Now she sends me a text saying she needs to borrow $40 from me, so she can go to 1 ½ hours out of town for a funeral and would pay me back on Friday. She tells me I’m the only friend she has and trusts and talks to no other family member except her dad who’s in the hospital. I have the tendency to be “too” nice, but I don’t know if she’s just using me for money and not friendship, ~Aya~
I'm glad that things have started working out, with your anxiety, and with your fiance and classes. I'm happy to hear that you have started to figure things out. As for your friend, I think that you should have a talk with her and ask her why she is acting this way. It's not right that you haven't spoken to her in years and suddenly she expects you to do all this for her. Can you try asking her why she suddenly needs all this help? And explaining to her that what happened when you drove her caused you to be late, and that you were still out money for gas. It's great that she reached out to you, but she should not be treating you like this, because it does seem like she is exploiting you to some extent.
I am so proud of you love. You have worked incredibly hard to find a place for yourself, and that is very hard work. You have done fantastic, and I am so happy for you.
I will always be here for you, and I believe in you.