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I’ll have you know I was very brave and said no thank you to a sex proposition in a dream last night so clearly I’m all cured and can get out there now
Your insomniac bestie is sick and they’re making her do school stuff and the sun is literally shining and something needs to be done about that bc it fucking sucks
Everything horny I write is in third person passive tense and never references the author and if you have disagreeing opinions you’re wrong and it’s slander and I’m normal about sexual fantasies
But like it would be cool to be made to feel so much it makes me unable to contain the emotions and be aware of nothing but my own body and the pain and pleasure it can feel in a way that rips me apart from that distance and safety of observing, that forces me into the subjectivity of my own experience and perspective as the object of what’s being done to me and just pushed to take it all past the discomfort and self consciousness
(A mostly fine, decent-to-a-detriment, trying-her-best girl voice:) I’m the worst human being alive and deserve no grace
Instead of vagueposting I vaguexplain and vaguexist
“Which of the numerous coping, self regulation, executive function or motivation management strategies I’ve accumulated over the years of stagnant recovery should I implement to surpass the current state of inaction and discouragement?” she’s thinking while actively perishing from choice paralysis
They refuse to drill a hole into my skull just bc they keep telling me the evil spirit squeezing my brain that needs to be let out isn’t real
