#extraneous

[vanillaplanifolia]

Gets mad at the timer I set five minutes ago to remind me to get up and go get the laundry out for daring to remind me to get up and go get the laundry out

[makeitanopencasket]

Extraneous at High Water Mark

Portland 2017

[vanillaplanifolia]

But like it would be cool to be made to feel so much it makes me unable to contain the emotions and be aware of nothing but my own body and the pain and pleasure it can feel in a way that rips me apart from that distance and safety of observing, that forces me into the subjectivity of my own experience and perspective as the object of what’s being done to me and just pushed to take it all past the discomfort and self consciousness

[vanillaplanifolia]

No no, she didn’t threaten to rape me, it’s more like a promise sort of thing

[vanillaplanifolia]

Your insomniac gf is doing her daily meditative practice of perpetual scrolling

[vanillaplanifolia]

“Which of the numerous coping, self regulation, executive function or motivation management strategies I’ve accumulated over the years of stagnant recovery should I implement to surpass the current state of inaction and discouragement?” she’s thinking while actively perishing from choice paralysis

[vanillaplanifolia]

It shouldn’t be possible to have this many immoral dirty thoughts and also foundational revelations about the self and the nature of existing as a human being on planet Earth this early in the day

[vanillaplanifolia]

I lied. Don’t get yourself an insomniac gf she’s very drowsy, grumpy and mostly useless. She has lots of issues also. Honestly a medical miracle she doesn’t sleep good given how utterly exhausting she is as a person