I love that we can do whatever we want forever and nothing is permanent
you can always rediscover yourself, reassess what makes sense and what doesn't, change your mind completely again and again and again
i have labeled myself ace, demi, bi, pan, lesbian, woman, "female" and a lot of things in the past. I have watched queer people living in joy with sorrow in my heart because I felt like I was inherently flawed and unallowed to be a part of the community, like I wasn't the real thing. I have rejected my trans siblings because I was so terrified or realising we shared feelings, wants, needs. I dehumanized myself so deeply I lost myself
I worked through prejudice and self loathing (and still do, we're always a work in progress)
I embraced my doubts, contradictions, desires, identity. I took back what had been taken from me
Today I understand myself as a trans nonbinary person, I don't feel the need to label my sexuality anything past queer, I listen to what I identify with and understand not everyone will feel the same and that's okay as long as there's openness. Maybe one day I'll realise this is not my label anymore and that's okay, maybe it'll never change and that's okay!
I might've gone through a lot of labels through life, but not matter what, in my heart what was always beyond the shadow of a doubt is that I'm a queer person, I always knew the rejection it comes with it, the fear
may one day every queer sibling be able to live without fear, may we have freedom to change, transform, grow
may we do whatever we want forever
