Wow! Hereās something incredibly personal.
This is Good Bi Gender. A comic I made to express some feelings I have about my gender. I donāt really have that much else to say about it. Here it is.
[Image Description: A digital comic made with sharp, angular abstract lines and only the colors white, blue, pink, and black. The featured character is all white, except for facial features and hair colors, which changes from panel to panel. The comic reads: Cover Panel: The text āGood Bi Genderā, the words colored with the trans flag. It shows a glitchy personās face, half pink and half blue. Panel 1: White text reads: āHello. My name is apparently irrelevant. And my pronouns are he/him and she/her. But you canāt call me she/her. And hereās why.ā Someone with a half-pink and half-blue shirt looks to the side. One eye is covered with hair, and the other eye is pink while the iris is blue.
Panel 2: The character sits happily, imagining facial hair and a masculine voice. āI donāt want top surgery. I love my chest. And I dream about being on testosterone someday soon.ā The character looks at a phone, frowning. The phone shows the male symbol with an āXā through it. Text next to it reads: āPeople donāt seem to think that the features I dream of are very pretty thoughā¦ Or they think even worse of them than thatā¦ā
Panel 3: The characterās features are all pink, and sits in a blank frame. The character reaches over to a blue frame, frowning. āI donāt like the animosity. I really despise it.ā A photo of the character shows an all-blue frame and blue hair, with pink outlines and facial features. āTo be a boyā¦ I aspire to be one. I aspire to be masculine in all its handsomeness. All its prettiness.ā Panel 4: The character sits in an all blue panel, but reaches back out to the pink panel. āAnd Iām still a girl too. I was so excited to have both. To love both. To have handsome femininity. Beautiful masculinity.ā The frames break and connect, and pink and blue swirl together. The character smiles in between the frames, with one pink eye and one blue eye. āSo excited. And yet I get askedā¦ā
Panel 5: Two hands hold out two different pills to the character, one blue and one pink. They ask āMale? or Female?ā using the male and female symbols.The character, facial features an array of pink and blue, looks between the two hands, distressed. āItās both! Iām both! Theyāre not opposites. Not narrow boxes. I say Iām both despite the insistence that I canāt be. And I know what I look like. I know I look like a girl to most. I know that if I say people can call me she, thatās all I will get from most. Because itās āeasierā. It āmakes more senseā. To have my masculinity, I am often forced to be unflinching in it and it alone. To never use she. Because if I donāt, I will never get to have he.ā [The words āsheā and āheā are italicized.] Panel 6: Text reads: āIām still very happy to be so comfortable in my identity. To know, despite all that, that I am indeed a boy and a girl and both. But you know. Telling people to only use he/him for me. Guarding my masculinity all just to have it. All at the expense of the part of me who is happily and unashamedly a girl.ā The character cries from one pink eye, the other hidden. The character holds a pink girl in a sea of blue, the girl crying out. In the midst of the blue, text reads: āWell, it fucking breaks her heart.ā End ID]
Edit: @starberry-skies wrote an ID for the comic, so I added it to the og post with its permission!
