#factsandrants

[i-ronmaiden]

You ever go through something so literally heartbreaking and you never think you’ll be truly happy again and then something or someone comes along when you least expect it? And you experience what true happiness feels like? If there’s one thing I love it’s being loved genuinely.

[i-ronmaiden]

I read an article on twitter talking about "the moment you knew you fell for them" and it said something along the lines of "for some people it's accumulation of moments that in turn has you realize that you've fallen in love and for others it's a pin point moment. Here are there stories:" and I was looking back to when we were still dating and I was trying to figure out when the exact moment I fell for you was. I'm convinced it was on a night that we were hanging out at your parents place and I wasn't feeling so hot for what ever reason, I just wasn't in the mood to be around anyone, not even you. I didn't feel well and I wanted to lay down and go to bed so I didn't have to interact. You asked what was wrong and I told you it was nothing, of course, but you knew I was lying. You didn't question me and you didn't pry and instead of pestering me you laid down on the couch with me and pulled me into your arms. You told me you discovered a new song that you really like that reminded you of us and you started singing to me and running your fingers through my hair and running my back to make me feel better. I remember shedding that one single tear and I think it was because I was so touched by this small act of genuine love and care, it was honestly life changing. I think that was the moment I knew I had fallen for you, even now as I look back, even when we're no longer together. The fact is you're the first person I've ever shared so much intimacy with and I think that's going to stick with me for a very long time. I'm not saying I'm still in love with you but I'm not denying that I might still be in love with that memory. We're never getting back together but I know that we both still love each other enough to want to find that moment again, even if it's with someone else.

[i-ronmaiden]

Just imagine you’re in a room right and you’re trapped and there’s no way out okay so you look around and you find a door and you get so happy but it’s bolted shut, really locked tight so after struggling and struggling and struggling if trying to get that door open you kind of just give up and soon as you do you see a window right next to the door so you go over to the window and open it up and you get excited so you start to climb through and as you do you notice the door creaks open… It eventually opens all the way and you think ‘well I’m already here, might as well try the window anyway’ and as soon as you realize you can’t fit through the window the door shuts and you know it’s locked again and this happens over and over again, every time you find another way out the door opens and give you a second chance but when the window doesn’t work the door shuts on itself again and again.

This is what it feels like to be in love with you.

[i-ronmaiden]

At one point or another you’ll find yourself in that one relationship with somebody where you’re both waiting for the other person to confess their true feelings. Be the first person. Either you get a relationship or you get to move on easier without doubts and false hopes and trust me, you wont regret it because you’ll finally know what all the fuss was about

[i-ronmaiden]

Idk I guess I’m just not the kinda person that likes to talk about their feelings. Maybe in a book or a journal or on paper that you can read to yourself, but never outloud where it’s just floating around in the air like dust

[i-ronmaiden]

Good Job. Round of applause.

so you know how i have this best friend? He's tall, lanky and handsome? okay well recently-actually not just recently, i have this weird thing where i kinda sorta maybe crush on him for a little, then i stop, and then i like him again and its been going on for like, ever. anyways, i'm in the crush stage again and i just got over it again and my best friend talked to him for awhile in his car. basically this is how their conversation went(best friend in bold, other best friend/crush in italics): "well you friend zoned(so-and-so)'" "yeah well you friend zoned(my name)" "no i didn't  she didn't even like me..." "uhmm i'm pretty sure she used to like you, like a while ago.." "well i mean.." and basically she told me that he was contemplating on whether to go for me or not but then i guess i told him we were really good friends WHICH WE ARE. WE ARE BEST FRIENDS. and she said that i pretty much friend zoned myself. BUT HEAR ME OUT. i only told him we were really great friends BECAUSE a little bit ago he asked her if i liked him. and let me give you a little insider on how my mind works. i do not admit to things that will make me seem either vulnerable or weak or the least bit human. i do not like telling people who i may or may not like because for some reason, it always gets used against me and i get teased for having a crush on someone. i don't know why but i do. anyways, so he asked her if i liked him and shes asked multiple times before if i have or not and i always deny it because duh, i don't want anyone to make fun of me or anything right? and she told him no and he was just like "oh well i mean, i don't want to lead her on or anything.." -______-. like yeah, let me just tell you that i like you so you can boast to all your friends about how many girls like you and how you've never had a girl that you like not like you back. let me just go ahead and do that. uh hah no. i'm not about to admit to anything if you're not going to own up to it either. i'll meet you halfway, but i'm not trynna to put myself out there if i'm not sure whether you'll catch me or not. the reason i told you we were such good friends is because we are. like i can literally tell you anything and you're the first person i want to talk to when i receive good news. i didn't want you to think i liked you because i knew that if you thought i did and you didn't reciprocate those feelings then you would've tried to avoid hanging out with me and you probably would've stopped texting me too. i know how your mind works love. so when you finally decide  if you want to go for me or not, i'll be sitting over here, probably eating ice cream or something. but i'm not about to wait forever so hurry tf up hoe. 

[i-ronmaiden]

GUESS WHO'S GOUNG TO SPRING FEVER TOUR IN MAY

Honestly like im about to cry. I bought my warped tour ticket and I had to sell it and I felt like crying on the inside because I just love the feeling warped tour gives me, like I feel so at home and no one judges me and I feel like I belong and it's just an awesome atmosphere and family to be apart of and then my older sisters best friend/family friend told me about it and my mom told me I could go if he's going and he told me he wanted to go and my mom said yes and im just so freaking happy right now like atleast I can still go see my two most favorite bands evrr if I can't go to warped tour and they're not even playing this year so im not as heartbroken as I could be but still. All Time Low and Pierce The Veil are my two most favorite bands ever, like no one will understand how much atl means to me, we all have that one thing that really just saved us and pulled us up from the ground right well atl did that for me at a vety low part of my life that im jot vety proud of and they just mean a heck of a lot to me. I saw them live at warped tour and it totally changed my life like I closed my eyes and jumped up and down with the crowd and I just became apart of the music, i felt more at home then I've ever felt and it was so amazing I hope I feel like that at the Spring Fever Tour♥♥

[i-ronmaiden]

There are two kinds of people in this world: people who show affection and good freaking liars.