#fairywarrior

[kotzebue]

Fairy Warrior character design I did for #leagueoflegends #riotgames #characterdesign #character #villain #drawing #pencildrawing #fairy #fairywarrior #creature #fantasy #warrior #illustration #artwork #conceptart #conceptdesign #gaming

[saythefword]

Finally! We have to leave the year 2016. I know this is late for a year-ender entry but since I’m a busy bee and lazy a$$, I’m posting this late.

To sum it all up, my 2016 is quite messy and fucked up than the past years. It truly challenged my patience and creativity.  Also, it made me wonder of my true existence. I have doubts about myself, my peeps and my chosen course.

The first quarter of the month is I have to lie to my parents and to an officer. IT WAS THE WORST THING EVER! I do not want to elaborate it further but don’t worry it’s not too drastic. 

Also, I experienced a miscommunication between the people I used to be friends with (it’s becoming a thing that bad things always happen at end of the semester). I’m still wondering why this thing happened. I want to ask why but my pride is too high for this shit and likewise on the other.

I received my first failed subject and it lead me step by step to depression. I cried a lot and it took me some time to tell others about me being a year late. It has also lead me to transfer to a different school/course. But, I prayed that I hope things will get better soon and He should help me understand why this situation happened.

Even though I still keep a smile on my face for everybody to see that I'm "okay". But, I’m breaking inside. I’m not being overreacting but this is true. I’m not saying this to get some pity. Excuse me! I want my things to end soon and I end up thinking to end my life, too. But...

All in all, it made me see and taste the true meaning of life. 2016 is an "eye-opener", per se.

Before any thing else, I would like to thank some important people who made my 2016 less crappy. To my family for all the love and support, thank you. To my new friends and those who stayed, thank you. To ESquared, thank you! To my Manila Gangster, I know I’m quite indecisive every time we have our gala, please forgive me (lols). But, still, thank you for the fun memories. To my college friends (?), thank you. To my Tumblr peeps, thank you for being so nice and friendly. This is my happy place; this is where I can fully express myself and care nothing less. I found a friend in some of you, guys. Also, thank you for all the encouraging message that you sent me whenever I feel pathetic and the universe is against me. 

And for the person reading this, thank you for reading my post/s even though it’s full grammatical errors and bad choice of words. :)

I hope things will be better in 2017. Out with the old, in with the new: may you be happy the whole year through. Happy New Year!

[saythefword]

When I saw them, I totally screamed! Well.. I “internally” screamed! Daebak! I was really impressed with their costumes. When I saw “Princess Leia”, my eyes were sweating. LOL. Because I remembered Carrie Fisher and how her character inspired me to be tough. 

I tried my best not to cry while watching the parade or else the crowd might think I’m crazy for doing so.. Well, my parents were shocked when they saw me crying. My mom thought that I was crying because I’m going to miss them but literally laughed when I told her I was crying because of Carrie Fisher and Star Wars will never be the same without her. Her response? She said, “Bakit? Kamag-anak ba natin siya?”. Ladies and gents, please give my Mom an applause for this. Hahaha! Love you Mom!

Rest in Peace, Carrie Fisher! Thank you for being an inspiration! You’ll be missed! 

[circifox]

Velour and Cedar

Pose Reference: https://www.deviantart.com/adorkastock/art/August-AdiPOSE-Arms-Around-Each-Other-921236560 Velour and Cedar before Velour went to do magical protection work in a parallel dimension. Cedar is very pretty, as well as Velour, and I want to get better at drawing them both. Cedar is the heartthrob of the Twilit Forest fae. She is the royal guard of Princess Euthalia. Velour was Cedar's favorite trainee and the two are close. I still hate how the tree turned out, but it is far too late for me to figure out how to fix it.  Velour Eventide, Cedar Blossom - Me (circifox; both originally designed by VIxen on Toyhouse)

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[cyberkawaiiqueen]

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[doodlebags]

A #steampunk #fairywarrior drawn in @procreate . . . . . #art #sketch #drawing #illustration #doodlebags #nashville #nashvilleart #digital #characterdesign #nashvilleartist #procreate #steam #steampunkgirl #gogglesgirl #fairy #goggles #mechanicalwings #greenhaircolor https://www.instagram.com/p/B14maKqD-s9/?igshid=1oj9pjkxmq63d

[artpostropheamy]

Tonight's June Bug is a warrior fairy based on a Death Feigning Beetle. I wanted to give her a sugar skull type feel. #sketch #sketchbook #strathmoreart #pencil #pencildrawing #fabercastell #deathbeetle #beetle #bug #insects #bugfairy #fairywarrior #fairy #fairies #fairyart #fantasyart #amysmash #artpostropheamy #artpostrophe #instaartist #instaart

[saythefword]

Turning 20 Crisis

“Ma, I’m turning 20 years old this year.”

“Then, act like you’re 20.”

Wow.

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After hearing those words, my whole existence got flushed in the toilet. I got insecure, I feel that I can’t move freely anymore or I get judged every time I say something or do something. That everything I do is wrong. 

I asked myself, how should a 20 year old act? Or how should a 20 year old dress? Or how should a 20 year old handle this?

Honestly, I don’t know where to begin. Can I have a life coach to help me? I have read a lot of articles online about self-help but those tips doesn’t stick to my brain. It’s like if I step on something and I get anxious as if there’s a buzzer waiting for me to make a mistake.

I’m scared to tell my parents about this neither of my friends. It seems like there’s never going to be answer to anything. Again, I’m scared that they might think that my thoughts are wrong. Or they might even say that I’m a fucked up person.