Actually, my favorite scenes in Bridgerton season 3 part 1 are all those little moments in Episode 3 where Colin is just awkward™ after the kiss.
Colin: she's a good... Aquaintance ... Of the family's... Of course.
Benedict: are you alright?
Or when they meet in the park and they both struggle to find their next words so Colin simply agrees to everything Pen says, his mind completely brain empty. At the same time, he like, follows the movement of her lips when she stutters, and he's stuttering as well, as though he's trying to find the words for her, in case she doesn't. It's so adorable. He's panicking.
Or when Eloise mentions she talked to Pen, he's like:
"what did she say?" As if he's convinced Pen confided in Eloise about the kiss. And he desperately wants to know if Pen can't stop thinking about it either, like dream Pen told him she couldn't. That man is already preparing to propose, he just needs to know if it matters as much to her as it does to him because Pen seems so composed in his eyes.
That's why he asks his mother on what to do and why he then beelines to Pen. He's just so nervous that he misses the timing. And then he realizes he's too late. And he believes Pen found her right match. And he wants her to be happy, so he tries to drown himself in alcohol and ladies. Only it makes him feel worse.
And then, well, he hears she's gonna marry Debling and Colin loses it. He should be happy for her. This was the goal. But he can't - not without knowing for certain what she feels. And perhaps she does feel the same. After all, when she bandaged his hand, she was so gentle and - colin just HAS to know.
But she says she's going to accept the proposal and Colin knows it's a mistake. He can't let this happen. So he follows her to the carriage and tries to talk her out of it, not even considering that any man could be so foolish NOT to ask for her hand.
Anyway, I love awkward colin.
