Burning still
I wanted a start over
you came along
and stirred a beginning in me so new
couldn't catch my breath
before becoming a fool for you
came so close to following you
wherever you'd have me
even to that town
past those hilly grounds
where I knew no one but you
lord knows
that's all the knowing I wanted
for this life
Now it feels like I love your ghost
I wonder if another could
ever come
ever come
as close
Never wanted you all for myself
just fragments from your busy
but you preferred everyone else
days for them
no seconds for me
there must be
a special place
in this forsaken kingdom
for people who become
as busy as you
still I wish you
a wealth so enormous
if that's what it'll take
for you to estimate
what you meant to me
when you become the man you wish
I hope you'll look back
and miss this
and if another woman ever gets close
as close as me
please ask her to retrieve
your ghost from me
Came so close to following you
on your virtual media too
but I barely see you there
besides nothing compares
to who you were next to me
on your tiny bed
we fit perfectly
I can't believe I had you
for a moment in real time
before your ambitions took you from me
could another ever be
this precious to me
Trying to forget you
only numbs me
what a curse this has been
they were right
sometimes one night
is all it takes
now I must accept this loss
before it consumes me
didn't think it would take this long
to rid your essence off me
but I bathe and smell of you
being with you was so dreamy
I have trouble sleeping
no dreamscapes will do
I cling to my honor
for peace
wishing I could call you
and weep
take this high horse from me
it's been nothing but misery
trust me
you'd have to be sober
for a whole year
to comprehend
what you did to me
it was like breaking fast
to worship
a sacred opportunity
of the century
for a wretched
like me
oh and how you answered
all my silent prayers
with soft brush strokes
of your lips
Please come back
treat me like cold meat
one last time if you will
you'd have to be as cold as me
to be able to relish the heat
you invoked in me
came so close
to illuminate your everything
even if that meant burning
at a loss of me
you're not mine
yet I am
at a loss
of me
burning
burning
still
from your love
-rg