#feeling unlovable

[osnapitsabbie]

[bass-alien]

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[hel7l7]

You are never gonna fucking touch me. I get that now.  [ the idea probably never even crossed your mind ] 

[senseiseki]

What if someone actually loved me

[steal-this-idea]

[cas-backwards-tie]

When will I start to feel lovable? When will I get to experience the unending support and love I deserve?

[anxietys-room]

A guy I considered my friend, as he gained more friends I said he'd eventually no longer need me. He said "nah, I won't, you're fun to talk to". That was in late September. He hasn't spoken to me in a month. I called it but it still hurts...the thing is, we have two classes together so I can't really avoid him...I just feel so unlovable even though I do have other friends...for some reason this affected me so much I had a breakdown in one of our shared classes...

Sorry, I deleted that...does anyone have any advice?

Ace

[ginsengcoffee-deadlynightshade]

I'm afraid of liking someone this much again.

No. I'm afraid of liking someone this much without my feelings being returned.

Inside, I am a soft person. I have so much love to give. I don't want it to go to waste.

I can't wait to find someone who will embrace me for what I am, the entirety of me, my vulnerable heart and my flawed body and my restless mind.

The ugly fear at the back of my head tells me that no one will ever love me. No one will love me like that. No one will love me enough, because I am too greedy and what I want doesn't exist.

(If it exists, I'm convinced I don't deserve it.)

I don't want this self-fulfilling prophecy to be right.