#feeling worthless

[sharptoothsadist]

𝕯𝖔 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 𝖜𝖔𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖗 𝖎𝖋 𝖆𝖓𝖞𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖉𝖔 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗?

𝕬𝖘𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖆 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉.

Do you ever wonder if anything you do will ever matter?

Asking for a friend.

[bunny-stampede]

i hate myself today and it is just not a good day

[fleetingterminalworm]

Tomorrow is the day?

I have been putting off things that I have to do, for a long time. I have been given opportunities and chances but I dont grasp them due to fear of being seen as a failure or an imposter, like I dont belong at all. I could move somewhere else with a new identity, but even that takes efforts that I am not used to give. Despite having chances, I disappoint people. But I just wanted to do the thing and never wanted to be bombarded with expectations. How do you actually do things without being perceived or without bringing up peoples expectations? Can I just exist? Let tomorrow be the day.

[shaywantstoloseweight]

I can't talk to anyone about this I don't like I am nothing I don't feel like anyone appreciate me or what I do for them it really hurts when all I do is give people don't give much back to me I just wish I could have someone valve me and wanted me it really hurts

[everybadthing]

My thoughts are telling me

Worthless failure piece of shit

Over and over and over and over

Like worlds least encouraging

Rave song

[cienmiedzywierszami]

𝓛𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓾𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓸𝓯𝓕𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓼

I can’t remember the last time something hurt me so much that I had to walk away because I started crying. I have BPD, so situations like this tend to hit me harder than they probably should, but it still hurts.

The worst part is that it came from my fiancé. Ever since he said it, I can’t stop feeling like I was the problem. Or maybe he noticed that his mom had a problem with me too. I don’t know.

All I know is that it hurt me more than I can put into words, and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since. I feel like I’m nobody. Like I don’t matter at all.

On top of that, I can’t shake the feeling that his mom thinks she’s better than me and my family—that she looks down on us like we’re just trash.

[stardolly3]

Hello world I've finally came out of my depression ish 🤗

[komaedakills]

Vent post again...

I'm not used to being genuinely loved.

All my life it's abuse. I'm so used to it that I believe I deserve it. I'm used to people loving me then turning their back on me. It's all I ever got. I feel like I don't deserve love at all. Only abuse.

No one ever cared how I felt. What I thought. They'd always use me for what they want regardless of how I felt.

Then discard me like trash after.

I don't feel like I'm a person anymore. I feel like trash. So completely worthless

I'm either trash, a toy for their self pleasure or a helpless victim. Never human.

I want people to like me so badly. I'll pretend or tear myself apart just so they like me. I'll change things about myself so they like me. I just want them to like me. That's all I wanted.

And it doesn't matter how I feel or what I say.

Even if I was no they'll still take what they want. I give up.

What's the point in saying "no" anymore?