I don't think he knows how much it hurts when he leaves me behind. I get that some nights are 'guy nights' and I'm fine with that. I'm actually happy he has such good friends that he has guy nights. But when he's going to a 'drinks night' that involves girls and drinks and most likely (I'll probably keep you updated) a massive sleep over, it makes me quite unnerved.
The worst part is that he doesn't even make an effort to invite me or have me come along either.
I feel like I'm am a burden sometimes. Like I'm just the most annoying 16 year old on the planet to him.
All those comments like,
'Hurry up and turn 17!'
'Why can't you just be older?'
I just feel terrible. Like there isn't anyone I can talk to and actually explain how I feel.
I feel extremely left out at the moment and he will never know that either because I don't make it clear enough, or because he just doesn't care.
But either way, I don't know. Maybe when I'm 17 I'll go to heaps of 'drinks nights' without him!
The only thing pissing me off is that he hasn't made a single effort to invite me. I'm not busy tonight and he knows that. As my boyfriend, shouldn't he make an effort to be with me? Because he wants to!? Not because he has to. (Mind you, even making an effort to be with me because he has to would be nice.)