What are your demiromantic bisexual Bellamy Blake headcannons??? 😊
Holy shit, I am so glad you asked!!! Brace yourself; it’s gonna be a long ride - it practically turned into drabbles and ficlets. Hope it’s what you were looking for!
Boy With a Broken Soul, Heart With a Gaping Hole
On the Ark, Bellamy realizes pretty quickly thatlove has nothing to do with sex. There has never been a Mr. Blake in his life,only Aurora. And the things his mom did to keep him and O safe from her “crimes”were about power. I actually think that, as much as he is allosexual af, he hada sex-repulsed period in his early teens from the emotional trauma of putting up with all that shit. To him, love is the kisses he plants onO’s forehead, the stories he reads her, the lengths to which he goes to find apapier-maché mask….and then of course, when Octavia is arrested and Aurorafloated, everything changes.
The thing is, Bellamy has always been attractedto people; he’s just never done anything about it. And honestly, he’s hadbigger things to worry about than his blatant bisexuality. But as a janitor, he’sangry and bitter and looking for energy to burn. So he slips under girls whoteach him how to please a partner and boys who drive over the edge, and hedoesn’t discriminate.
Whatever the Hell People Want Isn’t Always What You Think
When he gets down to earth, he’s disgusted withhimself – he may love sex, but he’s not careless, per se. Still, he knows hecan have a good time and get the power he wants – he’s not complaining aboutthe threesomes.
But then it takes a turn for the worse.Suddenly, there’s barely 16-year-old Murphy slipping into his tent, and Bellamyis not gonna lie – he’s attractive and clearly enthralled. Bellamy is Murphy’sfirst kiss, and as Murphy unbuttons Bellamy’s pants and looks up at him withlonging eyes, Bell realizes with a jolt of dread that Murphy is already half inlove with him after only three or four days. Bellamy was not prepared. Bell doesn’t get how the fuck that’s possible.
Bellamy fucks him anyway, and when the noose isaround his neck, it’s that for which he’s most sorry. Maybe Murphy wouldn’thave felt so betrayed by the near-execution if Bellamy hadn’t taken advantage of him first.
Bellamy Tries to Be a Good Bro, Fails Miserably
Sleeping with Raven is great – she gets revenge,he gets her off and himself, too. The sex is fantastic. It’s a shame that Raven’sso…romantic, honestly. He knows Finn was everything to her and not just aboyfriend, but it almost doesn’t occur to him that sex without romantic ORbusiness strings could be damaging to other people. It breaks his (platonic,demiromantic) heart.
His First Real Crush Crushes Half His Soul When He Leaves
He wonders, sometimes, if he’d realized he caredfor (loved) Finn too late. The edges of something burning in his gut, a longing lookhere, a panicked protectiveness he felt there – there wasn’t anything brotherlyabout that, not at all, and it took him two whole months of being constantly byhis side to see that. They’d been bookends in ways he hadn’t realized, and hehates himself for only realizing that once Clarke stabs him. When Ravencollapses in his arms, crying and cursing Clarke’s name, he cries for who and what he’slost in that beautiful boy, too - Finn, his pacifistic passion, his flippant comments, and his surprising gentleness will never be replaced. He gave Bellamy a lightness he never knew he had before, and Bell knows he’ll probably never get it back.
There’s Always Hope, But He Doesn’t Need To Be Fixed Anymore
He and Echo work well as a team, and she’spretty attractive. He knows she’s interested; he knows it’s an option. But heknows better than to give her his heart, and he warns her not to expect toomuch. (She knows he still likes her company anyway.)
When She Leaves, He Realizes He’s Been Falling Since the Day Trip
The worst is the full-body fire he feels whenClarke presses her lips to his cheek. There’s nothing sexual about it, but hefeels like he would tear down another mountain just to have her stay, with herhead in his lap and his fingers twining through her hair as they shared theirburden of being “just” murderers. She leaves, and she takes his heart. It’sonly the second, maybe second-and-a-half time, that he’s sure he has one in the same way Octavia and Raven do.
He wants his friends to be happy even if he can’t be.
Harper and Monroe have barely spoken outside of being part of his militia. He introduces the two and watches the fireworks. He doesn’t totally get how Miller fell for Monty after the “you’re a great thief” comment (he’s been updated on how ANNOYINGLY CUTE Monty apparently is), but he knows that the tenderness there is real and deep, the same as his could’ve been for Finn and is for Clarke.
The only one who gets his deal after Clarke leaves is Marcus, though.
Marcus isn’t demiromantic by any stretch of the imagination - he was best friends with Jake Griffin and fell in love with his best friend’s girlfriend, Abby, at first sight. But he does get what it feels like to grow close to someone and hold a torch for them. He and Callie Cartwig were both in love with Abby, and their QPP (Callie was also demiromantic) worked because they could have sex and be happy and care for each other and still recognize their own limits.
TL;DR it’s Marcus who taps Bellamy on the shoulder when he spaces out, who gives him not-unkind looks, who reminds him that as much as romance is Big and Real, drinking water and taking care of himself are important, too. It’s Marcus who reminds Bell, like a weird uncle, that romantic feelings are just one part of the picture. They are a factor in his life, but they don’t complete it.