#fenya rambles

[fenya-stays]

Seungmin’s voice gives me such comfort. I can’t even put it into words. He sounds like a hug.

[fenyas-home]

Didn't plan to build a whole notebook ecosystem.

However, I have now accumulated:

a journal

a calendar for memory keeping

a to-do book

a media journal

a notebook for letters I can never send

a ring binder for scrapbooking and art related resources

multiple sketchbooks (some of which I'll probably fill by the end of the year, yay!)

I don't really know how I got here, but deleting social media off my phone and suppressing shorts on yt on my browser probably helped. I can only recommend it.

[fenya-stays]

on days like this i’m more grateful to fanfic writers than any of them will ever know. i’ve been hiding inside minsung stories all weekend and ngl it kept me from doing some very stupid shit

if you write fics or smaus or anything, know that someone needs that. someone is keeping their head above water with your work. someone gets some relief from their struggles through your creation

your writing is so valuable. thank you.

[fenya-stays]

I love Gale. I always will. He was my first and he’s my favourite romantic partner in BG3. I just want to take care of him on every way. I want him to be my friend, husband, teacher, lover…everything. He’s perfect and I need to show him.

Sorry, BG3 brain rot is real and Gale has had my whole heart from the moment I first laid eyes on him.

Next run will be a Gale romance again.

[fenya-stays]

Not to be a downer, but I can’t help but think that the fact that Lee Know wrote Youth, a song about celebrating and enjoying your youth, is so incredibly sad considering that he’s the first one of the boys to leave for military service.

It’s like he’s already heartbroken about leaving.

Sorry if that ruined your day. Or Youth. I just had to share.

[fenya-stays]

me: so, the SKZ tour has been officially announced and if they come to Germany, I will see them hubby: you mean if they come to Europe. make a trip out of it!

when I tell you I married the right man omg 😭🥰

[fenya-stays]

I had a shit night but I woke up and remembered that tumblr would be full of new SKZ content and suddenly I don't care about how my PMS gives me tooth pain ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[fenya-stays]

listen, I love fanfiction. I write fanfiction (see @fenya-scribbles). I am obsessed with reading MinSung (and sometimes other pairings) before going to sleep. However, I have noticed a trend (or maybe just a hint it was written using AI but I don’t want to point fingers if that assumption is wrong) that makes it very much impossible for me to read newer releases, primarily on AO3.

There’s this sentence structure, that I really despise and that showed up over and over and over. It’s like

Character A does something. Not like this. Not like that. Just like this.

I notice overall an increase in authors telling me what’s not happening - which is driving me up the wall.

If it’s not happening, you don’t have to tell me! Better yet, show me what’s happening, so you don’t have to tell me explicitly what’s not happening.

I understand that everyone has their style, but this kind of sentence structure and stating what’s not going on has appeared in so many fics by so many different people, that it really makes me only search for older fics by now. Which is sad. Because I want to support newer writers. Or anyone who’s writing stuff right now. I want to read fics inspired by current SKZ shenanigans. And at this point it’s just no fun for me anymore.

Maybe I’m just spoiled by all the phenomenal fics I read these past weeks. Maybe I’m alone in this. All I can do is hope it’s a trend that will blow over.