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[lisbeth-kk]

Serenity After the Turmoil

TW: domestic violence, nightmares. (not graphic)

Sherlock fandom

The nightmares have been constant companions from early childhood. Back then it had mostly to do with monsters under the bed, which later was traded for more violent ones. It didn’t help matters that my parents quarrelled loudly either. I still remember the first time I heard my father slap my mother. It made me nauseous, scared and angry. I wanted to get out of bed to make him stop, but I was only ten and so much smaller than him.

At uni, I got a respite from the nightmares. The most violent my dreams got, was reliving rugby matches. 

In Afghanistan, I didn’t dream at all. At least I never remembered anything when I woke. Too tired and exhausted from stitching up patients and keeping my body fit with a strict exercise regime.

It was when I got back to London that my real nightmares began. They were mostly related to the war, but particularly nasty episodes from my parents’ fighting interfered occasionally. 

Waking up from these dreams, did nothing to ease my agony. I had thought that surrounding myself with bright coloured pictures and photos would be a good idea. To make my brain see sense. To realise where I was. To calm me. I was an idiot.

***

The first time I had a nightmare at Baker Street, I apparently cried out loud, because Sherlock was kneeling beside my bed when I opened my eyes.

“You’re safe, John. Home. At Baker Street,” he said quietly.

His voice instantly calmed me before my self-conscious made itself heard. I blushed, tried to assure him I was fine. That he didn’t have to check on me.

“Alright,” he said and squeezed my shoulder before he went downstairs.

Moments later he started to play his violin even if it was 2 am. 

“Thank you,” I whispered as tears run down my cheeks.

***

The next time it happened, my sub-consciousness must’ve been at play, because I only whimpered slightly when I woke. No sound was heard from downstairs.

Normally, it took me forever to calm down, and I didn’t want to wake Sherlock by descending to the kitchen to make tea at this hour. I opened my eyes and looked around the room. It was held in muted colours, which I realised had a much more soothing effect than my brightly coloured bedsit.

I didn’t know if it was Mrs. Hudson who’d been in charge of choosing everything, but I thought it might be. My room was quite similar to the rest of the flat when it came to colours and furniture. The only splash of colour was the smiley face in the living room.

To my surprise I heard Sherlock start to play downstairs. Had he heard me, or was he unable to sleep himself? He had warned me that he played the violin at odd hours. I lay still for a while and listened to him play. They were all soothing melodies, nothing harsh like the things he used to play whenever Mycroft visited, or he was unable to solve a puzzle.

I debated with myself. Should I go down there to keep him company? To tell him how soothing it was to hear him play like this. How thankful I was for everything. How safe I felt, despite the toxic environment he created with some of his experiments, not to mention the body parts I found all over the place. Would he appreciate that, or just scoff at me and call me an idiot?

“Only one way to find out, Watson. Into battle,” I told myself and went downstairs.

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The most beautiful raven

Written for @flashfictionfridayofficial with the prompt #FFF256 Muted colours

Fandom: Yatagarasu: The Raven Does Not Choose Its Master

Characters: Wakamiya/Nazukihiko, Yukiya

Word count: 912

NAZUKIHIKO always hired all the girls in Hanamachi. He had a penchant for the pretty ones, whose faces were so made up one could not discern their true identity underneath the heavy cosmetics hiding their eyes and what lay beneath the skin. How much it would cost him to ask for these courtesans to entertain him didn’t make any difference at all, which boggled the teenager.

He never saw him kiss them. They were next to him laughing, making a jest. At least, he never invited them to his room in front of him. They talked, sang, drank wine, dined, and often there would be dancers among those beautiful women.

He wondered greatly what kind of woman Wakamiya would be interested in ever since Lord Kiei had asked his nephew about the Crown Prince and his preferences for a spouse.

Yukiya could count on his fingers how many trips to Hanamachi, the central pleasure quarter, they made after he insisted that he never liked it. It wasn’t as if he had an aversion for the opposite sex. When Wakamiya left him as a collateral at the Ravine, he didn’t know how many times the men over there told him to indulge with the courtesans on his free time. He knew that he would turn 14 and boys like him were encouraged to make their first experience with the prostitutes as early as possible as the beginning of their rite of passage to adulthood.

His young master was so confusing that the other night he thought of Taruhi and the face of Yukichi on his mind caught him by surprise. Suddenly he was missing his family that he decided to lounge at the terrace and stay there the whole night. It must be that the lunar festival was upon them. His mother sent a letter if he could take a few days off to celebrate at their Taruhi mansion. Of course, that was only a suggestion as his year of serving Wakamiya wasn’t over yet. She wanted to know if she could see him on his 14th birthday.

“Cannot sleep?” A voice so soft he knew to whom it belonged to.

“Your Highness!” Yukiya’s tone went up a step higher.

“Did I startle you, Yukiya?”

“You did and I was prepared to run away.” The boy said jokingly.

He snickered. The Crown Prince with his demure face let out that impish sound Yukiya did not expect in a thousand of years.

“I am thinking of Taruhi. The house is quite a riot during the Lunar Festival where we invite the townspeople to join us for a moon-viewing,” Yukiya reminisced, leaving a faint smile on his face. His mother would hold a tanka poetry reading and then the children would feast on dango and sweet potatoes. One time when the servants decorated the house with pampas grass, Yukichi fell asleep on them that when he woke up his face was swollen. He was allergic to them, the family found out. But Yukiya learned to love them.

( x )

“Here everything is in muted colours,” the teenager continued. “I am still not used to palace intrigues.”

“If you don’t love someone,

Or you don’t

Have a heart.

Also the pathos

Is understand by that.”

Yukiya was mesmerised the first time he heard this tanka, his mother was standing on the makeshift stage, the moon was afire, while the faces were focused on the lady of the house. The voice was loud and clear, commanding yet determined, and her eyes were looking at someone, who was seated in the farthest corner of the veranda. It was his father whose muffled cries were not heard. The Taruhi chief shed tears silently as he listened to his mother say the words.

Heady for the remembrances, he did not hear Wakamiya at first.

“You will also turn 14, quite a feat it I may say.” Nazukihiko watched him looking at the horizon, four hours from now it would be dawn.

“I remember turning 14 and I was somewhere else, running away from this place, my head was on everyone’s chopping block,” the Crown Prince ruminated. “Amusing that it still is. The difference is that I am older, and I came back to take my rightful place in this country.”

Yukiya finally looked at his young master, whose life was tinged of sadness, despair, and betrayal when he only had a few people around him. How could he leave him alone?

“You need me,” Yukiya said matter of factly. Nazukihiko was silent then he walked up to Yukiya a few steps closer. Their kimonos touching each other.

“I do,” Nazukihiko assented. Yukiya knew that his master was a beautiful young man but then he never paid attention to the details. He found himself staring at Nazukihiko’s long eyelashes that overwhelmed him suddenly. Scrunching his eyes, he then bent his head on his arms leaning on the handrail feeling embarrassed.

Better stop whatever this feeling creeping into me.

“Yukiya,” the Prince called his attention. “Why don’t you go to your room and call it a night, hmm?”

The boy nodded and straightened up his back and forced a yawn that threatened to become real as he walked away from his young master.

“Good night, Your Highness, or rather, good morning,” his head made a light bow.

“Yukiya, I’ll see you around lunchtime,” Nazukihiko said.

“Yes…” For one last time before being taken away by dreams, Yukiya looked at his Prince, beautiful and majestic at the same time.

tbc

[jlilycorbie]

FFF 256: Nothing and Nobody

Thanks to @flashfictionfridayofficial for the prompt.

I drifted, untouched and unmoored, through a world that had forgotten me so thoroughly even I no longer recalled when or how my last connection to another person frayed and fell away. I didn't even know when, exactly, I left behind my life and my body, and I expected I might wander unnoticed through the world and unacknowledged by the afterlife.

I occupied myself by examining the tethers between every living thing, from the flimsiest silk strand entangled during brief interactions to bindings that could outlast the sun. I learned to stretch myself along them from one end to the other, even when the tattered remains waited for their lost halves to weave together again. 

One day, I idly followed a flimsy line to a girl who drooped against a sign pole, picking at the edges of her ragged nails. She looked up, directly at me. "Did everyone forget you, too?"

I dropped the fragile line and it disintegrated completely. "They forgot you?"

She nodded, disconsolate, and she blinked away tears and put on a brave voice to say, "Sure, it's easy. I'm nobody."

Though I had existed in a world of muted colors for as long as I could remember, my vision filled with vivid crimson. The dust of someone else's care for this child clung to my fingers. "That's funny," I said. "I'm nothing."

She smiled for me, even with tears brimming in her eyes, and she talked quietly as I sorted through her connections to the world. She was young, too young to have only a few weak ties left. Her voice trailed as I stretched myself along each line until I found one, thin as gossamer, and tugged.

It didn't take long before another girl arrived. She called a name, and Nobody didn't even look up. 

"I don't know how," the new girl said, "I knew somebody needed me here." She crouched by the girl, and the line between them glinted and grew. 

Somebody glanced at me, and a thin thread tangled between us. "Maybe something told you."

[krastbannert]

FFF #256 - color of the deep

Huh, this is a record for me, I think. It's only been two weeks since I did one of these.

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Prompt was Muted Colors, posted on AO3 as "color of the deep."

Is this the best thing I've ever written? Absolutely not. Was it fun? Yes, actually, it was, and I finally got to briefly describe what mermaids in this universe look like, so that was fun.

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“The true beauty of the sea is only seen from beneath the waves.” - Kasoni proverb

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The first thing he notices are the colors.

Everything is distorted, muted, grayed out, like a film was placed over a lens.

It’s strange, he thinks. It’s a different world down here. It’s at once totally alien, completely against everything he has ever known, and yet…something feels so familiar. Not like home, but something so incredibly close that he can’t put a name to it.

He glances around, blinking against the water; the feeling of breathing in water, even knowing that whatever spell that Ilaera and Aris had conjured was working, was so alien, but it offered so much.

He’d never seen her home. Not really. Hakim had only seen photographs, and even then, only once. Rya almost couldn’t believe him when he told her that - she’d just stared across the poker table, her cards folded in her hands, mouth practically on the floor.

“Really, geezer? Of all the places you’ve been, you haven’t been down there?”

He’d just shrugged. He grew up in the desert, and not exactly near the coast, either - she’d seen his home, seen the desert and the stark beauty that lay hidden within.

“What’s it like?” he asks.

Rya had just paused for a moment, and closed her eyes, as if she was somewhere else, sometime else, almost.

“I’ll show you.”

(He can remember when he’d told her the same thing, what feels like a lifetime ago.)

It takes months, but finally, somehow, they end up in Kasoni, and she takes him to the reef she’d grown up on - it’s the exact opposite of the desert he’d born to.

Everywhere he looks, there’s life. He floats along with the current, barely kicking his feet, gazing on as fish dart in and out of the coral, a spectacle of shimmering, muted color that he’s never imagined in his wildest dreams. He can glance up above him, at the surface of the water, and even in the day it sparkles like starlight.

But what he can’t stop looking at is the colors.

They’re everywhere he looks.

Red and green and orange and blue and purple and yellow and a thousand other colors he can’t even begin to name, but all somehow dark and distorted. 

And yet, somehow, it’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.

So many colors flash before his eyes as he clumsily kicks his feet, hovering over the coral, that he can’t help but stare, no matter what he tries.

They flash in front of his eyes, on the fish and coral and even in the water itself, somehow, and he barely even knows where to look.

A tiny orange and white clownfish pokes out of an anemone, stares at him for a brief moment, then darts back into the waving tentacles. A moray, mottled green and yellow, stares at him, lazily watching out of its little corner. A spotted grouper - a massive fish, almost as big as him, he thinks - darts faster than he could have imagined after an octopus that changes color even as he watches.

(Hakim can scarcely believe it.

All his life, he’d remembered color in the clothes and the glass of his village.

But here, deep beneath the waves in the reefs of Kasoni, color is everywhere.)

(If he could stay here for a thousand years, he would.)

Even Rya, somewhere in the distance, shines with color, the scales of her tail a glimmering gold and turquoise beacon in the distance. (She was whispering to something massive - a shark, she’d said, that she’d known when they were both just pups. )

(He never pretended to understand her.)

Hakim barely pays attention to her, though, even when she swims back to his side, darting around him with an unbelievable grace. He just stares at the colors all around him, at the iridescent light that shines down from above the water, at the way it shines on the coral and the fish.

(They’re muted and indistinct, and he knows that some scientist would say it’s because of the water, because it blocks the light and the colors this far down.

He’d tell them to come down here, and see for themselves, just how little that mattered.)

“How do you like it?” Rya asks him later when they finally, finally come to the surface, her smile bearing her sharp canines, her gills fluttering in the air.

(Maybe it’s just the spell that let him stay underwater with Rya, but somehow, even her face, still striped gold and yellow and with tiny fins on the side and back of her neck, seems just a little more colorful.)

(He’d shown her the desert, and the beauty that lived in the harshest place on Iera.

She’d shown him the ocean, and the most colorful world he’d ever imagined.)

Hakim just smiles as he thinks of the world of color below them, at the grayed out, muted world that somehow had more life than anywhere else he’d seen in his life.

(It was enough, almost, to make him believe again.)

“It’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”

[lukas-clost]

From dust to Dust

Thank you to @flashfictionfridayofficial for the amazing prompt! I haven't written in a hot second and this got me writing in a way that I haven't in a while, so thank you oh-so-much!

For context, this is an Undertale AU fanfic following Kate (an OC detective in training), who has, up till now, been trying to solve human and monster murder cases for over a month, with the increasing amount of the latter eating her up inside.

content warnings; suicidal thoughts, murders, monster deaths

I never paid attention to dust.

It was, after all, an almost imperceptible nuisance; always swept away by a broom, sucked up into a vacuum or washed away with a mop. It was useless. At least, the earth's dust was.

Monster Dust held a different story. A thousand different stories, all sprinkled onto a beloved object. Stories of hundreds of years trapped Underground, of Hope and of Love, of endurance and then freedom. Stories cut short, stolen and discarded on the sidewalk, an alley, in their own homes. Stories left unfinished, untold, forgotten.

I always thought Dust would look like ashes. Like the cremated remains of a human corpse, or better yet, the remnants of a forest fire, ashes drifting down like gentle rain, fertilising the ground to bring new life into the world. It used to look like it still had life. Like the Hope could not be removed from the Dust. Like they were one and the same, glittering with the unbridled joys of life, glowing with the thousands of stories waiting to be told.

Stories that always deserved to be told.

But after a while, the colours get muted. The Dust no longer glitters with life or glows with Hope. The Ziplock bags all just pile up on top of each other to create an endless mass of grey, a mountain whose height cannot be reached, which screams from the top for me to tell their stories. The voices echo, deafening and unwavering over and over and over again, they cry in my ears. An angry torrent that doesn't let me see beyond the grey, that drowns me and pulls me into a familiar dark embrace which holds me closer and closer, suffocates me, brings me nearer to the dust which I so loathe and so wish--

A knock at the door drew Kate out of her daydream. With a shaky sigh, she rubbed her face, squinting her eyes to ease their throbbing as the person opened the door.

"Another report came in..."

It was Edward. His voice was soft as he spoke and he moved carefully around the room, trying not to topple any of the piles of information or himself. He held a mug of coffee in one hand and a case file in another, Ziplock bag stapled to the front.

Gingerly placing the file in front of her, he gave her a stern look, as if chastising her for still being in the office this late. Like he could talk. She had the common sense to look sheepish, though, as she thanked him for the information. After some light hearted conversation, she waved him away with a smile, saying how they both needed to get back to work.

Forcing a glance at the file, she took note of the name Jerry, wondering what stories they had, what their favourite object was, what it would take for it to be me in that Ziplock bag.

I never paid attention to Dust.

I wish I never had to.

[orion-lacroix]

A crossroad

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words: 612

Tw: mention of blood

Blood.

Blood was all they could feel. There was blood running down their neck, down their collarbones, down their arms. They could feel blood running down their face, from their nose and it pooled between their lips. When they opened their eyes, stuck together by the dried up blood, which had crusted in their eyelashes and dried they looked around.

They could not see much, from the forest that created a wall around them they could see the muted colours of the trees, more grey than green. They fog around them added a layer of black and white, turning the colours into shades of grey. They turned around, with legs that didn’t feel familiar, they couldn’t tell if their body was right or wrong, it just felt off. There was something different about their body but they couldn’t recall what had changed.

They looked down at their arms, looking at the thick, dark liquid running down their arms slowly, it was too dark to be blood. It had more the consictency of mollasse. It was too dark to be human too, but something in their heart told them it was blood, even if it wasn’t human.

A rumble tore through the small clearing, a bony hand tearing the dirt a few feets from them. The earth lifted to make way to the tall figure that emerged from the dirt, it was a man, too tall to be anything human or elvish or anything they might have known. A skull was on his head, serving as a kind of mask or helmet. Too big to be a deer or a moose, instead of the regular two set of antler there were four antlers, absolutely gigantic. The skull was a pure white, which contrasted with the muted orange of his clothes drapping over his shoulder and wrapping around his waist.

“Where am I?” They asked.

“That is not the right question, do you recall your own name, your own life?” Asked the being, twirling a staff just as tall as him in his hand.

“Who are you? Why can’t I remember who I am?” Asked the human, unsure of themself, panic making its way in their voice.

“I am a god, a real one, the god of the paths, the ones made and the ones that have yet to be discovered, the crossroad that have yet to be walked.” Answered the god, the voice echoing in the fog around them doing nothing to calm the panic in the human.

“As for your other questions, you shall know that some powerfull beings are at work here and in your desperation you reached to me. As for why you cannot recall a thing, I needed to meet you unbiased, when you had yet to walk this path.”

They took a step back, seeking refuge in the fog surrounding them, but the staff of the god stopped them, wrapping behind their back. They were forced to look as the god took a step toward them, step so much bigger than their own.

“You, little human, have many paths in front of you, many choices to make, I can only tell you that there is always more than one thing that can be done, innaction is a choice. Crossroads are made to be taken, not stayed in. Change is not to be feared.” As fast as it had happened the god went back to the earth, the pressure of his staff gone from their back. The human was left to stare at the black goo that clung to their body, and they were forced to reconsider that it might not be blood but the representation of something else.

[nyamadermont]

The Veil Over My Eyes

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Avatar: The Legend of Korra

337 words

Breathing forcefully, breathing harshly, breathing defiantly, Lin Beifong turned her back on her now former companion. Lover. Boyfriend. 

Whatever. 

It didn’t matter anymore. 

As she turned her eyes away from the red, orange, and yellow robes that surrounded her, turned her face to the grey skies and turbulent waters of the bay, she could almost feel the colors melt away from her vision. 

If you lose your soulmate, is it as though you never knew love at all?

Now she knew. 

The sun was white in the sky, not yellow. 

The fruit she ate every morning was grey, not orange.  

The roses in the Peace Officers Memorial Gardens were black, not red. 

Her wardrobe dwindled, month by month, to white sleeveless shirts and black trousers. Muted greens and greys paired adequately with black. The art came down from her wall, save for the one last watercolor Aang had given her before he died. 

He had painted her, training with Kya, Katara, and Toph. “My four favorite women in this life,” he had said. And Katara had poked him. 

“No more jokes about Tai Min or Rangi, if you please.”

And there had been laughter. 

Back when she could see colors. 

When the Cultural Center blew up, the fire was so bright it almost blinded her. But she gaped in amazement because it was not entirely white. She could see hints of yellow and orange and red, as if brushes had been rinsed and reused, ghostly residue of hues bleeding across her vision. 

When they broke into the Red Lotus’ hiding place under the mountain, Bumi’s form stood out in the dim light of the cave. His clothes stood out from the sea of robes she knew to have been made from the same linens, soaked in the same dyes.

She lifted him, his arm over her shoulder, and asked him what hurt.

He frowned at her, bravely claiming that he had never felt better.

But when she frowned at him, he gasped.

“Lin, are your eyes green?”

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Los colores del hogar - The Colors of Home

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Los colores del hogar - The Colors of Home

Word count: 790 Fandom: Encanto (2021) Pairing: Mirabel/Bruno CW: romantic relationship between (unknowing) uncle/niece

Mirabel decides to bring the colors of home into Bruno's life, improving her own at the same time

Inspired by "City of Angels" series by @heartniche: https://archiveofourown.org/series/4117141

Also read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56484841

In America, muted colors were a sign of order, of cleanliness, of sophistication.

The hospital Mirabel worked in was light grey, with an interior of light wood and grey granite only interrupted by light green and blue upholstery. Her scrubs were pastels, just like the nursing program supervisor had recommended when she arrived in Los Angeles, EB-3 visa carefully stuck in her maroon pasaporte.

The fruit truck was bright yellow. Her colleagues thought it was gaudy. They also thought the flowers and birds she had embroidered on her pastel scrubs were gaudy, but were too "polite" to say it out loud - they left that to their eyes.

The sad, middle-aged man who ran the fruit truck and sounded like home, even like the family she'd left behind, brightened every time she approached to collect her perfectly-seasoned mango and rehash the latest episode of what her slovenly roommates called "Mirabel's melodramatic trash TV."

After his friend (neighbor? landlady's shiftless son?) informed her that the man's name was Bruno and that he was currently having a low-grade medical emergency in his apartment, she found someone who needed the colors of home - on his plate, in his apartment… on her.

Whenever Mirabel went to watch her "melodramatic trash TV" with someone who didn't need her to translate the language or the culture, she stopped wearing those dully-colored, almost masculine American jeans and t-shirts that she'd bought to fit in, but instead her brightly-printed skirts and frilly blouses that showed off her collarbones.

Bruno worked hard, had taught himself English, and best she could tell, did not drink to excess or do drugs. Decades of manual labor had kept him fit, and had only refined those beautiful hands, not coarsened them. His manners were oddly prim, more like those of her university-graduate father than those of the construction workers who crudely signaled their appreciation of her backside as she walked from the school gate to the car that whisked her and her sisters home.

Her roommates, who were even worse housekeepers than he was and appeared to be "hooking up" with new guys every week, would mock her for being interested in a man who had to be at least fifty. Her colleagues would turn their noses up at him because he was a fruit truck guy, and not one of the fancy ones that charged way too much for small underripe portions, but the "ethnic" one. Her family… Dios. If she dated while on this placement, anything less than a doctor would be a humiliation for them all - so she shoved what they would think about Bruno out of her mind.

But there was just something irresistible about him. A whole world was hidden in his dark green eyes. So she made the dishes everyone back home loved, using the nutritional knowledge she had picked up in her studies to replace some of the meat with colorful vegetables, and her mother's tips for making convenient, appealing leftovers. She kept wearing those bright skirts and frilly blouses, but started taking them up and in, bit by bit, showing increasing amounts of her warm-colored skin and beginning to despair of him taking her increasingly unsubtle hints.

Until finally, something broke (ironically while she was dressed in the plain t-shirt and jogging pants he had scrounged up after he rescued her from a nervous breakdown in the middle of her shift) and they could no longer deny the need for the home they had found in each other.

Once he had made her his, she felt free to bring the bright, clean colors of home into his sad apartment. New sheets and comforter for the bed they had started sharing most nights, proper curtains, a set of harmoniously-mismatched plates from the secondhand store, and a place where every new piece of her artwork was verbally appreciated. She seriously considered moving away from her slovenly roommates.

Marriage had become even more unfashionable back home than it was in Los Angeles, but she was starting to wonder if he might consider it. He had been in America long enough that he was probably a citizen through The Amnesty. If they married, she could get a real Green Card instead of her restrictive nursing visa and, as he had suggested, find a career she actually liked - maybe try being an art teacher… or even an artist. She could give him a child or two before he was too old to chase them.

And then her mother showed up with her sophisticated, muted-colored suits for a conference and mentioned that the man in the bright yellow fruit truck looked like she imagined her brother Bruno would after all those years away from home.

The color washed out of Mirabel's dreams.