Trust
I don't think I could have stopped myself if I tried. The insatiable curiosity, the complexity of his thought processes, the way in which he lied so elegantly and effortlessly. I was interested in what made him tick, what it had taken to craft such a man. Perhaps I knew somewhere, in the deepest parts of my shredded soul, that this beautiful creature would eventually be my undoing, the death of everything I had come to know. My ending.
I didn't care.
I watched him fall and gods...I went in after him. I threw myself against the chains of fate that were inching tighter around him, I used everything I had ever learned trying to break just a single link. Just one would be enough for him to grasp and pull himself out. I wanted him to pull himself out but I wasn't willing to stand by and just let him slip away. I couldn’t let that happen.
Even when his face reflected shadow and destruction limned his eyes, I saw him. I saw who he could have been, who he really was. I knew They reached down and pulled out the very worst in people, the darkest and most vile parts to put on display and terrify the masses with. Yet I loved him even then - even at the end of the world. I had found the soul that had been drifting through the cosmos, waiting for me to arrive.
I thought I'd been too late, that it didn't matter if he was my mate, if his soul and mine had been created together in the darknesses past - I thought I would lose him and I found that to be entirely unacceptable. It did not matter to me if I hurt, if I bled, it did not matter if I had to walk through hell itself - I would find him and I would bring him back to me. Even if I was not what he wanted in the end, I would have done it a thousand times over just to see him smile once again. His happiness was all that mattered to me - a shocking revelation. Yet he did destroy me, he took everything I thought I knew and placed it on its head, he tore down my walls and broke through every offensive line I’d ever had in place. I thought I had burned out long ago, that I was simply an echo waiting for the sounds of the world to fade away once and for all, but for him I caught fire. I trusted him, I trusted in fate and for the first time - I trusted in myself.
I loved him and I love him still and in every reality and universe, he is my missing piece. Truth has never been an easy burden to bear but this one - perhaps just this one - will never feel heavy on my shoulders.
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