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[sherl-grey]

hello!! <3

[insert prompt here] for the ask game! - "Can you really not see me?"

oh my god Maddy this prompt...... oh my GOD..... i am sorry this ask is going to be late but i don't think i'll be able to stop myself at 3 sentences...

technically it says "same setting as your current project" but like, a project is current if the document has one whole sentence in it, right? (basically, I often want to write a fic to this song, but it's absolutely not a shippy song in its original meaning which makes me feel guilty)

The Doctor let his eyes slip shut, hearts burning bonfires in the depths of his chest, memory after memory flashing through his mind and drowning him in feelings he’d thought long-shaken: suffocating regret, vast and rolling like a wild sea; crippling, sharp, loud loneliness, as the silence in his head seemed to echo until it formed an endless void; and the darkest and most bitter seeds of self-loathing, blooming instantaneously into a tangle of slowly throbbing aches that would plague him until the day he finally, blessedly took his last breath.

Was this his penance for that horrible day--to relive it again and again, to face the consequences of his choices repeatedly, to force himself to make that impossible choice over and over?

“Can you really not see me?” her voice cut in, slicing through the storm clouds of his thoughts and he gasped against his will, basking in the respite her presence offered him even now, even centuries after he’d seen her last.

He turned to face her, the specter that had been following his earlier incarnation around, the ghost of the girl that he loved so dearly, and carefully he catalogued the details that time had allowed to fade in his mind--the soft, rounded curve of her cheeks, tinged ever so slightly with color when she looked up at him; the slight curve to her lips when he did something particularly silly or clever that she didn’t want to acknowledge; the lines that settled on her forehead when she frowned at him, just as she was doing now, confusion and hurt lacing her tone.

“Of course I can see you,” he told her quietly, swallowing hard at her surprised intake of breath. “I see you all the time.”

And he met her eyes fully at last, the smile already halfway formed by the time they’d locked gazes, and he marveled at the way she was able to so effortlessly part the storm, the way her light seemed to follow him straight into the darkness to illuminate his path.

She was here, on the darkest day of his lives (three times over), and he’d thought there couldn’t be a single thing in the universe to convince him that he could be forgiven, that he could ever again be more the mistakes he’d made.

She was here, and maybe, just maybe… maybe he’d been wrong.

[ambertea]

welcome back! we missed your hot takes and amazing photoshop skills 😂

omg i missed u hi! i'm back with the HOT TAKES but unfortunately me and photoshop have fallen out

[gingerteaonthetardis]

Before the beginning for the ask game! Good luck with your wips!

thank you!! i have more than i know what to do with, i'll tell you. this is a little peek into my fae ninerose au called the terms.

For months, she told herself that she'd just do it—just drive out to the country, where things were green and wide open, and the air was cleaner and colder, and the ever-present hot breath of London could not touch her. And for months, she put the impulse aside, always with the same refrain: Maybe later. There was always something more important, something pressing, to do with her job or her mum or her mates, and she always felt herself caving to that pressure and abandoning her hopeful plans.

Until the day she didn't.

[aftercamlann]

rosemary for remembrance

words by @fictionalinfinity, art by @dollopheadedmerlin

Summary:  After the Battle of Camlann and Arthur's death, Morgana escapes with her life while Merlin returns to a changed Camelot. Working alongside Gwen, the ban on magic is officially lifted and Merlin is made court sorcerer. However, not everyone is happy. Merlin is haunted by his failure to kill Morgana. After the citizens of Camelot turn on Merlin and refuse to accept his magic, he decides it's time to stop Morgana once and for all. Along the way, however, Merlin realizes there may be more to Morgana than there seems. Captured by witch hunters, they are forced to rely on each other for survival, and only together can they unlock the secrets of Arthur's death, and better yet, how to bring him back. Click HERE for the story and click HERE for the art!

[jube-art]

the fic balancing act by author fictionalinfinity

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[merlinfic]

hey there!! i was wondering if you had any fics where the knights found out about merlin's father (or lack thereof), or a reveal of how that affected him growing up? sorry if that's a little randomly specific lol. thanks for all the great work you do!

Hiya! Enjoy!

Dragonlord Discovered

Returning the Favor

Weighty and Troublesome Things

And I would look through this ask and the dragonlord!Merlin tag for more!

[desertfangs]

when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)

Ooh this is cool! Thank you for this! Let’s see: 1. I am a good writer. (I mean, not all of my writing is stellar or anything but in general I am pretty okay at it!) 2. I’m fucking hilarious. 3. I’m tenacious and determined af. 4. I give fewer fucks about what other people think about me every year. 

5. I no longer drink. Quitting drinking was a really good decision that happened gradually and due to a number of factors but honestly, I should have quit years before I did and I’m really proud of myself for not drinking even when things get really crappy. 

[peaceheather]

What’s your favorite Merlin fic you’ve written? I love all your work so it would be interesting to hear what you prefer!

Oh wow, gosh, I’m not completely sure! I mean, I like Rend and Rebuild for the angst and the military battle and world-building, I like “Visiting Hours” because it was my first Merlin fic and there’s some good h/c in it... I like “Puzzle Pieces” because it was a good follow-up to “Visiting Hours” and has a nice mom figure in it in the druid elder.

I’m proud of Heart Lines, because of the ace representation and because I wanted to write a soulmate story that offered more options than the either-or between “boinking like bunnies” and “just good friends”.

I’m proud of These Ghosts Might Be Mine because I wanted to write a time-travel fic that was different from the rest of the genre, and I think it’s the only time-travel fic that has Arthur as the one to go back and start over.

I’m proud of “And Tomorrow the World” because fluff, and giraffes, and just general feel-goodness.

Gather Before the Dawn has some terrific sensory details that still come back to me when I read. The scene in Morocco where Arthur finally meets Merlin, for example.

“Repercussions”, because Lady Madelgarde is a badass and I have a thing for angry women speaking truth to idiotic men.

In general, if I’ve managed to write a story that feels like it hasn’t quite been done before, or that takes a trope in a new direction, then I’m going to be happy with it. But I’m truly not sure that I have a single specific favorite, per se. Maybe Heart Lines... but I’m not sure if it’s my fave because of how I wrote it, or because of the reward I’ve gotten in terms of reader impact.

I also tend to be proud or specific moments rather than entire fics, so images that leap out at me from Rend and Rebuild or Wolf’s Eyes or Bought and Sold come to mind as well. 

Ahh, I don’t know! Don’t make me pick, I don’t think I can!

But thanks very much for asking. :)