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When you leave your abusive husband and decide it’s time to get yourself and your shit together.

210-190, 20lbs down, 40 to go!

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You are going to see him leave one day.And when that time comes,you will resent the whole world.You would replay his favourite song a million times.You would just want his hands over yours.But he will never come.And you will keep low for a really long time.And many days after that,you will suddenly remember the old girl in you who laughed so easily.The old girl in you who was dear to all.You will suddenly realise that he will never come back.He is gone.And that day,you will look into the mirror,trying to figure out who you became after always trying to stay and give.You will see the broken parts in you and that day,you would want to fix everything inside you.You will start with a shower.And slowly,really slowly,you will remember all those things you forgot while trying to become the perfect one for him.You'll rediscover all those small traits.By then,you would have started smiling a little more.Know that you found yourself again,that day.

| You are going to see him leave one day.🎡 |

I wanna attempt this new thing called "trying"?

-I have an 8 month old boy and lemme tell y'all "Trying" is a foreign concept and it's starting to get Britney 2007 up in here. 🙅‍♀️

An update of sorts:

Levi turns 8 months old this week. Eight of the most difficult yet most rewarding months of my entire life. There have been so many tears. Both crazy happy tears and sad gut-renching tears. It’s interesting to me how you can be so crazy in love with this beautiful wonderful baby boy, and yet so undeniably sad that you feel like your brain has turned against you. Feeling like you are literally going insane, between the happiness, the sadness, and oh man, the guilt! Shouldn’t you just be happy, goddamit?!

But, being happy didn’t come easily after Levi. Motherhood didn’t come easily. It was not a switch that miraculously got turned on the second I held him in my arms. I had no idea what I was doing and felt like I was letting him down every single time he cried. But, I loved him more than I have ever loved anything. That love got me through and is what pushed me to finally realize that maybe I wasn’t just sad. Maybe I needed some help, and then I went and got some.

In the last couple months, the clouds have finally started to dissipate and the sun is shining brighter (with the help of my doctor and an awesome new therapist). I have somehow managed to fall even more in love with my husband. He has been my rock and watching him grow into fatherhood has been an amazing and wonderful experience. We are truly the best partnership I could dream of and there is no one I would rather share parenthood with. Levi is the sweetest little boy who absolutely melts my heart. Waking up to his smile is the best part of my day. I feel like I have finally gotten to the point where I can be the best mom I can possibly be for him. I am content in knowing that I will never have it all figured out. He is my everything and I am happy.

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