ADJUSTMENT
maybe once in your life, you felt worried on how you’re supposed to adjust. how are you supposed to fit in a new, unfamiliar crowd. Siguro para sa akin, it is both a challenge and an opportunity of course to try to pick up those puzzle pieces and have them together in the most proper way. the most difficult task in such situation is when I get to question myself what has to be changed and what has to remain. Being part of a new group, you want to make sure that your personality is something that could be admirable in their eyes. You want to capture them. You want to have them--you want to be part of the whole picture. every morning you wake up knowing they’re not the same people anymore is just so challenging in my part. Kaya kong makihalubilo. I am not the type of person who would just sit in the corner and do whatever I’d like to do like as if I do not exist. I definitely exist and would show myself to them no matter how awkward it may seem at first. Syempre fc na kung fc pero sorry kailangan kong fumit-in. It is not an act to go with the flow. I am not to isolate myself from everyone kaya mag-eeffort at mag-eeffort talaga ako para makaclose ko sila.
A hetero section would really show the different people we could encounter. mixed na mixed ang peg. At first, I would really tell how shallow they are when making excuses. Moreover, wala sa mundo yung mga rason nila. next, my section is 20x noisier than that of previous sections. It’s a riot when they all agree over something. From first sections to a hetero one, I cannot say it is less good because I am both curious and excited of what else can I witness from it. A hundred and one percent sure, it’s a hella roller coaster ride.
I don’t mind having friends who are totally opposite of me. In fact, it is somehow “goals” to be in a barkada wherein no matter how different I am from them and vice versa, they would understand me and I, too, would do the same thing. Sabi nga nila, walang maiimpluwensiyahan kung walang magpapaimpluwensiya. We know ourselves. We have the control so it’s no excuse to do things out of influence. It is our own will if we did it. In short, kahit feel kong di ko sila makakaclose kasi ibang-iba sila sa’kin, I still won’t stop. try ko pa. who knows? they might be whole lot better than who they are right now.
Mahirap mag-adjust, oo. pero mas mahirap ang walang kaibigan, bes! So do your best because you’ll soon FIT IN!
