I fell in love with this one boy by his personality. The first few words I heard out of his mouth were not my favorite, but ever since then, he became my best friend and never left my side. He was the very first boy that I was able to trust with on my life. Now would you believe me if I told you the first time we started dating I broke up with him? No I guess you would not because you think I am in love with this boy. I was, but I had my reasons. Now would you believe me if I told you that ever since that day, he has tried getting me back without doing something about our relationship status? No I guess you would not because you would expect a boy to give up after a few weeks. We were still best friends after that which made me fall in love with him more. Now here comes this part…would you believe me if I told you that I dated someone else just because I thought me and that boy were actually done? No I guess you would not because you would expect me to hold onto my first love. I held onto him do not worry. While I was dating this other boy, my first love wanted me back, but did not want to jeopardize my relationship with this other boy. Now would you believe me if I told you I let my first love go? No I guess you would not because you can never let go of the person you would take a bullet for. He was still my best friend, but he would not mention love to me anymore. Now here comes the harder part. Would you believe me if I told you that I broke up with this other guy and confessed my heart to my first love? No I guess not because that is a huge fear and anxiety attack for most girls. I thought this boy never cared about me in that way anymore, but I knew he would do anything for me. That moment my world crashed down because he had no response to my confession. So what did I do? You would not believe it. I let go of him and actually fell in love with someone else.This boy broke my heart a few times, but I did not realize his actions until I heard his words. My first love was still there though by my side through it all without realizing it. I gave up on that other boy. Here comes the part that just blows my mind. Now would you actually believe me if I told you that my first love asked me out and he is still here by my side not letting go of me? Would you believe that? No I guess you would not because luck like that does not come often. Well let me tell you something. You can not get the things you desire if you do not create actions. You can let your heart keep getting broken by one boy and hate him but still love him. Talk to him. Tell him how you feel. Yeah I know you may be scared, but why not try? You will never know the outcome if you do not try. And if the outcome is bad, then just let that be your lesson that he was not the one for you. But if the outcome is great, then I am glad. Do not be scared to take actions just because you do not know how another person feels about that obstacle passing through their life since it would affect them too. So go out. Go find that boy and talk to him. You only live once and if you want to live it great do not spend your time crying over someone who was not worth it. Or crying over someone because you think he will never want you, when in reality he probably does. So pick your head up and have faith and hope, and fight for the ones you love because that was the only way I was able to have my first love be my last.
