Is it friendship if we do the things friends do,
Is it friendship even if I refuse to call it so?
Are the walls I’ve build no walls at all
No matter how I’ve toiled and severed,
And grinded up my heart into dust to
And burnt into the most brittle glass.
Stupidly brittle glass, that you peered through
And opened this Pandora’s box
Cursed to loop and circle
The same cursed song on repeat?
What if the twisted mirror my mother is
Is made of the same glass that i am?
What if my father’s brittle glass
I try so hard not to break,
And then walk around like eggshells,
No, to impose on everyone else?
What if, like glass, my very nature is to break?
I’m scared you’ll shatter me, because you will.
No matter how careful you are, glass gets dropped eventually.
And when you bend down to collect the shards,
It cuts your fingers before you can even decide,
Whether to toss the remains
Or to melt and mold it into tempered glass.
So will you watch, will you play with the figurine,
Who’s battery burns with every recharge,
Will you stand by a flickering flame knowing
Knowing it’s bound to burn out?
Or is the pit growing in my stomach
Instead a seed, growing the faintest of hope
Hope that this glass can be tempered
Tempered enough to withstand itself