Going shopping makes me both so excited for the future and also a little sad that we're still stuck with our family
I'm so ready to decorate and get the things we want to put in our own space but we're still gonna be stuck at home for so so long
I want shelves to put all our stuff on and I want just the random cute little things I see but then there's also that fear that if we get too much stuff then it'll be harder to move it out and then there's the knowing we won't be able to move out for so so long
There's a few things keeping us back but the biggest in our mind is not having a job, the economy is in shambles and everyone knows the job market is awful right now, even if we could drive we'd still need to buy a car with money and buy gas
Our degree is also gonna be so hard to get a "good" job (in the eyes of our mother/family) and even then the job market sucks ass right now!!!
Not moving out also means not being ourselves for longer
But the idea being gone from here, going no contact with family and living with my qpp + friends feels awesome, sounds amazing, even if it'll take so much longer then I want, it'll feel so good when it happens, a room where I can put pride flags up, a place I can be myself without someone judging us
Even if I have no idea how we're gonna get there, I'm so excited for the future