#flusterd

[underfellgoats]

Inktober 9.Fuku Fire

[shippingismydrugandimaddicted]

Im fucking weak

[verscythemercieless]

Anyone elses reaction to love being jump around and scream until the floor breaks and you lose your voice? or is that just me?

[ak4an3]

(’///’)

[lifetimetv]

[titaniaemperor]

Goin to bed Night~

[jinnovee]

Vent

I think I have a problem with falling for people too easily. You know what I mean? You meet someone and after a while you just start to like them, but then you just realize you won't ever be with that person. Haha, yeah it does suck but hey you hafta keep your head up. :) I just wish someone can just hug me and just do that lovey dicey stuff..... I'm still young yeah but you can't help but wonder :/

[itsmydreamingtowerofbrisa-blog]

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Feeling as though you've lost yourself could possibly be one of the worst feelings in the world. Besides the whole parents saying, "I'm not mad, just disappointed". The D word is torturous I tell you. But anywho, I've been feeling lost lately. Not knowing exactly who I am or what I stand for. I used to know. I used to have all my shit figured out. Who I was passionate for, what I loved in life, what my morality chart was, and basically just who I was. Since Vince has been gone, it's just wacky. Shit totally did a 180. I miss the feelings he used to bring me. I had such love for that kid it's unbelievable that it was even real. I'm just an ordinary 17 year old girl, trying to graduate high school, understand herself, get into college... all while fighting in the battlefield of teenage hormones and the gift I was magically blessed with--- BIPOLAR DISORDER. Sometimes I wonder about my dude above. Sometimes I just wonder. I haven't had a desire to call Rach. Although I think about her multiple times a day. I actually had a dream about her last night. She breaks my heart, but I think she may be out... I'm not sure. I'm scared of people all the sudden. I did feel like everybody was on my side & had my back incase I fell right when V left. But now, I've proved my loyalty wrong. I've shut people out, ignored, hung up, and mainly... Cheated. Fuck. The worst part is, the amount of sorrow I felt because of doing it... Isn't enough for it not to happen again x3. Haha I just want my old life back. I felt secure and safe and felt like nothing in the world could take that away. Now I gave it away. Not to mention that fuck face got shipped off to, "I'm rich and don't know what to do with my troubled teen so I'll send him a thousand miles away" school-AKA: boarding school. Ya know what? FUCK THEM. They're so wack it's unfuckingreal. Grrr. Alright, I vented enough. Now I just need to do something about my worrisome thoughts. That's all. But everything in life is easier said than done, right? Right, unfortunately. Happy New Year- I successfully ended my year on a bad note of: being a stoner, fucking over my boyfriend, putting my middle finger up to any friends that are approaching, and failing at my strongest passion right now-Ana. Something will work out. I'll get small. Along as I'm small by January 20. That gives me exactly 20 days to squeeze the fat & work that skinny. Wish me luhhhhck.