@daemoninwhiteround2 replied to your photo: when ya excitementĀ about ya secret project finally...
IāM EXCITED
;_; <3 itās too dang late for this; heck knows what I did to deserve the supportive community I lucked into but Iām so so glad.
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@daemoninwhiteround2 replied to your photo: when ya excitementĀ about ya secret project finally...
IāM EXCITED
;_; <3 itās too dang late for this; heck knows what I did to deserve the supportive community I lucked into but Iām so so glad.
@manyblinkinglights replied to your photoset āi present to you: a tale of christmas triumph, and also the reason...ā
I Fear cleaning my current one
real talk tho, the results are the best reward:effort ratio I have experienced in a long time, typing is now so luxurious, would recommend this to everyone who needs a boost ofĀ āI did the thing!!!ā before the end of the year.
Seeing your hella makeup selfies makes me want to try make up again, and I must tell you, that is *hard*
awwww! makeup is a pretty fraught activity, in that somehow AFAB people are meant to be born knowing how to apply it, and youāre meant to be #flawless and #onpoint but also super natural but also if your wing canāt cut a hater then whatās the point, and I think a lot of people get super intimidated by these hugely intricate looks (especially when tutorials make them look so effortless), and like, boo. boooooooo.Ā
I started doing makeup more seriously well after high school, because I was in a Bad Place mentally and pretty colours made me feel better. itās taken me a long time to build up to the level of skill I have now, and I still donāt really feel like Iām that great at it! thereās always someone better at anythingĀ you do, but with makeup itās so easy to look at the results on yourself and tie them in with your self-esteem, assume that this garish caricature of yourself is something that other people will always be laughing at. depression has not done a lot for me, but I will say that theĀ āwho gives a fuck, nothing matters anyway, might as well be sparklyā attitude did carry me through a lot of the early makeup I-hate-this feels. (and the other thing is that allĀ makeup feels garish if youāre not used to regularly wearing it, because it does make such a marked difference in appearance, and it always seems like other people are going to JUMP on those differences and use them to mock you. they donāt, it turns out! Iāve been through entire days on a uni campus filled with people that look like a fashion shoot with my eyeliner melting down my face and people generally just goĀ ā:O I LOVE YOUR LIPSTICK!ā so if makeup hasĀ taught me anything, itās that people are so much nicer to us than we are to ourselves, both in appreciating our good points and not even noticing our glaring flaws.)
but itās a learning process! and sometimes itās gonna suck! and I think itās a disservice we do to a lot of people who want to fidget with self-expression, pretending that itās easy, that it doesnāt take practice. I wish I could give people who are wary of makeup but want to try it the happiness that it gave me, the joy in being badĀ at something and continuing to try it anyway because it isĀ such a small thing, a playground to play in with so few repercussions for being bad at it. some of the more practical advice Iāve seen in that regard is to apply makeup before you shower, when you have the time - get the practice in without resigning yourself to Having To Wear It because you went through all the effort of putting it on. and try new things! try things that shouldnāt work! try things that look cool! try your favourite colours (or your ship colours!) in weird and nauseating combinations! build in a reward structure, like listening to your favourite music during the process or hassling your pals with selfies of you looking bomb as hell! do whatever makes it fun, because itās already enough of a cultural burden, and making it into a chore or a punishment because youāre Not Good Enough at it is a painful thing. in the end it should be making yourself sparkly and colourful because it makes you happy, and if youāve done that, youāve succeeded, no matter how objectivelyĀ ābadā it looks.
really this is advice for a lot of hobbies.
okay letās do the thign
it has been a while since Iāve done a big Responding to Comments post on tumblr, but i feel the need! so:
@logicalframeworkā: #best worst ship <3Ā #this is... sweet?Ā #i meanĀ #as sweet as any shuu fic's going to beĀ #shuu does not murder anyone == shuu fluff ficĀ #happy endings for birbs who don't deserve happy endingsĀ #thank you ash :)Ā #ironically this fic makes me less want to stab people than I did this afternoonĀ
I am very glad that I made your day better, or at least less stab-inducing <3 Also, you continue your streak of being able to pick my favourite line.Ā
@darkveracity: Ash, this is /really/ good. I think itās one of my favorite things youāve ever written
UM WOW WHAT. I already flailed about this but I was very enhĀ about my writing in this fic, and I just. Goodness. With how long youāve been around, that really means something. I have been getting the happy warm feelings all day about this comment <3
aaaaaand the big one, which is under the cut, because length, but I expect there will be some hitori meta there:
@logicalframework replied to your photo āin-between doing things I am also planning things this is not how my...ā
that... that looks like a timeline! of times. the colored dots are a nice touch, also some snazzy arrows.
it is! my main point is LOOK AT HOW ORGANISED EVERYTHING IS, this is definitely not something I am used to and I can hardly believe it is coming out of my hands.
everything is also colour coded i might have a problem
@rocketmantis replied to your post āI have been telling myself to do my laundry for three weeks now, so...ā
I need to do my laundry too, so let's make a laundry pact, I guess!
@logicalframework replied to your post āI have been telling myself to do my laundry for three weeks now, so...ā
oh shit I also need to do my laundry (for like, the last 3 days of re-using dirty washcloths). Ok look, I'll do my laundry and you do yours, ok?
LAUNDRY CLUB \o/
@madamehardy replied to your photo:anyway my anxiety scarf has been getting a workout...
Tell me which pattern and yarn that is?
the pattern is this noro bias lace scarf! it is thusly named because itās intended to be knitted up with noro yarns, which are usually self-striping and are SO UNIVERSALLY LUXURIOUS, UGH. the yarn Iām using isnāt noro, sadly :( itās a fairly cheapo superwash/polyamide??? this is the first time Iāve looked at the label. anyway the brand isĀ āmoda veraā and the yarn isĀ āfayetteā, labelled asĀ āplum mixāĀ
@siadea replied to your post āyou can currently buy hatoful boyfriend and hatoful boyfriend: holiday...ā
No. There is no salvation. This is bird hell, nor are you out of it.
āBut it was all right, everything was all right, the struggle was finished. She had won the victory over herself. She loved birb hell.ā
which is to say, oh, Iām not trying to be saved from birb hell. Iām trying to save myself from being aloneĀ in birb hell.