Eternity. Alex Warren. With childhood friends!Jason Todd x reader. *clears throat*
ANGST AHEAD PEOPLES. i cannot make that any clearer lols
You know he’s leaving. You know because he told you. Told you he’d find his mother, because he has to. He needs it, mentally. Needs to know he has one, needs to know he isn’t alone in this world if not for Bruce. He just needs to know if it’s true.
You let him, because of course you let him. Who are you to try and turn away this determined and courage boy, who you’ve loved since the very beginning?
Maybe that was the first mistake you’d done, maybe that was your biggest. One you’d regret forever. And you do. Because next you hear from him, he’s gone. Forever.
You’re older now. You’ve grown up. Unfortunately, in a way. Regrettably, in a way. Because you’ve done it without him. Without the boy who completed you, who understood you, who you hope loved you too.
It’s been long since it happened, sometimes you forget how long. Until you remember when you visit him, visit his grave. And that’s where you remember every day, every painful day you have to walk through, cry waterfalls through, to get by. To live for not only you, but him.
Everyday, it feels longer, longer since you’ve lost him. It eats away at you, knowing that you’re becoming someone he doesn’t know, someone he’s never going to know.
You dream of him sometimes, most times, all the time. Of who he was, what he did, who he could be, what he could do. And sometimes, most times, all the time, you wake up, and the ocean of tears you’ve built starts to fill. Salt rubbing through the wounds left on you by this, though not him, never him.
On endless nights, staring up at the starless skies of Gotham, you remember the night you learned. The night your world shattered. You remember the hug you shared with him before he left, wish it’d been longer, wishing it’d been more.
Through your days, though filled with friends, family, and even joy at times, it eats away at you. Every time you’re alone.
And you know for a fact, that there is nothing you wouldn’t sacrifice, to have your heart. To have your soul back. To have your Jason back.
