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Drinking and listening to Lana's new album is my new Aesthetic™

#for savannah #I need a good Lana break up song

Random talking that i need to do

I had a wonderful dream last night. I mean it had my ex in it but how it was and how it ended was really nice... and it’s weird to think about if it was year or 2 ago i had this dream i would of woke up crying. I still miss my ex to some degree and I would like her back in my life but the dream was nice, still something i wish could come true. But waking up having a smile on my face was a good way to start the day. I do wish the dream was real.. but there’s only so much good that can be in my life. I do hope she is still happy and moving forward in her life and I do wish her the best. And if she does need me for anything I’m always a phone call away and will do almost anything I can do help her. Hopefully she has been checking her diabetes more and keeping track of it better and I also hope she has been able to get over some of her depression over these last couple years. Just remember Savannah if you ever need help or someone to talk to I’m always here. Enjoy your evening and maybe, but unlikely, we can meet again later in the future at some point. I’m always a text or phone call away. Have fun.

#for savannah #Hope you are still happy:)#Hopefully you read this

For savannah... was planning to send it on your birthday but its a lil early lol

Happy birthday savannah. I can't believe your finally turning 20. It honestly seems like yesterday when we actually met at high school. I can't honestly put into words how i feel about everything. I'm happy to see you get through each day even if they aren't the best for you. I don't talk to you much anymore but i still wish we did. I wish we could just spend a whole afternoon together to catch up on everything that has happened in these past 2 years. This will get a lil sappy im sorry. I'm an idiot and i know that you wont see this probably but whatever. Sigh let me get this over with. I hope your still happy and doing better than ever. I hope your depression has subsided and you have begun to be a lot better. I hope that you have been taking care of yourself because i know you have a track record for not taking really good care of your diabetes. I hope the cats and the other animals have been doing well. but ima be a lil depressing now atleast for me. i remember 4 years ago, when we dated, on your birthday all you wanted was my little pony things lol. I remember eating smores with you outside next to the fire pit. What a wonderful day that was. I remember having the time of my life and actually being happy. Being happy is a rarity for me now adays. I remember actually meeting you the first time and just telling jokes all the time at school. And of course that moves on to me asking if you wanted to come bowling. Which you never did before so it was really great to actually see you accompany me. And of course things moved further we started dating blah blah. I was really sad to hear a long time ago about your struggles with your depression. Where you cut yourself and acutally tried to kill yourself. I'm sorry. But im glad you stayed i wouldnt of had that amazing person with me for those wonderful 2 years of my life. Im glad i was able to help you get through such a tough time of your life. You honestly have no idea of how happy i am to see you move on and be happy. You cross my mind all the time. You never leave my thoughts and im not going to lie.. it hurts. I literally break down in tears from time to time thinking about you sadly. You had a huge impact on me.. as you can see and im happy i had the time to spend with you. I do wish i could be with you again of course. I wish i took my one chance to come back to you. Or even the chance i should of taken to come over and get on my knees and tell you everything i wish i could of said a long time ago. I wish i would of just came up to you after the rough period of time and just told you everything i wanted to say. I wish i could do it now but im an idiot and waited to long. i still go to the park every other day and walk around thinking to myself how much it would be different if i actually did what i wanted to do. Every night i hope for something to happen. I wish we actually talked and hung out and stuff. I would love to have you come to the park with me so that we can catch up on everything that has happened so far after all this time. I would love to be able to spend atleast one more day with you. But if not.. thats i guess.. ok. it would only be like an hour if that just a the park or something. If not i wish i could still say some things to you. and what that is.. is.. I miss you. I want the beautiful smile back in my life. with that glowing heart of yours. you light up my world with who you are. You actually moved forward instead of walking back, like i did. I want things back to the way they used to be i wish i could have you back in my life. You have always been there even when you weren't. And i hope that you always though i was there in those tough times for you to help you keep moving forward. I always want the best for you and nothing less. I want you to be happy. I want you to be happy with everything you do in life. I never want to see a once of sadness from you. I always want to hear your beautiful voice whether its your singing or just you talking about your day. I want to see you move through life with your head up and not your head down. I want you to be looking forward to each and every day. i want to see your smile. That is the best thing you could do. Smile. Be happy. Go to the next day with your head held up and embrace each day. You have so much to look forward to. I couldn't of gotten luckier to have you in my life. and i will always remember the girl that used to say " I love you " to me every day and every night. I'll never forgot the girl i had my first kiss with and my first everything with. You were the first and i wanted you to be the last. I never wish i let go. I with i was better for you. i wish i could be better. I wish i could be that person that you look at every morning and start your day with a smile. I wish i could hold your hand and talk long walks everywhere. I wish i had the courage... to actually come back to you and tell all this to your face.. and I wish I had the chance to get on my hands and knees and tell you this. because then you would know this is all genuine and that i really mean everything that i just wrote here. You were the best thing to ever happen to me. and i wish i could be better... i miss you.. i'm.. sorry. Please read this.. .

#long as fuckckkcck #for savannah #enjoy #sorry other followers :p #delete later...

Picture this, harry and louis watching game of thrones and louis is making comments about certain actors, and you know harry is the type to pout and pretend nothing is wrong but louis knows him well enough now that he lets him stew a bit before he’s like ‘baby what’s the matter, you know I love you the most’ and harry got his arms wrapped around his chest and his chin in the air ‘I’m fine, I don’t know what you’re talking about’ and louis crawls over to him and starting tickling his little tum ‘baaaabyyyyy’ and harry does that l o u d squawk laugh and tries to push him away and louis start blowing raspberries on him until he’s smiling SO HARD and then he finally catches his breath and says ‘I am so much cuter than jon snow’ and louis’ cups a hand around his cheek and leans in to kiss him ‘I know you are love’ and WOW I AM DEAD INSIDE

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