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Being friendless should be normalized, no matter what the age group. It's annoying how at every school I've been at, I had at least 1 year in which I got summoned by one of the staff isolation and friendlessness.

In elementary, when I was about 8, I didn't have anyone to play with anymore since my only friend had moved to another city. I quickly got used to it and genuinely appreciated being alone, sitting on a bench and calmly watching others like if I was watching a TV show. But the teachers finished by noticing how isolated I was and forced me to get a friend—technically I could have rejected the offer but I was too scared to say no at this age.

Then at my first year in middle school, this forced friend I ditched me and I went back to chilling alone on benches, drawing when I would get bored. Of course the staff had to get worried about it and sent me to the school psychologist (I won't explain the whole story but it finished badly).

And finally—in my first year of high school—my head teacher noticed how solitary I was and got me summoned by what is called the "CPE" in France (slightly under the role of principal). I had to explain how I'm not bullied nor depressed and I was fine alone.

I understand when they see a kid isolated from everyone they might think they're depressed or bullied but it's really annoying when it's not the case.

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A message to you:

You’re pushing me away and I don’t know what to do. I care about you, I always have and I always will. Do you, do you care about me? You say you do, but then you ignore me. “I’m that way with everyone” you say, but there you are laughing, having a thirty minute conversation with another. When I try to talk to you, you barely respond; you brush me off. You’re someone I thought I’d know forever, but there you go slipping away from me. Although I’m fully capable, I don’t understand and I don’t think I ever will - because you’ll never tell me. Inseparable one minute, barely talking the next; oh, how the times change. I’d do anything to help you, and I’ve proven that. Once things got better for you, do you leave behind the ones who have helped you in the process? Is that what this is? You should surely be able to clear this up, but you won’t.

I’ve hurt my self to help you. I’ve made sacrifices to be there for you. Is that not enough? Is wanting what’s best for someone 24/7 not enough? I never asked for anything in return but honesty. This is didn’t even get.

So it’s been almost a month since you last texted me first to talk. And I realized that I shouldn’t have to question if you still want to be my friend or not. So our friendship is in your hands. Take care of it or don’t; I don’t care anymore. I love you and I’ll miss you and our close friendship but I’ve learned where I hold myself as a person. And I will never beg for someone’s attention, I will never force a friendship, and I will never keep myself in a toxic one-sided relationship. I’ve made the effort, now it’s your turn. I’ve shown you that I care, prove to me you do too. Nurture our friendship back to good health, if I really mean that much to you like you say.

I care too much about people. People take advantage of this. I get used; my feelings abused. Hopefully you won’t do the same.

There’s a chance you’ll see this but a very strong one you won’t (I assume you don’t pay attention to me as much as I do to you). If you do see this, you’ll know this is about you. I want you to see this, in fact I’ll be happy if you do.

Do what you want; it’s your life. But don’t you ever say I was the one who drifted away from you or that I was never there for you. I was, however you wernt. I still want to be friends, but a friendship can’t work if it’s only one way. At the end of the day, if you wanted to be my friend, you’d be acting like it.

- Your “Friend”