Can I have advice on how to advocate for myself?
I am one of the alters in a system, I think I front the most often after the host, and I have met a mental health professional I feel very unsure of.
I have developed some skills to stop and analyze situations before I act thanks to a DBT skill course, but I have currently only come to the "stop" and "notice I feel bad" stage in this analysis. Anything else feels fuzzy and difficult.
On one hand, he seems like he is genuinely interested in our general wellbeing.
On the other hand, in my opinion, he seems to be pushing towards integration without having us on board with that. I understand this is not necessarily bad, and that I am in a strong emotion right now, but it is setting off all of my alarm bells. I feel like he isn't listening. I feel like he doesn't understand. I feel like he is pushing us to talk about ourselves in a very specific way as to go towards integration. Some things that I can't put into words makes me feel like we are like a project to him, a problem to be solved, and that disagreeing would make him personally upset. I recognize logically that I could be wrong, and that my impulse to change care provider is just that, an impulse guided by a strong emotion.
Okay, therapy speak nuance over. Cancelling therapy forever. In self defence...
Basically, how do I figure out if this is a real threat or a perceived threat and how I should act in order to get to a place that is actually safe?
(I'm tagging this with different related tags in order to find help, I'm not claiming all these tags apply to me)
