#forgotten about

[bibboems]

can you see me?

the woman; the myth, the legend, the elusive poet. footsteps so quiet, you would never guess she was there at all. like the tree that fell in the woods and no one was there to hear it fall. no reflection appears in the mirror, all the while she's swirled into folklore and mystery. there's no photographic evidence, her biggest enemy in life is object permanence.

[allisonzoeann-]

He told me I was the most lovely looking girl he’s ever seen. I found downloaded on my laptop a link of thousands of photos of ladies with zero likeness to me He said that he learned the lesson, laughed it off as i felt lonely. He had another lapse of judgement, and I dyed my long hair darker to not be a liability. He told me we can talk more and try therapeutic things. I tried to keep tabs of transgressions, only I would have no one to tell them to. He would turn the tables, take our troubles to others, something that I never thought to do. He would secretly tape me as if I was a traitor, while I didn’t know we were on different teams. He told me he could comfort me or show me compassion if I need him to back off. I tried to communicate an apology calmly during confrontation, coming off as cold and callous. He was content with being combative, committed to coerce me to combust. He followed me to the car, chastised me, called me crazy, and I was crying so hard I’d cough. He told me we could take pictures at the pumpkin patch. I know he’s plagued with bad memory, but refuses pen down any plans. He will never come home when he says, postponing promises because it’s prefered and he can. He perseveres without pause, and I was put in a place with a wristband and gown to match.

Allison Morgan

[lostboy2196]

I'm getting used to being letdown

[andimdrowningslowly]

Things I wanted to tell you but didn’t:

I drove in really bad traffic today for the first time in a long time.

My left leg was tired from how much I had to push in the clutch.

We went on a river adventure and got rained out.

We handled it well though there was a little tension

And we would have handled it better if you were there with me

And we could lead the team to victory for old times sake,

But I didn’t have the energy to give that without you today.

It feels like we’ve been trying to order pizza for hours now

And that’s how high we are.

God, I want to touch you,

But I probably shouldn’t.

Well, I mean,

I can’t.

You’re not here

And soon I won’t be here

And I’m so excited for us both to get new starts in different ways.

But I hope I can sometimes hold you through the night before I drive away.

Why the fuck did so many people have to suffer for his wrongs?

You know when you become so old that the memories you lived

Feel like they belong to another person?

I can see it,

But I can’t feel it

And that makes me feel it even more some how.

I can’t decide if it’s good it’s slipping away

Or if it’s devastating I can’t live through it again.

I know it’s ridiculous to say my life has trauma in the grand scheme of things,

But I can’t help it.

My mom and I got in a fight

About her overstepping in my life choices.

At first it didn’t seem like she’d understand,

But then her friend talked to her about her teenager daughter who is stripping and doing cocaine

And now my mom forgives me

And the thing that bothers me about that

Is that I want to emphasize I’m certainly no better than anyone else.

I drove in really bad traffic today for the first time in a long time.

My left leg was tired from how much I had to push in the clutch.

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[strangerstarsandlands]

Why was 'The Handmaiden' too upsetting to watch again? I've heard really good things about it.

It’s a very beautiful film. The acting is great, and the cinematography and costumes are stunning. But sexual violence literally makes my skin crawl and it’s just not worth me watching again. 

[starbuck]

1x06 time!!!!!

[now-youu-know]

I don't want to be buried in a cemetary or cremated or even have a funeral

I just want to be forgotten about, like I never even existed.