Just watched this beautiful wedding video of an aquaintance from my church and had this sinking feeling that I’ll never get something that magnificent. It was exactly the kind of wedding I would have wanted - woodsy and floral and full of soft pastels and greys and stark white.
I am sort of that kind of person who yearns for the idyllic. I like that sort of beauty that creates both nostalgia and awe.
As someone who grew up in the Inland Empire and had a love for west coast beaches and the Southern California lifestyle from the get go, I have found that the mountains and woods hold a sort of serenity that the magnificent Pacific doesn’t seem to contain. I love the ocean and all its mystery but a forest has its own secrets hidden from the sun. My love for the mountains grew when I stayed in Montana for a summer. It was breathtaking and splendid and made my heart ache with joy.
This video that I watched did the same thing. My heart ached for the beauty and simplicity. It had a seeming oneness with nature that I have always wanted to achieve. I know someday I may have someone to love and wedding to rival all others but as far as my mind's eye can see all I have to look forward to are spontaneous adventures with coworkers and friends. That's not so bad.