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[piratekingfoxx]

I'm lowkey hella pissed off at how I always feel so fucking excluded. Like cool, I'm so glad that now we're with your partner I can just get fucking tossed to the backburner like nbd.

Fucking so god damn over this. Like this is why I will forever remain single. None of this is worth that. Like, I feel like a third wheel as a friend, I feel like a third wheel as a partner so what the fuck does it really matter anymore?

It fucking doesn't. I'm a convenient lay and that's about it.

[piratekingfoxx]

CarCon's Gone and the fandom's bland

CarCon is /literally/ falling apart. xD People don't believe me but you know, that SUV was CarCon. Without it there isn't one. 

As much as I miss hanging out with everyone, at the same time I really just don't. Califur kind of seriously burnt me out on furry related shit. It left a super bad taste in my mouth.

I've been saying this for months, but now I think I'll make it official. I probably won't be going to any furry cons this upcoming year. My extended group of friends kind of...puts me off and its not fun anymore. xD

Plus it seems like almost every weekend has some sort of disaster attached or drama bomb and I just can't deal with that.

I'm probably lying through my teeth and will show up at FC or BLFC, but I doubt it. I'd rather go somewhere new and have new experiences. 

[piratekingfoxx]

Cooking!

Dude, I fucking love cooking. Like so much. ;.;

I'm sweaty and gross but you know what? I'm happy. Cuz I just made /amazing/ homemade mashed potatoes AND gravy from scratch, some bomb crab-stuffed mushrooms aaaaand peanut butter fudge for dessert.

We're also having my mom's killer chicken drumettes. Dude this is why I'm fat.

[piratekingfoxx]

God damn. I don't think I've ever felt this lonely. Like it sucks. 

I guess I have friends? But I never see or talk to them anymore. I've basically sunk back into my own little world. 

We're entering Month 2 of soul-shattering depression. Whoo.

[piratekingfoxx]

Also man, I sincerely hope you find someone who makes you happy.

So you can stop worrying about how I spend my weekends. Because really, its none of your fucking business.

[piratekingfoxx]

Whoa so I'm back after 2 weeks. Is it sad I really didn't miss tumblr? xD

[piratekingfoxx]

Blehbleh emotional vomit

I'm a cold, selfish thing. I wish I could help you but I can't even help myself. The only monster here is me.

I don't want to lose you. But I can't blame you. I wouldn't wanna stay with me either.

I love you sunshine.

[piratekingfoxx]

Maybe I am a sociopath? Maybe I do just care for myself. Fuck everyone else man. I'll be what everyone else sees me as. I'm a liar, a monster, a heartless asshole who drinks his life away.