#freak stuff

[emilesmuseassembly]

"If you're trying to scare me off, it's not working." - @diedindulvey for Dylan

for @diedindulvey

Dylan can hear the mechanical hiss of two sets of mechanical doors opening up behind him, but he does not look up from the sketchy spiraling monstrosity he has been finger-painting on the wall. His fingertips are sore from the force he applies behind the strokes and his fingers are growing caked with the blood he has been using to paint with.

Not his own this time, but that of the poor guy that disrupted his first attempt at painting what 'they' had shown him in his dreams this morning. Another disruption is soon to come, Dylan knows, but that just means more paint to finish his —

He looks over his shoulder and groans when he sees Ethan.

Dylan momentarily sways on his feet as he gets up, slamming his palm against the wall just above the head of the beast and leaving a nasty smeared hand print as he turns around to face his friend.

"You can tell them that I'm not coming with you," is all he says to acknowledge him, his expression unreadable until Ethan speaks and it twists into something a little bit hurt.

"I didn't —" he starts, suddenly very aware of the blood coating his hands and smeared along his tunic, "I am not scaring you."

[s3lf1sh-m4ch1n3s]

i guess i like when girls kiss me and leave their lipstick all over me like girl mark your territory

[gnawing-suspicion]

I love to find out a friend has a freaky little kink. especially if it’s not one of mine. It’s delightful every time — look at you, you weirdo!!! the depths of your depravity are precious to me!!!!!

[axew0und]

Making Loneliness Work for You!

When I am alone I’m not really alone. When I am alone I’m not really alone. When I am alone I am covered in blood, I’m covered in drool, covered in sweat. When I am alone I am covered in blankets, I mean. I am laying down, and I know you. When I am alone I am me and you all at once, together. It is easier to hold us both in my own vessel, easier when I know what I will say and what you will say and what I will not say back, what I will let you hold forever. If I make you wince you are wincing for me, if you move by my hand the motion is mine. It is easier when I am alone because no one has to get hurt to give me the feelings. It is easier to take the heart out of this body so that it is just a body. 

I do not always deserve to be loved; when I am writhing and crying out, clawing for purchase and hurting you I am hurting you! You say that I’m not but I don’t want you to pretend. You said you saw smoke but I know there was no smoke because I hadn’t finished yet. Do not declare to me your undying love, I want you to die. Do not declare you yourself to me for I cannot conceive your declaration. It is romantic, desire, but it is not love. It is not romantic, my desire. I would kill god to make room for you in the narrow space of my mind.  Coming down the hallway there is only the hallway and the end of the hallway. Don’t waste this chance, this space between when you are walking and when there is nowhere else to walk. When I am alone I can contain it in you, you and your heartless body. I enter you like a long corridor, walking and walking and not caring for the space behind me, the time behind me, not caring for treading on the ground, every step in this cavernous hall filled with emptiness, filled with the smell of you, which is not you. Filled with the thought of you, which is also not you, but I’m getting closer.

[androgynousblackbox]

Sorry the incest anon here, I know you're an incest shipper too, it just felt like those last two replies were really insisting that people who like incest a 'certain way' are the only freaks. I'm sorry I think I read the tone wrong, thank you for the clarification.

Don’t sweat it, I can suck ass when trying to transmit a tone too.But regardless, I do think all incest shippers, wether they think it’s “really” incest or not, are all on the same boat. Antis are incapable of any nuance and to them we are the same anyway. The thing is we are not the same and that is okay, especially when talking about motivations behind why people ship that.Also, just in general, it bothers me that generalization “ALL incest shippers are nasties who like incest because they are so gross and nasty”, like no. I WISH we were all like that. Do you have any idea how fun would that be? But we are not. So I argue against that notion with the idea that many incest shippers don’t even like incest. People like us are rare. It doen’t mean one group is better or worse or whatever. That is just how it is and that is fine, as long we can find each other and respect each other’s preferences.But again, antis don’t give a fuck so meh, at least is a excuse to talk about fandom, I guess.

[s3lf1sh-m4ch1n3s]

my coworker is saying “100%” im reference to my 100% degrader bdsm test score every time i say something slightly mean or rude

“ur words bite so i can see the vision” girl i don’t want you seeing the vision

[s3lf1sh-m4ch1n3s]

made a blood kink joke with tbe weong audience (coworkers who looked at me weird)