#ftm depression

[modifiedjaytransition]

NO, you were born to be a woman!!!

she told me on christmas eve 2015 and it’s still haunting me. She isn't a mother to me.

[activist-s-attic-blog]

Surprise

I heard about some trans guys that were more depressed out of the closet than when they were in the closet. I didn't see how that was possible. Now I do.

[oliverashton95]

[grecotime]

You

Everything I do I think twice because I'm afraid of you Second guessing myself asking What will you do I'm locked up in fear I can't move a muscle For I fear your words Will drown me and bustle It's in the past It's all gone But it stays right in my head And carries with me to bed My pillow feels my cries As I lie at night Hoping I won't upset you so much That'll I cry again that night

[grecotime]

That one day

The first time I opened my mouth I thought I would need to leave But now I can see it’s all a mystery I do not need to leave But I cannot speak The words true to my heart Or tears are sure to work I still cannot believe All the signs you did not see My childhood was full of them So was what I’d say Hello my name is max And what a great day You cut it off to forget the past But now my present and future Are at a disadvantage I’m not asking for much But to carry myself through Please help as I am guided By my father who you knew God is guiding me And it’s hard to see the way When all you do is say That’s not the right way Leave it up to God And not worry so much I’m being taken care of I just need unconditional love

[grecotime]

Pray

I keep praying, hoping one day it'll come true It's not the average wish But I'm sure it can be true People say God makes miracles And I'm begging for just this one Nothing too special Just to feel normal for once I lie awake all night Hoping my prayer is visible by morn Not for other ears to hear It's a very personal one My prayer to seem normal Can be taken many ways But I know I'm in good hands as I let God lead the way