#fucking rant

[rosenbraut]

They fucked up Mia Goth and Ana Maria Joy or whatever when they made them Dior Insta Prettygirls. It’s such a tragedy and I hate seeing them these days because you can almost tell that they were interesting looking girls before they got their glamzilla makeovers. Smokey eyes to make them less bulging, lipgloss and lip fillers to distract from the big teeth, make up (surgery?) to even out the odd proportions on the face, voilà, you ruined an interesting looking person. Samesy same. Maxxxine red carpet shoots make me shiver in my boots because I remember the A Cure for Wellness times. Hollywood cannot handle freaky looking girls and when they get them, they smother them with a powder puff until they get their Dior Lip Oil glistening insta girls. RIP Shelley Duvall, doll, Princess, fae.

[sehnsuchts-trunken]

Honestly I’m tired of all the streaming services at this point. This year alone all of my favorite shows have pretty much been cancelled. I wish there was a streaming service that would pick up all the cancelled shows and actually promote them. I also though fate was in the top 10 for weeks but I’m sure Netflix will come up with some be lie on why it wasn’t renewed as always but sure let’s keep the Witcher and replace the main character. Could we make a petition or annoy Netflix into changing their minds?

EXACTLY. THIS. ITS JUST FUCKING CAPITALISM AGAIN. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT VIEWERS ENJOY, THE PEOPLE WITH THE MONEY DECIDE. THE SAME WAY THAT WE ALL FUCKING PAY TO EVEN SEE THIS SHIT IN THE FIRST PLACE. IT SHOULD NOT WORK THAT WAY OH MY GOD SND I HATE IT SO MUCH. AT THIS POINT I REALLY AM DEBATING WHETHER TO JUST START PIRATING EVERYTHING

[premikaunderthemoon]

Do u ever just meet a person SO stupid and SO frustrating that u feel the need to throw ur head back, sigh like a God, take off ur glasses, wipe them clean, wear them back again and whisper a curse word in ur mother tongue? Because i always do

[lxndonorris]

What is wrong with our fucking society. On the one hand, there are people demonstrating openly against Jewish people, fuck you if you were one of them, and on the other hand football fans just fucking ignored the lock down rules, because "we didn't have football for two years, we want to celebrate" fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. And you wonder why we're at this point with that virus. Hmmmm, not wearing masks, or completely wrong, and then they cry wolf once they get infected. I hate people, so much.

[error-i-dunno-what-went-wrong]

Today wasnt as good as usual

I’d like to think that most days are really good, and that i am generally positive!

That I have a good time with my friends at school, learn a lot (cuz I’m a nerd), and just generally enjoy myself.

But... not today

Today, i just felt really, off.

Just going to school, I usually am earlier than my close friends, so I am by myself for a bit. But this morning, I felt really isolated and alone, which is unusual. Then, I kinda felt really down. The entire day, my hands unable to be still. They were flapping around a lot, i was cracking my knuckles a lot, i was clenching them tightly, but mostly the flapping. I felt really unhappy, and very mad at myself. And when i said something wrong in math, I just repeated in my head the mantra “you fucked up, you fucked up, you fucked up” not to mention that this was something I already fucking knew since we had done it the year before, and i left my old school so I could get a harder fucking math class.

I just... i felt very isolated. It didnt help that most everyone i knew was doing a project that i had already finished.

My friends noticed that i felt off. You know how hugs can make you feel safe? I dont feel that typically. Because i guess I’m the one that makes others feel safe when i hug them. But i hugged one of my friends, and i felt it. How much better everything was. After that, i craved it again, but i didnt ask. I just continued being frustrated with myself, like i had felt the whole fucking day, and i did my homework while putting off eating until i was done, then i went to drama

That was when it was at the worst.

I didnt feel any fear, but i was in an improv scene, and i was just shaking. My jaw was shaking, my hands were flapping more than ever, i was shifting from foot to foot.

It was really bad.

But then the school day ended, we went to the service provider to fix my phone, but it is still very much broken, and then we came home.

I didnt say any of this to my parents, or anyone else. It is much easier to say things like this when people dont feel real. You dont feel real. So i get the release of saying this to people, all while not feeling panicked about how i am being such a burden, and being annoying, and so many more things.

I am not sorry for rambling.

I do not apologize for how long this is.

I dont really give many shits if you dont care about any of this, or if you dont care about me.

Bye

[anime]

I JUST POPPED MY THIRD FUCKING TIRE THIS YEAR

[copenut]

@literally everyone ever Stop offering for me to do drugs with you after I say "I want to stay away from drugs". Especially "No really, I'm in recovery" Yes that means DO NOT SAY "Well, if you ever change your mind-- I'm here" "Well if you need a safe place to do drugs--" STOP literally I want nothing more than for you to stop talking :)))) so stop :))) thanks :)) i'm really feeling the whole "you not talking" thing. I like it a lot :) g o o d b y e

[kill-your-idols]

okay mass effect rant time because i’m salty af about this and i need to get it off my chest.

why the fuck are scott’s male romances the only ones getting improvements when suvi’s romance got a grand total of maybe fifteen fucking minutes and the work put into it was a joke. bioware had no right whatsoever to call that a full romance option. i felt robbed when i realized i had just finished suvi’s so-called romance arch.

i’m not saying scott’s male romances should not be getting these improvements i’m just saying bioware should be putting just as much effort into improving suvi’s romance. she is the only lesbian romance option in the game and she got next to no content. and the little bit of content that was there seemed to have no effort put behind it. 

the fact that no one in the fandom seems to care that the only lesbian romance was a side note while ya’ll are up in fucking arms about scott’s gay romances not being absolutely perfect says a lot about this fandom. i’m just saying.