Need to rant because otherwise I'm going to start screaming. I've felt like crap for the last few years, had a sleep study and got dxed with sleep apnea. Queue cpap machine and slightly better. But still bad, start feeling like total shit again, unable to get out of bed so I'm even later than normal (I'm ADHD and struggle with time and being on time to begin with) tired all day, sore all day generally feel like someone's beaten me senseless. Had either a TIA(mini-stroke) or a seizure, have numbness on the regular. Clumsier than usual and my mind has gone to shit. (Memory what's that) I feel like I'm barely keeping afloat. Dealing with all of this while trying to get a handle on my ADHD, depression, PTSD and general bullshit my mom taught me as a kid makes it even tougher. So I'm also constantly doubting myself and thinking I'm making it all up which makes me depressed which fucks me all up. I've had MRIs (all clear) so much blood work I want to scream. All I have to show for it is vitamin d and iron deficiency, continuing symptoms and nurses and doctors being all 'everything came back fine so you're good!' My body likes to fuck with me, it will throw a positive result and then when my doc retests to confirm boom its gone. My thyroid results were off beginning of 2015, but just a random infected thyroid and that's fine now. I get a positive result on one band of the lyme test but not enough for a lyme DX. My MRI is fine with no sign of stroke (great doc so what did happen?) I'm losing my damn mind I think. Ugh.