EMBRACE MEDIOCRITY #fulllinkinbio As an artist/human I know what it is to seek perfection. I feel it to the point that I spin in a seemingly endless cycle of debilitating stagnancy and ferociously ecstatic creativity. Never satisfied. Last night I lay awake beating myself up for not doing/being/contributing "enough". Then, on a whim, I listened to a recording I did of "Hallelujah" in Australia, three months after my dads death and moments after having my heart broken. Grateful for the courage to love and to lose. Pure - raw - REAL emotions imperfectly flowing through my voice yet perfect within the flaws of every wrong note and crack. This year I've healed my grief through the simple acts of singing, dancing, and "being" IN - IT. However 'imperfect' those depths may be. My most poignant epiphanies have come at times when I'm makeup less and wearing mom-jeans. I'd never deemed these records of my 'play' worthy of the public eye because in my mind they were "MEDIOCRE". -- I could always re-do them with a better outfit, awesome setting, proper warmup, funnier lines, more more more more. But this morning I was reminded of something upon waking and hearing of the premature passing of a luminous young lady I'd known in Australia who couldn't bear to be in her darkness anymore -- that how ever dark the depths may seem, we must continue to see(k) the light daily even if that means dancing half-naked around a cabin in the middle of the woods! A brilliant musician and poet who shined light into the world with her work, she struggled as I feel I do, to process and convey all facets of this human experience. So I'll continue to carry the torch and light the way for others. Small steps, take breaths, accept that you're doing enough - you are enough. I'm not sure if any of this makes sense but I'm accepting that it may be a mediocre representation of my true feelings through words. #empathskills #grief #recovery #boobsfordays #bigbootygirls #acapella #hallelujah #peace #theartistsway (at Planet Earth)