Yesterday I felt like shit (and other days I’ve been feeling like shit more or less). Depressed, sad, down, nothing inspires me, tired, cold, hot, sweating, sleeping bad every freaking night for weeks already, having nightmares every night etc. I’m not sick tho!
So yesterday evening I decided to talk with my oracle decks. I got cards that I’m going through a healing time (and after it comes a lot better times). I should allow every emotion on the surface and out. I was also encouraged to meditate, but I can’t. I have zero motivation to meditate. But I also was told to cleanse my energy (a card which I keep getting a lot with Spiritual Transformation) with a card Spirit of Water. It told me to use water to cleanse myself so that’s what I did. After sauna I sat on the bathroom floor under the shower in lotus pose. It was nice. The sound of water rumbling in my ears, soon sounding like a loud thunder right above me. It was soothing and relaxing.
It’s been a long time when I have had any visions, but now I had. I was definitely sitting under a small waterfall in a jungle. There was a small round pond too in front of me with rocks going around it. Behind me, as well as on my left side, was tall rock walls covered with plants. I’m not sure what was on my right since I didn’t focus on there too much, but right in front of me, on the green land on small opening (surrounded by trees) stood darker milk chocolate skinned, skinny and tall old man. He clearly was aborigine. I know my spirit guides so it wasn’t one of them. I didn’t see his face clearly so after the vision, I spent a lot of time wondering who he was.
Until today I realized it could had been Gamaya from my fic “Lost in the Jungle”. He feels and seems very VERY similar to him! After all I do see fictional characters in my mind when I create them / when I write them etc. Just like any other OC creator for sure! But now that I think meeting him afterwards... I feel weird. In a good way. It was unexpected but nice to see him. I don’t know what he wanted but I’m glad he was watching me as I sat under the waterfall.
Also, sitting under the shower really helped! I wish I could do it every day, but I don’t want to waste water. (24.1.2021)
