I know what you are now. I think I knew before, But You know. After I sent that kid to the hospital Years ago, They said I had an anger problem, But that’s not true. I was angry because of something else. Something I’d lost Trying so hard since not to be angry Got me all defenseless. And I lost more, and more, and more… That’s not getting better I want to be angry When I ran home, from college, On the bus I had this dream Or maybe I saw it out the window Lost leaf on the tree Finally blowin’ off I’m so scared All the time And the fear *hurts*! Feeling like everything is over Was over long before I got here So long, hiding Or trying to outrun this I get it. This won’t stop Until I die. But when I die I want it to hurt When my friends leave When I have to let go When this entrie town is wiped off the map I want it to hurt. Bad. I want to lose I want to get beaten up I want to hold on Until I’m thrown off And everything ends And you know what? Until that happens I want to hope again And I want it to hurt. Because that means it meant something It means I am…something, at least Heh heh ha heheheh heh Pretty amazing to be something, at least *gibberish* You know I can’t understand you, right? *gibberish* Oh shut up already! I know this won’t save me in the end But I don’t need it to save me forever I just need it to save me now So if you’re gonna kill me right here Then do it If not...
Mae (Night in the Woods)
