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[iwritebecausecant]

[iwritebecausecant]

Demons tbt

DEMONS

I walk with demons every day.

I try but can’t keep them all at bay

They eat at my soul

And take their toll

They are my past oh on my back

Discouraging with every one attack

They are my Mother

And so many other

Stifle my courage, clutter my brain

Holding me back never to gain

Fearful to try

Afraid of goodbye

These demons along for the ride

Driving my brain zapping my pride

Haunting me

Past memory

Faster I run, but stop I must

For In myself I just must trust

Clear them

Don’t fear them

Learn from them

And bury them

Won’t let them lead me any more

Will get up and show them the exit door

I am not my past

Today is the last

Today is the day I am ....

Still afraid because Demons have my soul

GDS 1/13/2016

[iwritebecausecant]

Away To Deep

Let me guide you by my love, you said

As i followed you, though hell

Blinded by the sight of you

I couldn’t tell how far in depth we dwell

And here you left me, hypnotized

Slowly to come to

Gone you were to do your deed

To gather souls anew

GDS 3/29/19

[iwritebecausecant]

False in me?

I’m told I’m good

I’m grand

But I can’t see it

Not at all

Not from where I stand

How can they no see

The disease

The putridness

It makes up all

Brings me to my knees

I see all the damage

The flaws

Insurmountable

Reasons

that should give all pause

So lies must it be

What all see

What they say

For If not from them

Then falseness be from me

GDS 9/7/19

[iwritebecausecant]

Through the Dark Of You

My darkest dreaded days

Were filled with loss of you

Where light was hardly seen

From constant tear filled gaze

Sanity tethered on a thread

Cries, pleading for the end

And broken as I was

Slowly the blackness turned anger red

needed mourning given due

And out I came the other side

From live to dead to live again

Living even though we’re through

Gds 2/11/19

[iwritebecausecant]

Nothings Goal

When young I feared so truly

that nothing I’d become

That all my wants and needs

Would die upon the setting sun

Now old find that nothing

Is but my only goals and dreams

And though you think that sad

It’s not the way it seems

Hope for zero tension

And to owe oh not a bit

For issues not a one

And to never want to hit

Yes you might say that nothing

Is making aspersions not

But for me it’s the aim

The bullseye on the spot

GDS 2/24/2019

[iwritebecausecant]

Dusks claws

You are sunshine morning

I am darkest night

And now we seem to gather

Only to renew our daily fight

We use to meld together

Sliding with a satisfying ease

You shining threw my shadows

Me bringing in nights breeze

Now it’s ever storms

Our transitions through the day

Leaving naught but rivalry

And nothing else to say

I miss your brightening mornings

And how we use to dance toward eve

But climate change has chilled us

Leaving just the way we seethe

Gds 01/28/2019

[iwritebecausecant]

Sorcery of you

Love Entwined

Ensorcelled

The depths of it intoxicating

Yet fearfully controlling

It’s exhilarating

Mesmerizing

How your presence leads me

Blinding, so it is only you I see

How I follow thee

Reverently

Guided by loves haze

Now Till the end of days

1/21/2019