Yeah I have a hard time asking for help.
1) I don't like having to get all deep explain personal problems. Just cliffnotes. Keep it simple but if not truthful, it's kind of pointless.
2) My mother had a tantrum any time I asked her for anything so I kind of cringe if I have to ask.
3) I like to do things my way first before others suggestions. Simply because it feels good to have accomplished something on my own and I feel less autistic. I'm very anal about how I want things to look if I'm going to be staring at it for lengths of time. The world is over until its fixed. It drives Vince crazy.
One time I lost all my custom data on WoW because Vince fucked around with it. He wanted to play, I got pissed off because I worked so hard to have my shit the way I liked it. So I was like, ummmm... No I can't play like that. It hurts my eyes. Vanilla hurts my eyes and I have to have it my way. Well it was hiss fucking fault for trying to help and failing at it. Now he had to wait until I could not have a panic attack over how bad it looked. He's Italian so he's inpatient and ignorant. Sorry. Anyway, his fault but of course he had to yell at me for all that too. He doesn't understand how autism works and how my brain is wired differently. He thinks it's bullshit.
Learning how to ask for help.
The one time I should have asked, of course I fucked up my computer. I lost EVERYTHING because of it. Then got chewed out by Vince calling me stupid. You know every time I write about his shitty attitude lately I'm just hating him (and my life) more.
Anyway... So a few times Erik left me hanging to figure out partitioning new disk space. For me is the hardest part because this is where I fucked up my windows. I should have taken the advice some guy had on YouTube. BUT THERE WAS A SIMPLE OPTION TO INSTALL ALONGSIDE THE OTHER OS!! What the fuck... But no, I had to re-install for the 3rd time or idk lost count.
Erik is more of a car person.
I like computer and tech shit. I like building them, customizing the OS up the ass, and customizing parts. If I could I'd build a hackintosh computer with custom parts. Also I like to take old phones and install different OS on them like turn an android in to an apple phone. Actually I'm not sure if that's possible so I'll look in to that.
I took a dell laptop and turned it in to a Mac.
Why do I do it? I like taking shit apart and putting them back together. Who wants to spend 2k+ on a new computer when you can build and customize it for half the cost?! I have all day to fuck around and basically this is what I've been doing. Vince called me a "Crack addict" because I've not been eating - - not intentionally I just forget because I'm busy but I would love tacos! And I have the behavior of someone tweaked out on meth... No, I'm not doing meth (*ahem*... anymore *ahem*) . So I've been hard at work on it happily blasting music from my headset and singing.
I got my old job back. It's cool I guess because I'm working at home again and don't have to put on cake face or wear skirts or dresses to let everyone know I'm not an lesbian... Because I'm totally not. I promise you.
All that's missing are my glasses which I still need to get. Contacts are expensive AF.
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