Door to Freedom, self reflection on pattern recognition
Pattern recognition sets us free- this is the gem revelation for today’s Life theme and transmission.
Free from what? One might be able to go and do anything he or she desires… but still not feeling free.
Is freedom a feeling?
I love watching the movie Eat Pray Love.
I have been watching it every now and then for the past years.
First time I watched it was in summer of 2018, in Transylvania, Sibiu. I was a volunteer for a permaculture garden. Beautiful time and place.
The movie and the place lifted me much and gave me the insight and clarity that it was time for me to prepare to go to India. After almost 4 months and my first vipassana, I took a one way ticket to the mystical land to find what I did not even know I was looking for.
Every time I watch the movie I get a new perspective.
You know that scene in Bali where she is with this naked Dj that is inviting her into a casual love affair and she is saying to him something like: I have dated you 15 years ago and I have dated you 6 months ago.
This is her recognising of a pattern choice in relationships that is not serving anymore the integrity of her heart. She has made the unconscious conscious by taking these inner and outer trips to return to her core. I think that the balance they are storytelling in the movie is the actual core stability that is explored in the Gene Keys.
Even if we all take this template journey, of Eat Pray Love, go Italy, India and Bali… it will give us totally different perceptions and revelations, because our deep subtle layers of energetics will highly influence everything, all the time and space.
I skipped the italian indulgement and went straight into the unknown of India.
It was overwhelming, exciting, revelatory, fluid, sacred… all the humanities frequencies low and high were there.
I stayed for 133 days and it gave exactly what I needed.Purpose.
I met with a frequency there that I later found out through the Gene Key why I was so fascinated by it.
This frequency was embodied by Ananda Mayi Ma, "the most perfect flower the Indian soil has produced".
I felt this sacred feminine energy twice in Goa, once in my room and once in the open sitting space of the yoga school I was working for.
It felt so familiar to me with heart feeling of surrendering to her divine will.
But both times, I let myself be distracted by something else, outside my self.
I began to study, think and feel of her… then shortly after, the Gene Keys appeared in my life and showed me that in my Hologenetic Profile I have the 58th, unlocking a deeper understanding within me related to Bliss, Joy, Service, Divine Will and Love.
If you would like to meet this Divine feminine that was and is Ananda Mayi Ma, Richard Rudd, the wisdom channel of the Gene Keys is offering us this profound poetic exploration here:
https://youtu.be/LSuihr6yUKI
So you see, even if it might have seemed to be a shallow thing to do…. to follow a movie script… I actually followed my intuition, my joy.
The same I feel about Bali… there is something there for me to meet within. And I know the currents of love will take me there eventually.
I am activating myself so much with the Gene Key, I am reading and contemplating; opening myself into awakening by the favor of Grace.
I was seeking for some higher teachings encompassing perspectives from a multidimensional level that would lead me to a deeper understanding of life, of myself.
I am actually seeking to return home. I am looking to return to my integrity and empty myself, as so much I have taken in as if it would belong to me.
Today, the 55th got me. I am free 😂
Or at least I am working on it.
I am shocked by how blind I was and still am. The many beliefs that I have that I am not aware of are contouring my reality. And then I complain and I blame.
This runs deep in my family. This runs deep in our collective.
And it feels very connected to being judgemental, thus keeping myself far aways from experiencing connection with the integrity and perfection of all of life.
Today I found out that what I was intuitively stretching so much was my fascia, feeling very constrained… showing how much I have separated myself from the whole, because of my borrowed beliefs.
I feel like a carousel of revelations, that if I am engaged in one relationship it is more than enough to illuminate my shadow patterns. I understand the need for slowing down. Where I was running, there was nothing really to see, to be able to take responsibility to bring my unconscious into the light of consciousness. I was given the perfect environment to see my shadow and light work.
And I am honest to myself now that I was not in enough energetic flow and awareness to do work for others. Although this work still is, just by personal integration and sending out a fresh energy wave out there, in there.
I saw patterns of how I am addicted to stress and hijack my own nervous system, choosing to consume things that would amplify my stress. Slowly, slowly, my choices changed and still changing. It greatly to pause and breathe deeply, especially when I am not in the mood, cause I am drifting in a mental noise.
I was wondering and asking directly to my Inner Divine Self to explain to me what actually sovereignty means. What does it mean to take responsibility for myself? How do I become self sustainable? How do I end this co- dependency loop? To whom did I give my power away? What is clouding my heart sight?
What is empowerment?
Is it enough to just See the pattern and when next time comes, choose to walk away? Be present and patient, Floriana.
I have been taking in so much of the spiritual knowledge as if all is relevant and true for me. Emptying something and filling it with something else. Should empty and just let God fill in?
Not easy to filter and keep in my life what is really nurturing me into self awakening and ascension.
I am recognising my victimhood shadow.
I am seeing the play of life and how I have projected so much on others, blaming them for my lack, for my misfortune. I am tired and rested in the same time. I have cleaned some more of the inside basement and attic.
More green blue golden inner space, that’s my wish. Make it indigo, violet, red, orange and yellow also.
All is so subtle, that slowing down is a prerequisite to self- artistry.
My Lemurian Roots surfaced some more these past few days. Like an old and new love arising within my cells. The intents are becoming purer and purer. The Spirit is awakened within me. I tell, this is the softest of the softest love I have ever felt.
In my daily morning water ritual, I am beginning to let go of any kind expectations, just being the Loving of all that is.
I wish I could be like this all day, all ever and ever.
One day, I was woken up with: “ Speak for the Water “
I have no idea where my next home will be, but I am sure it is near her body, The Healing Sacred Feminine Water. I have some ceremonies to perform.
I am embracing my Sensitivity and it feels it has a lot to do with the Receptivity of my mind, my body, my heart.
I understand that I am an expression of a certain frequency of Ecstasy. I was made of the ecstasy of the primordial water giving birth to life. But what does the Sun want from me… Everything is showing me that I was born to be THIS LOVE.
I am allowing myself to be seen without expectations.
I am practicing giving love without expectations.
I see that I am playing hide and seek with myself. I pretend to do something else when someone comes and might discover my joy, judge me for it, punish me for it. I am afraid to be myself, I hide myself and then I seek for myself… an endless loop of self- inflicted prison.
Yes, I was a child and my parents laughed and punished me for my natural expression and exploration.
Then I would learn to avoid being seen, heard, but longed to be seen, heard.
I missed and craved for their warm touch, acceptance and tenderness.
So I entered deeply into the shadows of sexual addiction.
I blamed my DNA legacy. I am a victim and I am not a victim. By reinforcing my blaming pattern, I continued to constrict the actual beauty of my DNA.
Eventually life showed me that Hey, it is ok, feel into your pain, embrace yourself, you are on your way. This is the way. Guilt is the Sun Light in disguise. Awakening is not easy, nor hard.
I completely understand people who are living in the woods and I completely understand people who are living in the cities.
If my inception as a human seed and my 9 months experience inside the motherly belly is contained in the wisdom and library of my cells, then can I make now a transfer of care, safety and beauty perception of the outside world? Incept and carry myself again? Rebirth myself as completely new human being, born with activated 3rd Eye,
Vitality, Intuition, Peace and more, knowing that all is well and life is interconnected, self- sustained, beautiful and its people are amazing pearls that I can trust and love without fear and limits?
Can I visit that belly timeline and make some energetic operations? Hmm.
In a way, self love is just this.
I will be born like this… but in the future.
This life is about a different kind of journey and it is ok, perfect just as it is.
I have been under so much stress and unease, misfitting the requirements of the world.
Can I let go of the attachment to my own storyline of being a victim of life?
Yes. No. Not yet. Yes.
Can I sing without hiding and judging myself?
Yes. No. Not yet. Yes.
Some friends said that I am changing my mind too much. Yes, I am. I must. I must return my mind to its original receptivity.
I must return to my original beingness. I must return to play. I must not make it a must. I must forget myself into mindfulness.
I find it very strange that I need to do things to survive.
I see there is a game of survival, of competition.
I am just not energising this game anymore. I have discovered a new way of living.
So, we all energise some kind of game after all?
Do we really choose, now, in this lifetime, in this Earth body or it had been decided when we sat and raised pure consciousness hands at the Divine Table of Service?
I am such a copycat sometimes.
I am so eager to guide people to live their lives in a better way, but is this really ok? Even guidance of any kind feels more like entertainment, always tricky.
I find that being the silent loving witness of someone speaking is the most genuine guidance I can offer. Me; maybe you feel different and that is cool, fine by me.
I remember the community calls from Gene Key. I was in their first Deep Dive into Genius, 4 months virtual retreat. And I wish I had joined more of these calls, but I was too distracted. I was only in the last two… profoundly beautiful to just hear, to just be with other people, to just speak, to just have others be with me.
Was the teacher indirectly showing us that there is so much guidance, so much orientation in the silence of listening just?
I did this a few nights ago, without recalling these community calls.
My friend shared some of his life experiences and within me I decided I will not judge, interfere, analyse, project or get entangled.
After his sharing, he said that he is surprised that after so much talk he does not have a headache, as he normally would. I took it as a successful listening, in which I spoke energetically with acceptance and compassion.
Yes, indeed, freedom is such a deep ancient longing. But what is freedom actually? How do we awaken to this great changing frequency?
What are the patterns that we have to become aware of so to explore this new domain?
Because slavery still is on our beloved planet, just in slight different style. I invite you to imbibe yourself in the transmission of The 55th Gene Key to find your own sense of freedom. If you are ready and resonant.
We are in a majestic, divine game.
It is not enough to know the rules of this game to create a desired outcome. Maybe it is a good idea to even surrender the outcomes.
Still, it remains a good idea to be a human being with an awakened, original and upgraded DNA. And for this
miraculous occurrence, changing one’s Aura Attitude is key to this process of returning to our sacred tune.
With openness& friendliness,
Floriana
