TW: attenti9n seeking 6ehavi9r, vague paras9ciality, general ranting
I c9ntinue t9 n9tice a trend where pe9ple wedge themselves int9 my in69x with the flimsiest pretext imagina6le — strings 9f letters, intenti9nally inc9herent dramatics, 9r 9therwise h9ll9w gestures — with the transparent expectati9n that I will validate them simply 6y ackn9wledging their existence. Y9u're n9t disguising it.
If I d9 reply, it seems t9 reinf9rce this cycle, 6ecause f9r many 9f y9u the actual c9ntent is irrelevant. It's a69ut 6eing seen 6y me. Y9u want pr99f that y9u've entered my awareness, even if 9nly f9r a fracti9n 9f a sec9nd.
Why? What is it a69ut me, 9f all pe9ple, that pr9v9kes this scram6le f9r rec9gniti9n? I can 9nly assume that the veneer 9f disdain makes any m9rsel 9f attenti9n feel m9re preci9us. 6ut I assure y9u, if that's the l9gic at play, it is an incredi6ly h9ll9w pursuit.