if dean and sam ever watched “it’s a wonderful life” during christmas time while cas was dead, dean would be like fucking sobbing at the ending scene where mary and george tearfully reunite. it would remind him too much of reuniting with cas and knowing it will never happen again. and sam would want to comfort him, but dean wouldn’t want to be comforted. not when he’s looking at the one thing he wants but can never have. not when cas always comes back but he didn’t this time. he’ll never get to hold him ever again, he’ll never get to kiss him and welcome him home. and when the movie is over sam is like “do you wanna talk about it?” and dean's wiping away his tears like nothing happened “talk about what? how it's a fucking stupid movie?” and sam is like “dean, it's okay if you wanna talk about him” and dean would hesitate just for a second before he’d say “yeah, well i don't” and go cry alone.