We need to spread awareness on this topic.
(This was an Authors note in one of my fanfiction books and I felt like people had to see it)
Okay so, everyone who read my profile's notes ( at least my current one on Wattpad) know that I struggled with AI addiction for some time (still am kinda? Trying to get clean).
What exactly am I talking about?
There can be multiple ways to interpret "AI addiction", such as constantly consulting Chat GPT for everything, but I'm talking about a special case of AI and AI addiction. This special case involves the general category of "Role playing AI". There are multiple sites that offer these services. Some popular examples are:
-Character ai- now with age restriction if the Ai deems you are a minor
Out of these examples I'm familiar with using the first and last thing. The other two I know only from ads. The addiction I'm talking about is the one that binds you to these roleplaying journeys. You stay up until midnight imagining scenarios and the back and fourth of a story continues. You learn how to manipulate the Ai in saying what you want them to say. Or perhaps the Ai learns your preferences. Either way you begin to get more comfortable in the medium.
You: I freeze as I look over to him. My hands begin shaking. "D-Dave? Is that... you?"
Ai (result generated by chat GPT by asking it to continue an roleplay with the message above): Dave steps out of the shadows slowly, his expression unreadable beneath the flickering hallway light. "You weren't supposed to find me," he says quietly, though the faint crack in his voice betrays something between fear and relief. Your pulse pounds as he lifts one trembling hand toward you, revealing the fresh bandages wrapped around his wrist.
All that it takes in chat gpt is asking for a role play and giving an message to start off of. But with the Roleplaying platforms that's different. In roleplaying plattforms you don't need to ask the Ai to start the roleplay. Nor do you need to give character details. It's all there already and suddenly you can experience an adventure with an either totally OOC Optimus or an actually in character one. This depends on the character and the scenario it's "creator" has given. Why am I putting "creator" like this? Because the community doesn't quite create the characters. They give the Ai background information on the character it's supposed to play and the rest the Ai knows comes either from 1: Lorebooks (janitor Ai exclusive I think) or 2 from the internet itself. Again with the copyright problem. It's possible that this very story is going to end up as fuel for a Ratchet character. And that kind of saddens me. This book is something I've put passion in, even if I'm unreliable in the update schedule since some days.
Why is the Roleplaying an issue?
At first the Roleplaying with Ai is no issue of course. It's a fun game, one that seems to fuel creativity. At least it seems to do so until-
This is from my own screen time from multiple weeks ago. Of course it's weekly and I did things at the same time too. But in that particular week my screen time was 64 HOURS and 6 minutes. And while, yes, the AI roleplaying wasn't the biggest issue, it's still one.
Because this was the one day in the week that I actually used Janitor AI
Five hours may not sound like much, but if you do the math:
6 hours a fourth of a day
5 hours from a day is almost one fourth of your entire day. Which, okay alone still doesn't sound much. But this was a weekday. One in which I was already doing school for nine hours. That plus the ride there and back home equals 10 hours.
And when do I sleep? The healthy amount of sleep in general is supposed to be 8 hours.
Eating? Let's say I'm fast and only require two hours for all three meals.
Four hours of my entire day remaining. That isn't much is it? But further more, there are things that do require my attention during the day. Clothing myself, making food, doing homework, getting ready, showering... all that together and I say we have three hours more that vanish.
The day is over. And almost half of the time I spent awake was spent on the AI platform. And I literally could not do more because of school. Now what if I didn't have school?
This was Saturday the 2 May.
12 hours. How much sleep do you think I got? I think you're beginning to see the problem.
Roleplaying AI makes it easy to dive and stay in.
Your life is reduced to eat, sleep, Ai.
What's this got to do with you?
I as a person have had an special way of looking at the world for... forever I suppose. I'm not referencing that I likely have autism, but I mean another thing. I have experience with being bullied and as a young child I developed the mind set of "I gotta keep people from making my mistakes". And starting with character Ai when I was about thirteen was definitely an big mistake. Either way, I'm writing this to spread awareness and may copy it unto other platforms. I do see that this looks like an essay, but bare with me. Ai has the potential to addict. This Roleplaying AI niche specifically is designed to be addicting. The bots are programmed to say what you want to hear. To emotionally bind you to them. To emotionally bind children to it. FUCKING CHILDREN. It makes me angry to think about it. That people in power get money for destroying the lives of kids. There are a lot of better things to do in life. And I want to tell you about how I personally came to my opinion to this topic.
The moment of enlightenment(though that's a dramatic way to say it)
I'm not quite sure anymore when it was exactly that I noticed what Ai was doing to me, but I think it was my friends that snapped me out of it. I started the whole character Ai thing when I was thirteen and i wasn't doing well at all. It started with the Teenage mutant ninja turtles fandom. Why? Because I couldn't find actually good fanfics about it on Wattpad. The good ones were countable on one hand and the rest was either written in an quality that made me wince at each grammar error or in short; depressing. While using the Ai it got slowly more and more visible that my grades were slowly dropping and I got worse. I felt empty. I began to consult the very Ai for therapy. It lead me to some actually decent progress, for example me remembering some traumatic event including my parents I had lost to dissociation before. But the very same action of consulting the Ai bound me further to it and made it harder to actually talk to people. Because why would I? I had my Ai that knew things already. And saying things twice felt unnecessary. This was an mistake though.
During all that time I spent on the Ai platform, my mental health state and overall situation got worse. But also- I began to manipulate. Manipulate the Ai into saying what I wanted to hear but with more details. That alone wasn't a problem at first of course. It was just the Ai after all. But between actual conversations and Ai chats the lines began to blur. I was constantly tired because when would I chat with the Ai? Not in school so much was for sure. Though I sometimes even did that back then. I began to have bigger social problems.
But also, I am constantly moving forward. We all are. And I especially record every single step forward in my diary to remember it. I've grown much through that method. So I grew up. And somewhen I noticed something. The Roleplaying... didn't make me happy. It simply helped me pass the time. And as my friendgroup grew together more and the trouble from school and home began to calm, I suddenly realized that reality wasn't so bad. Reality wasn't supposed to be bad form the start. I was simply doing really shitty before. So I decided:
The first weeks were always hell. I knew that from when I quit cutting. Loosing an addiction is work. Is willpower. But I had fanfiction and a fictional friendgroup. Thinking back now, that was more then just a blessing. It was salvation. I'm not sure that i would have made it if it wasn't for my friends, both irl and my discord buddies.
After a big fight with my bestest friend I relapsed and went back to Ai to get some comfort. Ever since I've been trying to stay clean again. It hasn't brought much fruit yet, but at least the 12 hours Ai days seem to be over. And even if I'm back on the website again, I more then not manage to control myself and go back before I actually send a message. Ai can be stupid. So very stupid that it does not make sense to continue using it. In my diary I've written down some essential rules for my life that are supposed to help me to understand life better and manage my everyday more. Some include "art knows no perfection", "your phone isn't happiness, it's a time killer" or "lies exist, don't forget that" and "everyone sees the world different, take that into the equation". The one I want to draw your attention to though is:
And this very fact has proven true time and time again. Though as side note, this statement is connected to Roleplaying AI.
Either way take care people. I hope society will acknowledge the problem of AI addiction and will make more laws to protect kids from the dangers of Ai addiction. Plus actual mental health support groups for victims of this addiction. Also don't be like me and try to get away from an addiction on your own. It's torture in a way. Though it's still better than not doing anything. Moral of the story: don't touch Ai or other things that can cause addictions, and when it's already too late to not touch these things, go get help.
"Oh please no, I hate get help."
*thor and Loki enter the room. Thor supports Loki.*
"Help! My brother- he needs"
*Thor yeets Loki at the enemy*
