#girlhell vent

[we-are-in-girlhell]

you can't leave me

i don't mean that in a begging way. you can't leave me. you physically cannot. because you will suffer the consequences. i will gouge your eyes out and use them as toe-warmers. i will use your blood to clean my kitchen floors. i will use your bones as handmade, DIY'd backscratchers and sell them at the local farmer's market!!!

people do not leave me. not once in my life has a person left me. i leave them. IN FUCKING BODYBAGS. KYS.

[we-are-in-girlhell]

Using TCOAAL pictures to rate the things my abuser did to me!

Misgendering me ⟡˖ ࣪ 1/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ i corrected them once then never did again because i was scared of them lol

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2. Saying people medically transitioning were all inherently awful people ⟡˖ ࣪ -100/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ i never should have believed you when it looked like i talked you out of that ""opinion""

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3. Trying to gaslight me into thinking your ex was abusive ⟡˖ ࣪ 3/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ even through the cropped screenshots I **KNEW** there was missing context.

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4. Mentally torturing me until my persecutors came out so you could use them ⟡˖ ࣪ 0/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ you're a bitch, they a bitch, you're all bitches

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5. Telling my best friend that a full blown adult convincing him to get into a relationship with him when he was 13 'wasn't ACTUAL grooming because he liked it' ⟡˖ ࣪ -100,000,000/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ WHAT????????????? (i found this out after they left me)

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6. Cutting me off because 'you're becoming a danger to me, i feel used by you, goodbye' ⟡˖ ࣪ 100/10 ⟡˖ ࣪ best thing you ever did to me im so glad the clarity hit me after two hours of crying

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⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ Not everything, but the important parts! ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

HOLD YOUR FRIENDS/LOVERS/ANY ONE IN YOUR LIFE ACCOUNTABLE FOR WEIRD SHIT THEY SAY; Don't let them get away with it because you love them :(

I was such an idiot back then, but I'm (getting) better now!!

[we-are-in-girlhell]

actually, you love being perceived. it's a wonderful feeling. except most of the time, people DON'T want to perceive you. in fact, you are the worst thing ever to perceive. but then that leads to you not being perceived being perceived. then they pity you. that's the moment when you kill yourself.

[we-are-in-girlhell]

i genuienly feel so bad for Author cause like. I have a feeling I know what the "bad actor" legal trouble is.

the coffin-jam idea is really good, but with how many proshippers and antis have their eyes on this game...it's only going to bring trouble to even partake in it

[we-are-in-girlhell]

I don't understand why people get so upset about "Gravescest DNI"

It's a whole different thing if someone is harassing you for liking Gravescest, but what's the issue if they just don't want to interact with people who ship them?

[we-are-in-girlhell]

every time i think "maybe i could be comfortable with the proshipper label. profic at least."

something happens that reminds me "oh yea. no i never will be."

[we-are-in-girlhell]

INTRODUCTION

Hi, I'm Ash! I am an alter in a DID system who kins Ashely! Disclaimer: I am not a fictive, but this doesn't make me any less her! I would like to go by Ash, please!

I use He/She/They pronouns, and I use this blog to consume dark media, especially TCOAAL <3

!!HEADS UP!!

-I am a neutralship alter in neutral/anti-ship body. please do not label me as a "proshipper" or "anti" Also do not fight me on this. I can have a civil conversation about it but please just block if you take issue with this. -I am ok with doubles! We're each other! <3

-I also use this blog to vent, so if you see the tag '#girlhell vent' on a crazy post, MIND YA BUSINESS!

[we-are-in-girlhell]

I can't be a proshipper because I do, in fact, judge people based on their kinks...

But I can't be an anti because I'm not an abuser...

What's a girlthing to do?