TO MY LOVER'S EX-LOVER . . .
We were friends when we started, the humors we had make our bond strong.
We didn’t intend to go beyond friendship, for we both know, you were still there.
You were the love of her life, that inspires her each single day, the girl of her dreams, her struggles which only you can mend, she waited for you, pretty sure you know that it’s true.
She watched you enjoyed the company of others, she let your happiness be on top, She let you be in new arms because that’s what you wanted.
You let her wait for you in the dark.
She was alone and sad and that makes her mad. She has no one, she barely stands to stir her coffee in the morning, to watch the sunrise, or even play with her friends.
Everyday drunk, sleep in the morning, awake at night. Smoking become her habit.
She was a total mess. While you were there, playing safe and putting all the blame to her. She didn’t want to lose you; she was there looking you from a far.
Remember the time you push her away, she locked herself in the room and no one could ever talk to her. She cried all the pain out. But she’s still there waiting for you.
I was there. I wanted to help even I couldn't . I wanted her to stand and see how beautiful life is even without you.
I helped her rebuild herself, start a new, dream big, accomplish everything she wanted. I push her to achieve the dreams she never had. To obtain the things she once loved to acquire. to reestablish her career, save and enjoy the present.
And she did! We were happy back then, making memories on our own. And achieving all the goals we once wished in the stars.
But suddenly, you came again. And all the scars I willfully patched were becoming obvious again.
You still have her, you still invade her, you still love her, and she is too.
She’s still into you , and she was able to let you know that you were holding a big part of her life.
That broke me, but I can do nothing but watched you killing me in secret.
Yes, I know every single words you traded. Every memory you again brought to life.
Every recent photo you shared and your daily updates towards each other.
Yes, I know everything, but I prefer to remain calm and silent and hoping you will not go through the pain I am now.
Just do me a favor, either let go of the love you once thrown away or pursue her then fight for your love and never be coward again.
