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him and this damn wheel the entire interview
Dilf slash taking care of younger reader while she is drunk 🤭Similiar to your first fic but with dilf slash 🥲🤭🤭
Drunken attitude
summary: You rarely get really drunk, but this night you had really gotten enough and more than that. An unprepared Slash gets you home absolutely hammered and has to get you to bed, just to find out how stubborn drunk you can be.
paring: Older Slash x Reader
warnings: fluff, drunk flirting, references to sexual activities
word count: 5.4k words
a/n: im still alive yay. Sorry for the incredibly long wait anon! hope this is okay🫠 I've been working on this on and off for such a long time and finally decided to finish it. I don't know if I like the ending, might rewrite it someday… It is a Slash fic, but there's a lot of Duff in it too for all of you Duff loving readers on my page<3 enjoy everybody:)
(not proofread as always)
Day 2: Somnophilia
A/n: finally got to write on a computer, but it gave a space to the start of every paragraph 😔
Warnings: smut, somnophilia, masturbation, Slash cums on readers face, if you think I missed anything let me know otherwise enjoy!
Kinktober
When you first met Guns they were playing a show at the Cat House, you’d been having a hard day and they managed to cheer you up.
Cherry Girl
•🖤🍒💋🦇•
Summary: you were in a small town sitting in a diner in California and fate had in mind that Slash would be through town and sit at your booth, becoming very infatuated by you
Pairing: Slash x f!reader
Includes: Suggestive, flirting
•Masterlist•
Song Rec: Cherry Pie-Warrant
It was a plain Sunday evening and I had nothing better to do in this small town then to go down to the local diner and get my usual order
A cherry cola and an order of fries, the juke box was playing Cherry pie by warrant and I couldn’t help but hum along, it always made me feel….confident I suppose is the word
I swirled the straw around my drink looking out at the passerby’s, it was a hot day that’s why I decided to wear my short jean shorts and read tube top
“Can I get you anything else dear?” The waitress I’ve come to know as Marie asks
“Oh I’m fine thank you!” I smile and she walks off right as the door to the diner opens and the bell chimes
As I’m popping a cherry in my mouth I look up and my heart practically jumps out of my body, if I was a cartoon skunk everyone would be able to see it thumping 3 feet out of my chest
There in the doorway stood Slash, what the hell was Slash doing in this random town of all places?
I pluck the cherry off and just like that his eyes met mine as I continue to swirl around my drink as a way to ease my jitters
A smirk etches itself across his face as he strides over to me, his wrist and fingers covered in silver jewelry, I looked up at him and sipped through the straw
“Hey pretty girl, mind if I sit”
“Oh uh….yeah please” he sits and I have no idea what to do with myself but all I know is that he’s only said 7 words to me and I’m already weak in the knees
“What’s a lil thing like you doing here all by yourself?”
“Didn’t have anything else to do and this is my usual place to go”
“Hmm I might have to come through this town more often if I know a sexy thing like you is gonna be here”
“Oh yeah? Are you staying long?” I ask feeling a spike of confidence as the song moves through me
“Nah just stopping through”
“Well why don’t I give you something to remember this town by” I stand and step to his side of the booth taking his hand and he so easily followed me like a puppy out of the diner to my 1967 black impala, the inside lined in cherry red leather
“Nice ride” he says as I open the door to the back seat and push him in, quick to follow suit and straddle his lap
“You’re definitely memorable” his hands squeeze my hips and I can’t help but laugh as I run my hands up his chest to his curly hair
“Let’s make it even better” I whisper as our lips brush together
Quickly things heat up as our lips crash and all I can think about is I’m really in the back of my car making out hot and heavy with Slash, god damn Slash
We continue for a long time until the windows fog up and even though my lungs are screaming for air I can’t seem to care and neither does he, his hands roam all over my body
Damn this man knows how to make a woman shake and want more and more
“Shit girl where have you been” as I lean back in a knock raps on the, slash rolls in down and there stands Duff
“Sorry to interrupt but we gotta go man” he laughed and I couldn’t help the blush erupt across my cheeks
“Do you have to go it was just getting fun around here”
“Then I guess I’ll just have to come by again”
“I’ll be at the diner” I say biting his lip
“You better be” as we got out of the car and I leaned against the back I handed him my number and he took it giving me one last kiss before smacking my ass making me jump
“See ya later cherry”
“That’s not my name” I smirk
“It is now”
dead air, dirty talk - duff mckagan
modern!duff mckagan x reader
She hosts a late night music radio show, just getting by and keeping things entertaining with her crowd, until a charming caller with a self proclaimed ‘ex rockstar life’ becomes awfully involved.
warnings: 18+ content, power imbalance, legal age gap, humiliation, choking, mild breathplay, mentions of alcohol use, sadism, masochism, strong language
word count: 7k words
{tags: @hollywoodroses @duffrosemckagansslut }
special thanks to @hollywoodroses for your advice! ur the best.
The rain made the city glow.
Far from magically, it wasn’t remotely close to a movie scene, but in that ‘neon-reflected-wet-sidewalks-outside-the-pub’ way, where the gutters are glimmering and vaguely smell like the ever familiar city sewage.
Her mary janes hit puddles as she lazily makes her way up the cracked pavement, big flight jacket only zipped up halfway, the cold city wind hitting the skin behind the small slightly exposed black lace bralette she wore as a top. Even at these midnight hours she stuck to her image, hoping to be recognized one of these days.
It was nearly midnight, and everybody in the city was definitely asleep. Yet she was just clocking in.
The radio station was far from glamorous. The suspiciously stained ceiling tiles, the vending machine left with the trail mix no right mind would ever buy, the stuck front door that wouldn’t dare to budge without the help of your hip. A little box of flickering “ON AIR” light and a secondhand incense smell, where the only audience were night owls, truckers, and the very painfully lonely assholes.
A college student technically, firstly, but she felt like her major was just getting by. Rent was late, always. But the apartment had a window that overlooked that city skyline, and when it rained like this? It almost felt expensive.
She threw her jacket on the ever empty guest seat, her minibag following with the jingles of her keychains. She slid into the swivel chair, and tapped the mic, one of the objectively finest things in her life.
“Hey you lot.” she spoke lowly, speaking into the dim half-lit studio. Her voice honeyed with sarcasm, “Welcome back to your nightly reminder it’s past your bedtime. I’m your host, and hell no I’m not playing any Linkin Park.”
The night started the same as ever, the phone blinking lazily as she did.
First caller swore up and down that his cat was possessed. “I swear to you, she growls when I play The Strokes. That can’t be normal!” She chewed her gum and blinked slowly, she sighed to the side. “Consider her opinion.”
Click. Next.
A woman requesting a Celine Dion song for her cheating ex. “You know, just so he knows what he lost?”
“Sure,” she said, already queuing up an obnoxiously rowdy song, betraying her request. “This one’s for you, Greg.” she rolled her eyes.
It droned on; half comedy, half confessional booth? Most nights, she floated through the calls like a milky smoke, half listening, half thinking about her shift ending. Her tone always cool, borderline teasing, like she dared the world to amuse her.
Then came his voice.
It wasn’t dramatic, just low. Steady. Like someone who hadn’t slept in a few days but didn’t mind, yet also a curiosity behind it.
“Hey,” he said. “First time caller. Thought I’d see what the lame and lonely are doing tonight y’know?”
She blinked, oddly dumbfounded, she loved her crowd of course. A bunch of bored and chatty people who didn’t mind being teased and jested with. Her hand froze over the soundboard. There was a pause. Not dead air, more like a charged silence.
He hadn’t stumbled. Didn’t have to unconsciously beg to be heard. He dared her to listen.
Frankly she just wasn’t used to that.
“Well,” she said slowly, her slender fingers pinching her bottom lip, rolling the pout between her index and thumb curiously. “You’ve officially been the smoothest first time caller on the show.”
He chuckled again, his voice that of an unpolished yet inviting young buck. “Oh I’m so glad to raise the bar, it wasn’t awfully hard. Hold your applause I beg.”
“Oh,” she mused, flipping a switch on the board, “someone’s cocky.”
“I’ve been called worse.”
“I’d love to hear this list, first time caller.” she mocked and giggled.
“I’d need a second call for that, you wanna play some songs on this joint eventually don’t you?”
She raised a brow, she could feel the listeners worldwide–or, locally-wide doing the same. The show was far from that of a cohesive talkshow, the collective felt like it was a well promoted music groupchat, nothing so charming.
He teased for more time. Interesting.
“So…” she drawled, resting her chin in her palm. You swear you could hear her amused grin over the radio. “What’s your name, our oh-so-charming mystery caller?”
A pause. “D.”
She waited for more. Nothing came.
“No last name?” she teased. “Witness protection advice such an alias? If you could call it that.”
“Something like that.”
“Alright, D Something-Like-That, what really made you call in tonight?’
Another pause, a little longer this time.
“Just wanted to hear needed some voice other than my own..”
And just like that, her sarcasm wavered. Briefly.
She leaned back in her chair, one mary jane rested on the edge of the desk, watching the rain crawl down the window in tiny silver threads.
D hadn’t filled the silence. He let it breathe, which told her a lot. Most people feared dead air. He let it exist. It was the kind of thing only people with unrelenting confidence could pull off, radioshow or not.
“You always talk like that?” she asked after a beat, voice curious and musing. “All cryptic and poetic, or is it just for me?” she teased smokily.
“Depends,” he said. “Is it working?”
She smirked, he got her there, admittedly a thrill shot up from layers behind her abdomen. “A little. But don’t get a big head about it, you’d have to best all the trucker callers who tell me Iron Maiden predicted 9/11. You’re in the league for sure, but the best in it?” she jested.
“Aw darn.” he chuckled. “Guess I’ll have to try harder next time won’t I?”
For some reason, it hadn’t felt like a threat. When most of her callers promised a call back, she already dreaded it. But him?
Next time?
She liked this mix, unrehearsed boldness, smooth and not pushy. She liked that. It wasn’t often someone on the other side of the static actually got to her.
Most of her audience was a blend of awkward stoners, lonely oldheads, or self proclaimed “deep” Elliott Smith fans. She loved them, she was them, but it didn’t stop her from knowing how much more aware she was of them. Sharp edged, and sad in a way they hadn’t earned yet. She envied her crowd some times, more love than hate there.
But this guy? He didn’t even try to prove anything, and it slightly unnerved her. Just a bit.
“You a music guy, D?” she asked.
He hesitated. Just for a second.
“You could say that, sure.” he chuckled
“Define ‘music guy,’” she pushed.
“Played a little. Wrote a little. Y’know? Lived backstage.”
She tilted her head. “You in a band?”
“Used to be. Not the frontman. Never liked the idea too much, y’know? Just there to get drunk, high, and play. Not much else to it, y’know?”
“Ohhh,” she teased. “Mysterious past, famous rock god calling from exile maybe? You’re intriguing us.”
“You laugh,” he said, clearly amused. “but you’re not that far off.”
She almost made a joke. Almost.
"You miss it?" she asked uncharacteristically tenderly.
“I guess I miss the feeling.” he paused. “And I miss not having to explain it.”
She liked this, she wanted to save it in a bottle and keep it for later.
“Call me next week,” she said, almost without thinking. “Same time.”
A silence hung between them, it was warm.
“Yeah,” he said, quiet and sure. “I will.”
After D hung up, she just sat there for a second, staring at the blinking line that had gone dark.
The next call came through.
“Hey, it’s Alan again; remember me? The guy with the misspelled ‘Mtoely Crue’ fucked up tattoo?”
She smirked, her fingers absently tapping on the desk. “Hey you. I was wondering when you’d call to make up for your last very questionable tattoo.”
The usual stream of callers came through; a guy who swore Ozzy didn’t eat the damn bat, a woman asking for a shoutout to her ‘super cool’ cat named Gary Glitter, and an ex-groupie proudly proclaiming how she wore the bandana of David Bowie’s guitarist after stealing it.
It was all so, mostly, predictable yet amusing. Her demeanor was noticeably different, she felt herself smiling into the mic more. Swinging her legs under the desk like a teenager with a secret.
Even when she walked home under the same dripping sky, hands tucked into her jacket pockets, she just kept hearing that voice of his.
She didn’t know what it was exactly. Just that it felt honest in a way people rarely are, especially behind anonymous lines around 2 am.
The next day blurred like a washed out tape.
College was a haze of fluorescent lights and dull lectures. She sat through a pretentious music theory class taught by some prissy asshole who pronounced “fugue” wrong, and graded as if he was some kind of Beethoven himself.
Lunch was a pathetic half bagel and a chai latte, she ignored all her texts. Checked the station voicemail, nothing.
By Thursday, she had almost convinced herself it was a fluke. An oddly charming stranger who stumbled into her show and played her like a damn fool for her audience.
But she couldn’t stop thinking of his voice, the steady smokey rasp, but friendly chuckles behind it. A certain gravel to it you don’t get from a mic, but from life. From late nights and hotel bathtubs and waiting too long between cigarettes.
She continually replayed the call in her head, especially the pauses. The way he’d say “y’know” like he expected her to understand everything as he said it. Or it was just a habit, she was reading too far into it, she knew it.
The following Friday night rolled in like clockwork, it felt like the past hundred, the city buzzing under the same rain slicked sky. The comforting hum of the studio set in as she sat in her chair, fingers already itching for the mic. Tonight was the night.
She clicked the mic on, ready to get into the usual chaos of her late night crowd.
“Alrighty, you know who I am, cut the crap and call me.” her voice danced in the air with a playful edge. “Hit me.” she tempted her awaiting callers.
The calls flooded in, each one blending into the next; people joking about how they were finally awake enough to properly understand their grandpa’s recommendations, a woman who was seriously convinced she was the bastard child of Eddie Van Halen, another just wanted a song rec.
She kept it coming, half-listening, half-laughing, her usual dry sense of humor coating every interaction. But then, a strange shift in the feeling of the next call.
“Hey, who’s calling us tonight?” she said, a feeling in her gut about this caller.
A soft and familiar chuckle vibrated through the speakers, unmistakingly smooth, yet carrying that same rough edge that made him stand out before. “I’m afraid it’s me again,” came his familiar beautiful voice, rich, and warm with mischief. “Wouldn’t want you to think you’d gotten rid of me that easily.”
She truly couldn't suppress the smirk that tugged at the corners of her mouth. D, of course, like he promised. A wave of relief and excitement washed over her, leaving that electric feeling hanging in the air.
“Back for more?” she teased, keeping her tone light, though there was that new kind of amusement she found last time he had called her. “Thought you’d let someone else have the spotlight for once.”
“Couldn’t keep away,” he replied smoothly. “I figured I’d call in and see if you were still managing to keep up with all this music gossip crap. I have to admit, I’m impressed you haven’t lost it yet.”
Her eyebrow arched, was he listening to her show the whole week leading up to today? She leaned closer to the mic. “Oh, I’m hanging in there, don’t you worry about me. But I do have to ask… what’s your angle this time?”
She could hear his smile, whatever that looked like, in his voice as he spoke again, and she knew it was that smirk– the one he probably wore every time he got into this kind of playful back and forth. “No angle. Just wanted to check in and see if you’re still as interesting as last week, which you’ve seem to have a knack for. I gotta know, a question that I imagine all listeners have thought of…” he began, her eyebrows raising. “Are you as interesting off the air as you are on it?”
Her pulse shot up, but she kept her cool. “I don’t know… maybe you should find out for yourself. Unless you’re a complete nutcase and lied your way up to this point about this ‘ex-rockstar life’ you claimed.” she teased.
His ever sunny laughter rumbled through the speakers, the kind that was easy-going and mischievous. “I think that’s a dangerous idea, y’know? But hey, I get it. You probably think you know everything about this side of life, right? I mean, you’ve heard all the stories, the ones about the craziness, the tours, the late nights, the drama.”
She raised a brow feeling the challenge settle into her chest. “I mean, sure. I’ve heard some pretty wild stuff. But I bet you’ve seen a lot more than you’ve led on, D.” she giggled.
He chuckled. “I’m sure I could tell you a few stories that would blow your mind, but who knows? Maybe they’re better left off the ears of a radio show host, y’know?” he jested.
She leaned forward, rolling her eyes and musing, her tone intrigued and teasing. “Oh, don’t be so mysterious. You think you can just be all cryptic on my show and not expect me to want to know more?”
“Well, I’m a fan of mystery,” D replied, his voice lowering a tad. “Especially in people who can keep up. I’ll give you a hint, though. Being on the road isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. After a while, you start seeing how shitty it can be, y’know.”
“I’d imagine.” she said softly.
His voice shifted. “It’s humbling to get back into the spot you were before the big lights. Even for a little.”
She was quiet for a moment, letting the tension linger between them before speaking again. “Sounds like you’re not in that life anymore?”
His laugh was soft, yet gravely and laced with amusement. “No. That bit is behind me. The memories stay for years. They stick around. Like the people who truly get it, the ones who really know what it’s like, y’know?”
Her curiosity peaked, but she didn’t lead on. “So, you’re saying I’ve got to be in the elusive ‘get it’ club to understand?” she asked with a playful edge.
“Maybe,” D teased. “Or maybe I’ll just show you what happens when you start looking beyond the hairspray and pretty men. You know, in person?”
Her heart skipped. There it was again! That invitation, hanging in the air like a challenge she couldn’t resist.
“I guess I’ll have to be properly schooled this weekend.” she chuckled. “If you think you can handle all of my beauty and charm… and wit.” she said ever so sarcastically.
D’s voice dropped to a lower amused pitch, “Oh I know I can, I’m sure. But we’ll see how tough you are, no audience, no mic.” he chuckled.
“I guess we’ll have to see. Check your inbox, send the deets there.” she giggled. The listener count had spiked up, she hadn’t even noticed. She was too busy writing the caller number on a nearby notepad to contact this illusive D.
After that shift the plan was set, her phone buzzing moments later.
D: So, Saturday night, 8PM. Guess you’re calling out sick to your loyal listeners?
She stared at the message, the playfulness in his text was unmistakable. It kind of hit her though, she hoped it wasn’t some total uggo just playing around. He didn’t have to be a looker or anything, she kind of just created some hot fantasy subconsciously. Her fingers hovered the keyboard, then she bit a fraction of the skin of her bottom lip and typed.
You: You better not be all talk. I’ll be there, abandoning my favorite group of loners for you.
The typing popped up on her screen. She couldn’t help but giggle.
D: I already promised. See you at the station.
Saturday morning came by fast, and the hours were slipping by before she could really prepare for meeting up with this D character. On the off chance he wasn’t some behemoth troll, she decided to play the game and get all pretty regardless.
Standing in front of the mirror, a bundle of excitement and nerves playing in her gut. Her hair cascaded in soft waves, hands trembling as she worked her locks. She had already chosen a simple outfit, a black slip dress and black sheer stockings. She slid on kitten heels, trying to at least look like she was there for a “good time” and not too try hard.
The clock struck 7:45pm and at this rate, she had been ready for hours. Waiting around, not wanting to be too early. Her heart raced as she took one more good look in the mirror. She sighed and got her purse, excited and nervous all at once. She stepped out of her apartment, and locked the door behind her.
The rain had settled in the past couple of days, a grey gloom remained. The neon lit reflections make an appearance in the vague drizzle. She tried to wind up her confidence she led on in her show, and that she had interacted with him this entire time with.
The idea of being around a personality who collided so well with hers made her stomach flip in anticipation.
When she stood by the radio station, she immediately scanned the street, watching oncomers with intent. She immediately glanced down at her phone, going to ask where he was when an extremely tall figure stood in front of her.
She looked up, she picked up on the features before her brain could even scream out his real name in all of its astonishment.
His hair was styled in a tousled way, the hints of grey but the natural blonde shone through his hair. His face was the same as the magazine covers that had moved her to make a show about the genre, only aged, only more scruffy, timelessly rugged. She took it all in, his tattooed arms, the way he dressed in a simple black band shirt, a cross chain, how it hung off his slender body?
She was awestruck, Duff Mckagan stood right before her. Guns N Roses was everything to her, absolutely everything. One of her immediately loved bands, always updating the show on their every news, more so than other bands. This was the best possible thing to come out of this.
The dazed look on her face, jaw hung slightly open. He listened to the show, that asshole knew what kind of reaction this would get out of her this whole time. Warranting the smirk she had imagined behind the static, being plastered on the face of her absolute favorite bassist. Who knew now that he was, she knew immediately he’d hold all of her spoken affections to him.
Duff smiled down at her, his hands in his jean pockets. “You look like you’re thinking of running out of here.” he said, his voice so warm and clear, yet all the more rough now that it was in front of her.
Her heart thudded, this was her absolute dream since she started the show. An unrealistic one sure? A girlish unmistakable attraction built inside of her, one that was always there of course, it was Duff McKagan. But this was also D, the personality that charmed her to no end.
Her face crept into a shy smile, trying to force that personality she had put up for days. “Not quite,” she looked up at him, “Just taking in the fact you’re not… you’re… you?” she stuttered. In disbelief understandably.
He smirked still looking down at her and her gloomy little get up, he liked this. “Oh I’m sure I’ve lived up to all your expectations, huh? All those praises you’ve been throwing my way” he said, clearly amused by the idea. “I thought I was just another call-in but, you talk about this old bassist more than you let on, y’know? You had no clue.”
She wanted to die and melt into the earth, in a good way. Her cheeks immediately flaring pink. Of course he was going to bring that up, she thought. Her lips twitched between embarrassment and amusement. “I—what?” She tried to recover quickly, though she could already feel her face warming at the thought of it. The unabashed admiration she had casually thrown into the open radio air, wrapped up in excited ramblings about GnR? She was so screwed.
Duff chuckled sensing her realization, “I mean it’s cool,” he continued. “You’ve been raving about me and the old guys for weeks. What was it you said? ‘Unparalleled character’ or something like that?” His smirk was practically etched into his face. “You like me? If that even scratches the surface of it.”
She was still extremely embarrassed and also excited for how this night could possibly continue. D was Duff, she was here, that electric personality was her all time favorite. How would anyone recover? She gulped quietly and pursed her lips, trying to.
Duff laughed again, low and rich, like a guilty pleasure. “Oh I’ve been listening alright. Don’t think I missed a word. Couldn’t help myself, y’know? You’re so charming when you talk about me. It’s like that sarcasm and wit just becomes girlish gossip in those segments.”
There was something about the way he said it, something that made her wonder if he was playing her or if he actually enjoyed her vocal passion about him, she was after all cool-headed, and relaxed on air. He picked up on that demeanor change when she spoke about Guns N’ Roses.
She didn’t know how to respond to that, so instead she deflected with a quick and really shaky sarcastic reply. A hand to her hip, looking up at the statue of a man with red flushed cheeks “So what’s your point Mckagan? You’re just trying to get me to say I think you’re as cool as your band right?”
“Oh absolutely,” he responded. His voice dripped with mock sincerity. “Because if you don’t admit it, I might just have to leave you right here by your own radio station, and go find someone else who gets it.”
She rolled her eyes. “You’re too cocky for your own good,” she shot back through an unstifled smile. “You know you have a huge ego.”
He nodded with his hands in the air in mock defense. “At least I have some talent to back it up, do you know who I am?” he jested.
She raised a brow, the challenge in his voice making her heart race. “Oh so you’re a legend now? Tell me, should I be getting your autograph or…” she led on.
“Aw come on.” he replied, his voice a playful murmur. “Don’t pretend you’re not into it. You've been talking about me for weeks, I’ve only just started calling in two weeks ago.”
She almost let her composure slip, as if that mattered at this rate. “I don’t know if I should be impressed or deeply worried you’ve been keeping track for all this time.”
“Both,” he said with a chuckle. “I’d definitely say both.”
Their banter felt like it had its own rhythm, playful and flirty. Their eyes kept locking for longer than it should. Despite the teasing, she felt a real connection here. It was chemistry and curiosity. Like they were both looking for something, and daring the other to find it in each other. It was tense and rich, a thrill she had longed for in her boring grey life.
The night stretched on, full of shared stories, laughter, and the ease that came from spending time with someone who just gets it. They finally decided to head back to her place, a few blocks away. It wasn’t about impressing each other, just wanting to know more.
“So you’ve been in that world for a while. It’s hard to imagine you just leaving the whole thing.” she mused, leaning against the counter. Duff sat on one of her stools on the other end, leaning on his elbows.
“Wasn’t an easy decision, but it gets to a point y'know? I’m old.” he said, taking a drink on his now second bottle of beer. She nodded, as cool as she was trying to be, she couldn’t help but look onto him. How beautifully he had aged, she was far younger than him of course. A college student, and he was in his early sixties, but she couldn’t help the way she looked at him. He was just too appealing.
Regardless she found herself nodding.
The night stretched on, with drunk laughter and comfortable silences filling the apartment. They shared stories, and they both felt the chemistry growing between them, it was undeniable. Her hand grazed his arm as she reached over for another shot, which they were so drunk they hadn’t exactly remembered getting it out.
They gave each other a drunk knowing glance, everything was slower, every little touch just a bit more hypnotic and obvious. She felt a shiver go down her spine as his darkened gaze looked at her after the mistake. They stared at each other way too long, pushing past the barrier of the radio show host and her favorite caller. They were long past it a couple shots and stories ago.
Interrupting her thoughts, he leaned into her neck as she sat on the stool next to him. “You know, as charming as you are on the air…” he began. Her fingers tensing around her empty shot glass. “I think I’d approach you, persona or not.”
She stiffened at the feel of his half-grown stubble grazing her neck, the exact kind of masculinity that ruined women in stories like this, all this time firmly believing she was stronger than that. But she was just no different was she? Her breath hitched in her throat, her eyes going wide no matter how she forced it not to show.
“Yeah?” she asked, her voice came out too light, too airy, too not her. She hated it. Hated how it stripped her of the venom straight from her tone with just his closeness. Her usual bite dissolves distressingly fast, melting into something so shamefully soft.
Her hands rose, sliding under his arms to his neck, her fingers clinging there as if instinct told her to not let him get away. He leaned closer, their bodies pulled by an invisible heat.
This was Duff. Duff.
The same man whose music had sparked only the dirtiest nights alone in her younger years. The man she’d praise to hell and back on air without a clue he was listening. None of the lines she’d drawn for herself mattered now, not his age, his legacy, not the sinking guilt that she should’ve known better? She didn’t care.
He lifted his face from her neck, she swore right there he could read her mind. His dark gaze looked at her flushed face, drinking in the way she blinked slow and heavy– no longer daring him of anything, but asking for something. Subtly. Shamefully. Like he had her under some kind of spell, which he did.
The way her thighs came together didn’t go unnoticed, his rough hand slid down, thumbing a slow teasing path along her inner thigh, beneath the hem of her already short dress.
“Oh don’t try to look so tough now,” he murmured briskly, inches away from her face. His tall frame slid off the stool with ease, crouching down in front of her. She jolted when his knee touched the floor, like the sheer shift in position made everything more real. She could feel herself beneath her dress getting more needy. She gripped the sides of her stool hard.
“You were all mouth today,” he muttered, clearly enjoying himself. “Slick little comebacks, your sarcastic radio shtick, right?” His other knee hit the floor. He looked up at her with something between amusement and mock pity, his lip curling slightly.
“All that ‘cool girl’ edge for your little phone-in fan club,” he murmured, dragging his fingers higher on her leg. “But just look at you now.”
Her breath trembled in her throat. Duff tilted his head slightly, like he was just admiring her unraveling. Watching her. Loving how he’d peeled it all back without much effort. And that smug, devastating look of his?
It violently ruined her composure.
Because he was right. She was all mouth.
His hand slid higher, thumbing the inside of her thigh with practiced ease, and he grinned like the devil when she shuddered more frequently under his touch. Still firmly gripping the sides of her stool like they were the only thing keeping her tied to reality, she was coming completely undone.
“God look at you,” he murmured, low and amused, watching this ‘cool girl’ fall apart in real time. “Didn’t even have to try.”
Her lips parted, but nothing came out. Her mascaraed eyes were wide and glassy, lipstick smudged from drinking moments ago, a normalcy that felt like eons ago.
“This is the same girl right?” he asked from between her thighs. “The same girl who talks circles around her callers? You sounded so in charge over the radio. So untouchable.”
She whimpered. Actually whimpered at how humiliatingly true that was. He knew everything. He listened to everything. All those nights she’d talk so highly about all these famous musicians like they were her gods, how they carved her into the personality that she was, flirted with him without knowing it was him. And now here she was, on his knees between her legs, looking like she was going to be the next bitch he’d sink his teeth into.
“God, you should hear yourself.” he said, leaning into her right inner thigh, his thin lips and stubble making themselves known as he talked against her leg. “Begging in your breath. You’re not even hiding it anymore.”
Her face burned. Her thighs trembled. She was so wet it was actually embarrassing, her panties clinging to her anatomy in the worst way. She tried to shift, close her legs instinctively, like closing them even a tad would recover herself.
“Oh hell no, you don’t get to play shy. Not after all that big talk and praise.” he cooed, all wicked and low between her. His every annunciation felt on the sensitive skin between her legs. She felt like she was on fucking fire.
He looked up at her hungrily, he rolled her eyes. “You gonna cut the shit and tell me how bad you wanted this?” he asked, breath hot. “You ever touch yourself listening to my voice on those late night shows? I bet being a media outlet just gave you so much content.”
She gasped, the humiliation a fire in her stomach. Her lips quivered. “I… maybe.”
“Oh, maybe?” he mocked, his fingers dragging across the soaked fabric between her legs. “C’mon. The girl who always has clever little comebacks on her show is unsure of herself now?”
She groaned, bucking her hips forward. Desperate. It was messy. Sloppy. Her thighs parted with no fight at all at this point. Her heels digging into her floor for leverage. She needed him, and the raw shame of how quickly she had folded only turned the both of them on.
He smiled at this, “Yeah… there she is.” His voice smoothly darkened, like he personally knew this side to her for ages. They had met today, but he was oh so familiar with how much she liked him. “My messy girl,” he said, satisfied with her physical honesty.
Her panties were practically pasted to her, the heat between her legs pulsing with every syllable he threw at her. His ever growing ego, already keeping him from being quiet.
“You’ve been waiting for this,” he muttered, sliding his hand beneath her, not to fuck her, to cup her. Palm curved perfectly to feel every wet, hot pulse of her cunt as she dripped down onto him, her arousal leaking into the creases of his aged hands.
“Fuck. Won’t you listen to yourself? Look at the fight you lost so miserably.” he mused.
She sobbed a pathetic, strung out wail. He took that same hand, slick with her and slapped her cheek with it. Not hard, just enough to make her feel it. To leave a warm humiliating wet mark across her skin. Her head jerked slightly with the motion, a deranged glaze in her eyes.
Her cheeks were blazing, she didn’t look away. Her eyes stayed locked to his, dizzy and dark and so painfully needy, it hurt.
He grabbed her jaw, fingers digging in, almost cruelly.
“You stay the fuck with me baby, don’t get all dumb now. You wanted to be seen, didn’t you? You talked a big, big game.”
She was beyond thought, rational ones at that. She just asked. It’s all she could do.
“Please. Fuck… fuck– please.” she pleaded, hardly breathing.
He scoffed, loving this side of her, as humiliating as this was for her. He was growing more and more fond of her as far as she let go. “Oh please what?” he cruelly taunted. “You even asking to do something dirty? Or are you just doing all this to sit here, sob on my lap while I make you cum without even taking my cock out.”
Her moan broke mid air, her hands tangling in his shirt. She didn’t even know what she wanted, she felt like she never knew anything until now.
He stood over her, still sat in the same stool where she was just chatting with him. Looking up at him desperately. One hand remained knuckle deep in her cunt, the other violently gripping her face, never for a moment letting her gaze slip from his intense one.
He spits on her face, her eyes only fluttering shut for the first time in ages to avoid his spit. She let it slide down her ruined face. Her own fluids and his spit melting into each other as they remained on her face.
He slapped her again. “You’ll remember this every time you hear my voice now, huh?” he lowly said, nearly inside of her ear. “Next time you sit this cute ass in that little booth, playing those tapes and old interviews? Just know one of ‘em lived in your headphones, and now he’s the reason you’re a shell of the cool girl they know.” he threatened so deliciously.
She had a dazed and weary longing look, her eyebrows turned upward and glassy. She nodded as if he was the only thing in the world that she could ever need to get by, to be told what to like, hate, what to do. She felt so completely his.
She came. Hard. Her hips violently bucking into his hand, her full body shattering against him with a cry that would’ve embarrassed her if she still had any pride left.
But she didn’t.
Of course she didn’t.
This is all she wanted, to be the lame one in any interaction. To not be the more knowing one, to be completely and utterly subordinate.
Her orgasm didn’t even fully release its grip on her, thighs still twitching, her body malleable and soaked with aftershocks when he grabbed her wrist and stood her up in one full motion.
Her mess sliding down her leg, not getting a chance to even soak into the fabric of her underwear.
She was so excited.
She squealed and gasped as he spun her onto the counter, where their remaining beer and empty shot glasses reminded them of how they even got here.
The cold edge of the counter met her ass with a sharp thud, and before she could catch her breath, he was already caging her in, surrounding her in his tall stature.
“It pisses me off that you think we’re done, you’re cute for that.” he said darkly amused. Hell yes. This was all she wanted, the be talked circles around for change, for anyone to truthfully best her. This was heaven.
She barely had time to breathe before he yanked her dress up with both of his hands, bunched it around her waist and shoved her panties aside, ripping her sheer stockings in the process like they were garbage.
Her eyes watched everything he did, to the point where she held her breath to see what he was going to do with her exposed entrance. He tugged violently at his belt, throwing it aside. His force just as mean to her as it was to the button of his jeans.
He slammed into her as soon as it got out, not even giving her a chance to see any vein, nothing but the size and girth.
She choked on a scream, her fingers clawing behind his neck, the sudden stretch of him inside of her blinding. She never felt more lightheaded, like she was far from alive. It was perfect.
He didn’t ease in. There was no ceremony. No sweetness. Just filth.
Just a man who’d listened to her voice for months, jerking off to her smug little interactions and her high praise of him and his band. Finally under him, where he firmly believed she belonged this whole time.
His hips snapped against hers in a brutal rhythmic slam. She wasn’t sure if she was moaning or sobbing, or even begging. Whatever it was, he drank it in like it made him harder.
He gripped her hips so tightly, she’d bruise. She wanted it to bruise, she never wanted this heightened ecstasy to leave her even months after. Each thrust knocking the wind out of her, hair sticking to the mess on her face in strands.
“Say something now.” he panted, leaning into her. “C’mon little host, our lady of the hour. No more one-liners to share with me?”
She didn’t try, she didn’t want to try. Her past persona a disgrace in her mind if it kept her from treatment like this for ages.
“That’s what I thought.” he dimly smiled, a soft gesture of thumbing away her stuck hair from her face. “My poor thing, that attitude surely didn’t last long.”
He didn’t slow, didn’t stop.
She couldn’t even count how many times either of them probably came, too mentally far away to even recognize it.
And she loved it. Every second. Every degrading word. The physical example of her being the least smart one in the room, an erotic humbling she had longed for everyday.
She finally embraced what she thought she was better than for ages, a slut, a gross perverted radio host with the furthest of innocent intentions with her hoped connections.
The apartment had gone quiet, save for the steady hum of her body still trembling in the aftermath. She was completely laid out on the counter. A little bruised, a little adored.
She brought her weak hands to her body, finding every physical evidence of his rage all over her, every indent of his teeth marks brought an exhausted smile and gasp as she found them.
Duff was resting his forehead on her lower abdomen. His chest rising and falling with unhurried breaths, watching her like a satisfied animal.
Her lips were red and kiss bruised, mascara smeared from the corners of her eyes. She never felt more settled. Anchored.
He came up and held her to his naked body, none of them remembering the motions of getting naked. He kissed her forehead, he sat her on his lap on the stools. Gentle. Disgustingly gentle for a man who just made her sob and drool all over her own kitchen counter.
“You done pretending? For me at least?” he whispered into the crook of her neck, peppering it with kisses. Her voice was hoarse. “It’s beyond you.”
Duff spent the night, the shower and sleep after it all the more of a reminder of what pretending to be a proud cool-headed girl kept from her.
She lied in bed with Duff, the most tired and gratified she had ever been. She knew what she’d have to do.
It was the last time the “ON AIR” light would glow.
She leaned into her mic, her voice all polite and graceful. Changed.
“If you spent your 2-4 AM’s with me, I wanna thank you personally. Thank you for wasting your time with me. Even the weird ones. It’s not forever, I love you guys too much.”
A pause as she held her finger over the switch.
“I just wanna thank a very special one of you.” she said, her eyes glinting upward. “I’m happy to have put on the rawest show for you.” she said softly into the mic.
Click.
She slung her bag over her shoulder, switching the light off in the room without any reluctance.
The “ON AIR” light blinked off. The silence was as erotic as ever, not empty. She felt claimed.
The guest seat wasn’t empty tonight, Duff proudly coming up to wrap his arm around her and walk her out. Smugly looking down at her as she was his prize.
She was something else entirely as she left the station for the last time.
note: this was my first fanfic i hope you enjoyed <3
when they look like a lana del rey song 😫
Watching You III
Authors Note:
Part three is here you cute little readers. I honestly fell in love with this story sm. It will have another part. As always like, reblog, comment and share! It’s much appreciated. Also always happy for constructive feedback from you all. 𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡
Tagging: @radio-heartbreak, @cocainaaxlsd, @sourwolf-32, @axlslutt,@being-worthy, @s2ckmylips
Pairing: Modern Axl Rose x Housesitter Reader
Summary: Circumstance—or perhaps something more—brought them together, each lending aid in a simple exchange, yet discovering in the other a spark that hinted at a missing piece of themselves.
Warnings: None
Words: 9.2 k-ish (sorry 😅)
You hadn’t expected packing to feel this way.
The guest room had once been just that — a temporary place, impersonal, tidy, meant to be used and then left behind. But now, as you folded the last of your clothes and zipped up your suitcase, there was a heaviness in your chest you hadn’t prepared for.
The house had gone quiet again. The hum of the AC, the soft click of cat paws across the floorboards, all of it wrapped around you like background music you’d grown too fond of. You paused for a moment, looking out the window. The garden shimmered in the late light, the same place where you’d sat so many afternoons, watching the cats laze around and Mr. Blue roll on his back in the grass.
You smiled softly to yourself.
You were going to miss this: the animals, the stillness, the space that somehow started to feel like your own little world.
You bent down to zip your bag when you heard a soft knock against the doorframe.
You looked up and there he was.
Axl leaned casually against the doorway, hands in his pockets, the faintest trace of nervous energy visible only in the way his thumb rubbed along the seam of his jeans. His hair was slightly tousled from running his hands through it too much, and there was something about the way he stood there, quiet, uncertain, that felt strangely human.
“Hey,” he said, voice low, rough around the edges.
You smiled back. “Hey.”
“Didn’t mean to interrupt,” he said, glancing toward the open suitcase. “Just… figured I’d check in before you head out.”
“Of course.” You tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “Just finishing up.”
He stepped inside, looking around the room like he was trying to memorize how it looked with you still in it.
“It’s weird,” he muttered after a moment, “seeing this room full again. Used to be empty most of the time.” He tried to fill the silence somehow.
You nodded, eyes softening. “It’s a beautiful house. Easy to feel comfortable here.”
He hummed quietly, gaze flicking toward you for just a second too long before he looked away again.
“Glad you did.”
There was a pause, not awkward, exactly, just heavy.
He shifted his weight, hands still buried in his pockets. “You, uh… did a great job. With the animals. And the place. Everything.”
You smiled, trying not to sound too flustered. “Thank you. They’re sweet. They made it easy too.”
Another pause. You reached for the handle of your suitcase, about to wheel it toward the door, when his voice stopped you.
“Hey… before you go.”
You turned, curious. He cleared his throat, eyes darting toward the floor briefly before finding yours again.
“Would you maybe…” He hesitated, searching for words that wouldn’t betray how nervous he actually was. “Let me take you to dinner? Just as a thank-you. For everything.”
You blinked in surprise. “Dinner?”
“Yeah. Nothing big,” he added quickly, almost defensively. “Just something simple. Doesn’t have to be fancy or public or any of that crap. Could even be here if you’d rather. Just… something.”
Your fingers tightened on the suitcase handle.
“Oh, that’s really kind of you, but you don’t have to,” you said softly. “You already paid me, and—”
“It’s not about that,” he interrupted, his tone gentle but firm. “You did more than just a job. I’d like to say thank you properly. That’s all.”
Something about the sincerity in his voice made your chest warm. You hesitated for another moment, then nodded slowly.
“Alright,” you said finally. “But only if it’s casual.”
A small smirk tugged at his mouth. “You got it.”
He looked like he wanted to say more but didn’t. Instead, he just nodded once and stepped aside to let you pass.
You wheeled your suitcase out of the room, the soft rumble of its wheels filling the quiet hallway, and with each step you took, something inside you tightened like you were leaving behind more than just a house.
That night, he couldn’t sleep.
He lay in his bed, his own bed, staring at the ceiling while the faint hum of the night filled the room.
He’d thought coming home would make him feel grounded again, but instead, the silence pressed on him like a weight. The house felt too still. He didn’t know what he expected because she’d be not here anymore once he returned but somehow it bugged him. Weeks of watching his home being filled with this comforting warmth, always someone around that just made his heart feel lighter. But now there was no more comforting warmth. It was cold and silent again and he realized just how much he hated it.
His hand twitched toward his phone instinctively, toward the app he used to check the cameras only to stop halfway.
He caught himself with a small scoff.
Old habit.
Except now there was nothing to check.
He turned onto his side, trying to shake it off. He told himself it was just the noise, the movement, the signs of life he’d gotten used to. But deep down, he knew better.
The house had felt alive because she had been in it.
Across town, you were wide awake too.
Your apartment felt smaller than you remembered, quieter, colder. You’d tried to distract yourself by unpacking, by cleaning, by turning on some background noise, but it wasn’t the same. You missed the sound of soft paws on the floor, the faint jingling of Mr. Blue’s collar, the view of the open garden beyond the glass doors.
You pulled your knees up on the couch, hugging them to your chest as you gazed absentmindedly out the window. Maybe it was just the peace of that place that made you sleep better. Or maybe…
You sighed and shook your head before your thoughts could wander further.
Still, when you closed your eyes, you could picture him, that low, rough laugh echoing softly in your memory, the way his presence filled a room even when he wasn’t trying to.
You fell asleep like that, thinking of him without meaning to.
And miles away, he sat on his porch under the dim glow of the outdoor lights, staring up at the moon, thinking of you too.
Neither of you knew it, but you were both looking up at the same stretch of sky.
Home didn’t feel like home anymore.
At least, not in the way it used to.
Your apartment was small, tidy, familiar but after weeks of sunlight spilling through tall windows, of meows echoing down long hallways and paws clicking against wooden floors, it felt… dull. The air felt heavier somehow, the silence more sterile.
You stood in the middle of your living room, suitcase half-unpacked, eyes roaming over the pale walls. Everything looked the same, and yet, it wasn’t.
Maybe it was you who’d changed.
You told yourself you were supposed to feel relieved. The whole idea of that “house-sitting job” had been to take a break, to escape the weight of your last relationship and get your head back on straight.
And in a way, it had worked.
Your ex had stopped haunting your thoughts.
No more endless replaying of conversations, no more checking your phone for messages that would never come. You’d let go. Finally.
Except now, your head wasn’t empty. It was full, consumed, actually by someone else entirely.
You dropped onto the couch and let out a quiet, frustrated groan.
“This is ridiculous,” you muttered to yourself, rubbing your temples.
Because it was. Utterly, completely ridiculous.
He was too old, too famous, too everything. You weren’t even in the same world.
You’d met him under the strangest circumstances, half out of duty, half by chance and now your thoughts wouldn’t leave him alone. You tried to brush it off as curiosity, a passing attachment, the kind of temporary bond people form when they share space for too long.
But it didn’t feel temporary.
You leaned your head back, closing your eyes. You could still smell the faint trace of his cologne, musky, warm, a little spicy. It was as if you couldn‘t get the smell out of your head anymore.
God, you were pathetic.
You’d even considered going to the mall just to sniff every men’s cologne bottle until you found it, just to catch that scent again, like some lovesick teenager. The thought alone made you want to bury your face in your hands.
You weren’t supposed to feel this way.
Not about him.
And yet, the more you tried to reason it away, the stronger the pull became. His voice, his laugh, the way his eyes softened when he wasn’t trying to keep people at a distance, all of it kept replaying in your mind.
You got up and started tidying just to distract yourself, but even then, you caught yourself pausing when the stereo on your shelf caught your eye.
After a moment of hesitation, you turned it on.
The familiar opening tunes of “Patience” filled the room, slow, sweet, almost taunting.
You froze for a moment before letting out a soft, helpless laugh.
“Really?” you said aloud, half to yourself, half to the universe.
But you didn’t turn it off.
Instead, you let the song play, the sound of his voice, younger but soft, echoing through the room. You sat back on the couch again, pulling your knees close, the corners of your mouth curving into something between a smile and a sigh.
You’d gotten into Guns N’ Roses more lately. You’d told yourself it was just because you’d been surrounded by reminders of it — the posters in the hallway, the old records stacked by the stereo, it was all-time present and naturally you grew curious.
But deep down, you knew it was more than that.
You liked the connection it gave you.
Even if it was one-sided.
Even if you’d never admit it to him.
When the song faded out, the apartment felt quieter than ever.
You leaned forward, elbows on your knees, and let out a slow breath. You missed the animals, their little habits, their noises, the warmth they brought to the place. You even caught yourself scrolling through adoption sites earlier that day, hovering over the “apply” button before closing the tab.
You weren’t ready. Not yet.
You told yourself it wasn’t the right time, that you didn’t want the responsibility. But deep down, you knew the real reason: you didn’t want to fill that space with something else.
Because a part of you was afraid of losing what still lingered from that house, from him.
You glanced at your phone, half-expecting a message that wasn’t there.
Then you laughed softly to yourself, shaking your head.
“Get it together,” you whispered.
But as night fell and you crawled into bed, the scent of his cologne still lingered faintly in your nose.
And despite your best efforts, you found yourself thinking about him as you drifted off.
Home was supposed to feel good.
It usually did.
That familiar echo of boots against the marble floors, the low hum of silence that wrapped around the halls, it used to be comfort. Now it just made him aware of how empty the place was.
The first thing he noticed was the smell, the faint trace of her perfume, not even consciously at first, but the difference. Something missing. The air didn’t feel the same.
He told himself that was normal. Someone had been living here for weeks; the house had absorbed her warmth, her rhythm. It would fade soon enough.
He took his time walking through each room, half out of habit, half because he couldn’t help himself. The kitchen was spotless, cleaner than he’d ever kept it but the mugs in the cupboard were stacked differently, and that alone made his chest tighten a little. Her small traces lingered: the folded towel on the counter, the window slightly ajar where she used to let the morning air in, the faint sound of the wind chime she’d hung up for no reason other than it sounded nice.
And yet, that small difference, the human touch made the house feel less like home now that she was gone.
He ran a hand through his hair and sighed, muttering something under his breath about getting too sentimental for his own good.
It wasn’t like him.
He’d been on the road half his life, surrounded by people who came and went. He’d learned to compartmentalize, to not grow attached to temporary things.
But the quiet tonight gnawed at him.
He moved into the living room, dropping onto the couch. The leather groaned softly beneath him. On the table sat a neatly stacked pile of mail, a few magazines, and a small note in Beta’s handwriting reminding him to rest. His eyes drifted to the far corner where the cats used to nap and the spot where Mr. Blue’s toys were scattered. They were all asleep now, peaceful, well-fed, cared for just as they’d been under her watch.
He should’ve felt content. Instead, he felt like something was out of place.
For a man who’d made a career out of noise, the silence was unbearable.
So he filled it with thoughts, her voice, the way she’d spoken about the animals with that soft affection that couldn’t be faked, how patient she’d been even when things got hectic.
And that laugh.
He could still hear it, the way it carried through the phone, light but genuine. It had disarmed him completely.
Axl leaned forward, elbows on his knees, rubbing a hand over his jaw.
“This is stupid,” he muttered, half to himself.
But his brain didn’t stop.
She hadn’t been impressed by who he was, not once. That alone had caught him off guard. She hadn’t looked at him like Axl Rose, the rockstar, just a man with two cats and a dog who needed looking after. She’d done her job without complaint, without fanfare, with quiet care that somehow reached through the screen and settled somewhere he didn’t want to name.
He’d never really thought about trust before, not like this.
Trust had been transactional, earned, kept close, often broken.
But with her, it had been effortless.
And that… scared him a little.
He leaned back, staring at the ceiling.
The rational part of him tried to speak louder, it told him it was just gratitude, nothing else. She’d done well, and he appreciated it. End of story.
But the silence kept arguing back.
And deep down, he already knew which side was winning.
It took him two whole days to type the damn message.
Two days of pacing around the house, pretending to be busy with small things, sorting mail, playing Piano, half-watching old movies, when really he was just fighting the urge to reach for his phone. He‘d been thinking about it nonstop, about what he would say to you to not ruin this.
Axl wasn’t the kind of man who hesitated once he had made up his mind. On stage, in meetings, in any kind of negotiation, he was decisive — quick, sharp, certain. Years and years of performing taught him enough. But this wasn’t business, and it wasn’t a stage.
This was something that could look like what it really was: a need to see her again.
So he waited. Forced himself to.
He told himself two days was enough to look casual, enough time to make it seem like a polite thank-you, nothing else.
When he finally opened the chat, his thumb hovered over the keyboard for a long moment before he wrote:
„Hey, what‘s your plan for the next couple nights?“
His damn perfectionist mind made him read it five times before hitting send. It looked fine. Simple. Safe.
But as soon as the little “delivered” mark appeared, he cursed under his breath and threw the phone on the couch, like distance might somehow undo the message. He felt stupid, stripped of any confidence he‘d needed years to build up.
He didn’t even know what exactly he wanted from her: dinner, company, just… presence. Something to make this house feel alive again, at least that‘s what he told himself.
For the next ten minutes, he pretended not to care. Then he picked the phone back up.
And there it was, your reply.
You blinked at the notification lighting up your screen. His name.
Your heart did a strange little flip, excitement tangled with a hint of panic.
Your thumbs hovered uncertainly before you typed back:
„I don’t really have plans at the moment. I’m free most evenings actually. But I’m happy to adjust to your schedule, you probably have more going on than I do.“
You paused, biting your lip.
Was that too formal? Too eager? You deleted the word probably, then added it again, then sighed and hit send before you could overthink it another second.
The response came quicker than you expected, not instant, but close enough to make your pulse skip.
„That’s good. Was thinking we could have that dinner I mentioned. Just something simple.“
Your gaze lingered on the screen. Right Dinner, he really meant it.
It shouldn’t have felt like such a big deal, but your stomach twisted with nerves. You exhaled slowly, trying to calm the racing thoughts in your head.
Then you typed:
„At your place, right?“
A moment passed. Then another. Then your phone buzzed again.
„Yeah. Just here. Don’t want anything formal.“
You smiled faintly. Anything more would make you feel self-conscious.
Still, your brain refused to settle, so you typed:
„So… just casual? Nothing fancy? Normal clothes, yeah?“
This time, the reply came with a single word that somehow made you laugh out loud:
„Exactly.“ He typed his reply with almost trembling hands, hoping he’d guessed right about what you wanted. Part of him wanted to take you somewhere fancy, to show you how grateful he really was — but he knew you well enough to know you’d never let him go that far. And on top of that, it would’ve felt too much like a date, and he couldn’t risk overwhelming you.
You set your phone down, smiling to yourself, and whispered under your breath,
“Casual. Right.”
If only your heart would listen.
The sun had already begun to set when your phone buzzed.
It was a short message from him.
“Car’s on the way. Should be there in 20 minutes. See you soon.“
Your heart skipped a beat.
You’d told him earlier that you didn’t have a car, not that it was unusual for someone like you to not own a car but you hadn’t expected him to send someone for you personally.
You stared at the message for a moment, unsure how to respond, before finally typing back a simple “Thank you, that’s very kind of you.“
As you waited, you grabbed your sunglasses and jacket, checking the time again for no reason other than to have something to do with your hands.
When the dark car pulled up outside, the driver stepped out to open the door for you. You offered a polite smile and climbed inside, the cool leather seats swallowing you up.
As the car pulled away from your street, you glanced out the window, the familiar skyline fading into open road and trees.
Your stomach fluttered again.
You told yourself to relax, to breathe, to stop overthinking.
It was just dinner.
A simple thank-you.
But as the car wound through the quiet roads toward his mansion, the truth pressed in like the air before a storm.
You could lie to yourself all you wanted but nothing about this felt simple anymore.
The drive felt longer than you remembered.
Maybe it was because you were more aware of every turn now, the trees lining the winding road, the way the sunlight dipped behind them, throwing the world into that golden, slow-moving hour between day and night.
Your heart had started beating faster the moment the familiar gate came into view.
That same gate you’d passed through every now and then without much thought back then. But now, watching it open again, it felt different. Almost like stepping back into something you weren’t sure you had the right to miss.
The car rolled down the long driveway, gravel crunching softly beneath the tires. The mansion loomed in the distance, warm light spilling through its windows, familiar, yet somehow foreign now that you were no longer a part of it.
You pressed your palms together in your lap, trying to will your nerves into stillness.
It was fine. You’d got this. You were good at keeping it together.
Because if there was one thing you’d learned, it was how to wear calm like armor.
Even when you were burning inside.
By the time the car stopped, your heartbeat had steadied, at least on the outside. You thanked the driver with a polite nod and reached for your small backpack, stepping out into the cool evening air.
For a moment, everything felt exactly like it used to.
The scent of the garden. The quiet hum of the fountains. The way the front door opened just as you turned toward it.
And there he was.
Leaning casually in the doorway like he had been waiting there longer than he’d ever admit.
Jeans. A soft, dark crewneck sweater that somehow managed to look both effortless and deliberate. A few rings glinting in the porch light, a few chains resting against his chest.
You almost laughed at how him it was — that ability to make comfort look like style, to make casual seem like an art form. You’d seen it the last few times social media had actually shaped your For You pages to Guns N’ Roses content.
For a split second, neither of you said anything.
His expression softened when your eyes met, something gentle flickered there, warm and unspoken. Then, almost as if he remembered himself, he cleared his throat and gave a small smile.
“Hey,” he said, his voice carrying that familiar rasp that never failed to do something to your stomach.
You managed a smile back, matching his easy tone even as your pulse spiked.
“Hey yourself.”
You barely had time to process the sight of him before a blur of movement shot past his legs.
“Mr. Blue!”
The French bulldog barreled straight for you, his stubby legs sliding across the floor as he rushed into your space like you’d never left. You dropped to your knees before you even realized it, setting your backpack aside and meeting him halfway as he wiggled, snorted, and pawed at you with excited grunts.
Your laughter filled the air, that easy, genuine kind that burst out before you could stop it.
“Hey, buddy… did you miss me?” you murmured, rubbing his chest and pressing your forehead to his. He responded with a delighted little huff, tail wagging so fast his whole body seemed to shake with it.
Behind him, you heard Axl let out a quiet exhale, something that sounded suspiciously like a laugh under his breath. When you glanced up at him, he was leaning against the doorframe again, arms crossed, watching the reunion unfold with a softness he didn’t even try to hide.
And before you could even say something clever, two familiar meows echoed through the hall.
“Whiskey… Dijon,” you whispered, grinning as the cats trotted in like tiny shadows, meowing their complaints at once. Within seconds, they were brushing against your legs, tails up high, looking far more offended that you’d ever dared to leave.
Axl raised his brows, half-amused, half-bewildered.
“Well,” he muttered, “guess they missed you too.”
You glanced at him, your smile widening.
“Looks like it.”
For a moment, the air between you shifted — not heavy, not awkward, just… easy again. The warmth of the animals filled the silence that would have otherwise felt too loaded.
You finally stood, brushing fur from your jeans, and when you met his eyes again, he gestured toward the inside.
“Come on. Don’t let them hog you in the hallway.”
Stepping back into the house felt like stepping into a memory. The familiar scent, the quiet hum of music in the background, the way the evening light spilled over the hardwood floors — it all rushed back, hitting you with a sense of belonging you weren’t prepared for.
You followed him toward the living room, Mr. Blue trotting loyally by your side while the cats wove between your ankles. The moment you sank into the couch, they were on you, Dijon curling in your lap and Whiskey climbing onto the armrest beside your shoulder like he used to.
“Guess I lost my spot,” Axl teased lightly as he sat across from you. But there was something behind the humor, a quiet ache, a strange pull as he watched how naturally they settled around you.
You stroked Dijon’s soft fur, shrugging playfully. “They made their choice.”
He chuckled under his breath, shaking his head. “Can’t even compete in my own house.”
You grinned at that, and for the first time since arriving, the tension was completely gone.
Axl got up after a moment, walking over to the small bar by the wall. “What can I get you? Wine? Whiskey? Something stronger?”
You hesitated, still petting the cat. “I’m good with a Coke, thanks.”
He glanced over his shoulder, smirking faintly. “Keeping it safe, huh?”
“Just pacing myself,” you countered, and his low laugh rumbled across the room, that deep, easy sound that made your stomach twist.
When he handed you the glass, your fingers brushed for the briefest second. It was nothing, really, just an accidental touch. But it lingered, more than it should, and you both felt it.
You took a sip, trying to seem casual. The cats were purring. Mr. Blue lay stretched out at your feet.
And Axl sat back down, watching the scene unfold with a quiet realization that hit deeper than he’d like to admit.
His house had never felt this full when it was just him.
You were sitting on the couch, Dijon purring contently in your lap and Whiskey half-asleep on the armrest beside you, when you finally glanced up at him again.
“So,” you started softly, eyes flicking toward him as he leaned back in the armchair across from you, “how did it feel to be home again?”
He let out a low breath, the corner of his mouth lifting just slightly. “Weird,” he said after a pause. “Too quiet.”
You tilted your head, curious. “You don’t like quiet?”
“I used to hate it,” he admitted, voice low. “Back in the day, silence was just… too damn loud, you know? Couldn’t stand being alone with my own head. So I’d fill it with noise, people, parties, chaos, whatever worked.”
You watched him, surprised by the honesty in his tone.
He glanced toward the window, as though the words had come out before he could stop them. “But I’ve gotten better at it, I guess. Learned to deal with it. Doesn’t bite as hard anymore.”
You nodded slowly, feeling a faint ache in your chest for him. “Maybe you just needed time,” you offered gently.
He chuckled, shaking his head. “Time’s a funny thing. It doesn’t fix shit, it just teaches you to live with it.”
You fell quiet at that, unsure what to say. There was something raw in the way he said it, like a truth he’d lived with too long.
But then he looked back at you, softening the edges of his expression. “Guess I don’t mind it so much now,” he added. “Having the quiet means I can hear the important things again.”
“Like what?”
He hesitated, then shrugged. “The cats. The dog. My own thoughts, when they’re not trying to kill me.”
The honesty in his tone made you smile, even as your heart tightened. “That’s a good start,” you teased lightly.
He smirked. “Yeah, well, baby steps.”
The moment eased again, the heaviness fading into something quieter, gentler. You were both smiling now, and it felt like a truce, not between you, but between him and the silence he’d spent a lifetime running from.
Your curiosity sparked again. “Did you ever miss touring then?”
He leaned back, eyes thoughtful. “Sometimes. I mean, there’s nothing like it. That noise, that energy, it makes you feel alive. But it takes everything out of you too. You‘re never still long enough to think.”
“And that was bad?” you asked softly.
“Used to think it wasn’t,” he said, his voice lower now. “Now I know better. Sometimes the stillness is the only thing that reminds you who the hell you are.”
You let out a quiet breath, watching him, not the rockstar, but the man beneath all that noise. And for a fleeting moment, you thought you understood him in a way few probably did.
He met your gaze and gave you a faint smile, almost self-conscious. “Didn’t mean to get all heavy on you,” he murmured.
“It’s fine,” you said gently. “I like hearing how you see things.”
Something shifted in his eyes then, something deep and unguarded. You couldn’t quite name it, but it made your chest flutter before he cleared his throat and stood up.
“Alright,” he said, voice brisk again, “enough of that. Time to eat. You like salmon?”
You blinked, thrown off by the sudden change. “You’re cooking?”
“Yeah,” he said with a half-grin. “Try not to look too surprised.”
“I just… didn’t expect that from you.”
He arched a brow, pretending to be offended. “What, I look like I don’t know how to feed myself?”
You laughed. “No, no — I just thought you’d have a chef or something.”
He smirked. “I do. But I don’t need one to make pasta.”
When he mentioned what was on the menu, salmon pasta in a creamy cheese sauce with tomato mozzarella salad, your face lit up instantly.
“That’s… actually perfect,” you said, genuinely delighted.
He looked up, a bit surprised at your tone. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” you nodded. “It’s like… my comfort food.”
“Then it’s settled,” he said with quiet satisfaction, turning toward the stove.
Naturally, you started to rise, brushing off your jeans. “Can I help?”
But before you even made it to the counter, he turned around, shaking his head. “Nope. You sit. You’re the guest.”
“But—”
“No ‘but,’” he cut in gently, pointing a wooden spoon your way. “I invited you for dinner. That means I do the cooking.”
You rolled your eyes but sank back onto the couch, pretending to be annoyed, though, if you were honest, you were kind of enjoying the view.
He moved easily around the kitchen, opening drawers and stirring sauces, all while keeping the conversation going. The space between you didn’t feel awkward anymore. It felt… alive. Warm.
At one point, Whiskey jumped onto the coffee table and started batting at one of the napkins. You laughed, gently shooing him away, and the sound of your laughter drifted into the kitchen.
“Whiskey,” you scolded playfully, “don’t you dare knock that down again.”
He looked at you like he understood, flicked his tail, and did it anyway.
“Asshole,” you grumbled before you burst into another laugh, shaking your head as Axl glanced up from the stove, grinning despite himself. Watching you laugh like that, surrounded by his animals, comfortable and bright, did something to him.
He turned back to his pan, stirring the sauce a little too deliberately.
You were still talking softly to the cats when he caught himself staring again. The light hit your face just right, your laughter mingling with the faint clinking of utensils and the sound of sizzling butter. It was a picture of calm domesticity he didn’t know he’d missed, or maybe never really had.
And for a split second, he let himself imagine it.
You there, just like that.
Everyday warmth in his living room.
Your laughter filling his quiet house.
Then he cleared his throat and looked away, pretending to focus on the pasta.
“Dinner’s almost ready,” he called out, voice a little rougher than before.
You looked up, still smiling, and he caught the softness in your eyes, that same warmth that had started to unravel him from the moment he’d met you.
Axl wasn’t the type to half-ass anything, not even dinner.
You could tell from the way he plated the food, precise, deliberate, a quiet kind of artistry. The salmon glistened under a drizzle of creamy sauce, flecks of herbs perfectly arranged, the pasta twirled into elegant little nests. Even the salad looked like something out of a restaurant catalog, bright and fresh and balanced.
You stood there for a moment, momentarily forgetting how to move.
“Jesus,” you murmured, eyes wide. “That looks incredible.”
He smirked, drying his hands on a kitchen towel. “Told you I could cook.”
“You undersold yourself,” you said softly, stepping closer. “It smells amazing.”
He only hummed, clearly trying not to show how much the compliment pleased him. Then, without a word, he walked over to the table, pulled out a chair, and gestured for you to sit.
You blinked, a little taken aback by the old-fashioned gesture but you played along, letting him guide the chair in as you sat down. “Well, thank you, Mr. Rose,” you teased lightly, “didn’t know you had such manners.”
“Guess I still remember how to be civilized,” he said, his mouth twitching into a half-smile.
He reached for a bottle of white wine, chilled, elegant and poured a generous glass for you before filling his own. You recognized the way he handled it: careful, almost reverent. You could tell it wasn’t just any bottle, though he made no fuss about it.
You hesitated for a second, then accepted the glass. “Alright,” you said, lifting it slightly. “I won’t say no this time.”
“Didn’t think you would.”
The clink of glass against glass echoed softly in the kitchen. You took a sip, dry, crisp, but smooth and blinked in surprise.
“Wow,” you said honestly. “That’s… really good.”
He gave a quiet laugh. “Glad you think so.”
He didn’t tell you it was one of his best. You’d probably stop drinking if you knew what it cost.
When he finally sat down across from you, the two of you just looked at each other for a moment, the sound of the rain faint against the windows, the soft hum of music still playing in the background.
“This is…” You trailed off, shaking your head as you twirled your fork through the pasta. “You seriously cooked this?”
He arched a brow. “You think I ordered it?”
“Well, I wouldn’t have blamed you,” you said, grinning. “Rockstars and kitchen aprons don’t usually mix.”
He smirked. “Guess I like proving people wrong.”
You took the first bite and practically melted. The sauce was rich and velvety, the salmon perfectly cooked. You let out a small, involuntary sound of delight that made him chuckle.
“That good, huh?”
You pointed your fork at him. “That good. Don’t act like you’re not proud.”
“I might be,” he admitted with a low laugh, eyes softening as he watched you eat. “You’re easy to impress, though.”
“Not really,” you said, swallowing another bite. “I just appreciate effort. And this—” you gestured to the table “—this is effort.”
He shrugged, taking a slow sip of wine. “Guess I just like doing things right.”
You smiled faintly. “I can tell.”
For a while, the conversation drifted easily, a little about food, music, travel. You could feel the wine warming your cheeks, your body relaxing, your laughter slipping out more freely.
Then the tone shifted, almost imperceptibly, when you said, “You know… you’re nothing like I thought you’d be.”
He looked up, eyebrow raised. “Yeah? What’d you expect?”
“I don’t know,” you admitted. “Someone louder, maybe. Rougher.”
He huffed a quiet laugh, leaning back in his chair. “That’s what most people think. Hell, that’s what they want to think. Makes for better headlines.”
“You mean the whole ‘control freak, always angry’ thing?”
His jaw flexed slightly, but not in irritation, more in thought. “Yeah. That one.”
You hesitated. “You don’t seem angry.”
“I’m not,” he said, voice steady but low. “Haven’t been for a long time. But once people make up their minds about you, they don’t bother to look again.”
You nodded slowly. “That must’ve been… exhausting.”
He looked at you for a moment, then gave a small smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “You learn to stop caring. I spent too many years trying to explain myself to people who weren’t listening anyway.”
You didn’t say anything, you just listened. And he noticed. He noticed how your eyes stayed on him, open and curious, no judgment there. Just quiet understanding.
That was rare.
And it hit him harder than he wanted to admit.
“I think people just needed someone to blame sometimes,” you said softly. “You were easy to blame because you didn’t play along.”
He laughed under his breath. “Yeah, I’ve heard that one before.”
“But they don’t really know you,” you added. “Not like this.”
Something flickered in his gaze, something almost vulnerable before he looked down at his glass again. “No,” he murmured, “not like this.”
You both took another sip of wine. Yours went down a little too easily, and you could feel the warmth spreading through your limbs now, that fuzzy, pleasant blur that made everything a little softer.
“You’re quieter now,” he said after a moment, his tone lighter now, teasing. “Wine getting to you already?”
You laughed, shaking your head. “Maybe a little. I’m not much of a drinker.”
“I can tell,” he said, that crooked smile returning. “You’ve got that look, the one where everything starts to feel a little too funny.”
You covered your mouth, giggling. “Do I?”
“Yeah,” he said quietly. “And it’s cute.”
You blinked, your breath catching for half a second. The word hung between you, unspoken tension curling into the air like smoke.
But he didn’t take it back.
He just watched you, calm and composed, like he was still deciding what to do with that truth.
You were definitely tipsy now, not drunk, not even close, just light-headed in a way that made everything feel softer. The edges of the world had blurred pleasantly, the wine warming you from the inside out.
When the last bites were gone, you leaned back in your chair and sighed contently. “That was… unreal,” you murmured. “I don’t think I could eat dessert even if you had one.”
He chuckled, looking mildly sheepish. “Good thing I didn’t make any, then.”
You laughed, resting your chin in your hand. “Guess it worked out.”
He smiled, that quiet, knowing kind of smile, then gestured toward the living room. “Come on. Let’s get out of the kitchen before I start cleaning.”
“God forbid,” you teased, standing up carefully.
You made your way to the couch again, shrugging off your flannel, the alcohol made your body feel so hot now and you settled in while he went to the turntable and put on another gentle track to fill the room.
Back on the couch, everything felt more comfortable, more natural. The second you sat down, the cats were on you again — Mr. Blue circling your legs while Dijon climbed halfway into your lap like you’d never left. You couldn’t help but giggle, gently scratching their heads. “They really haven’t forgotten me, huh?”
“Guess not,” Axl said from behind you, voice carrying that trace of warmth that made your stomach flutter.
He disappeared for a moment, then came back with another bottle, this one red and two fresh glasses. “Thought we’d try this instead,” he said, settling down beside you again.
You raised a brow. “You’re trying to get me drunk, aren’t you?”
He smirked. “If I wanted to, you’d be drunk already.”
You let out a soft laugh and accepted the glass. The wine was darker, smoother, rich with warmth and something deeper that lingered on your tongue. You hummed, pleased. “Mmh. I like this one even better.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” you said softly, smiling into your glass.
The conversation drifted easily again. About music, about life, about small, unimportant things that somehow felt important anyway. The wine loosened everything, words, smiles, tension.
You turned toward him fully now, folding one leg beneath you, your body facing his, Dijon giving a quiet meow of protest as you moved. Axl mirrored you almost instinctively. Your arm rested along the back of the couch, your hand holding up your head as you watched him.
And for the first time that night, you really looked at him.
The light caught in his hair, a soft light halo against the dimness of the room. His expression was relaxed but his eyes, those deep, searching eyes, still carried something heavy behind them. You saw the quiet in him, the loneliness he didn’t voice. And it hit you somewhere you couldn’t quite name.
He felt it too. The way your gaze lingered, steady and open, almost too much.
It stripped something from him, not in a bad way, but in a way that made him feel seen.
“What?” he asked quietly, a half-smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.
You shook your head. “Nothing.”
But the way you said it was too soft, too honest.
For a long moment, neither of you spoke. The only sound was the faint purr from Dijon in your lap and the soft clink of the wine glasses when he refilled them again. The world felt very far away, just the two of you and the warmth of the evening.
He rested his arm along the backrest too, close, so close that his hand hovered near your arm. The distance between you was a breath. And without even thinking about it, his fingers brushed against your skin, light as a whisper.
You felt it immediately. The trail of warmth spreading across your arm, goosebumps rising in its wake.
He paused, waiting, maybe expecting you to pull away. But you didn’t.
Instead, you shifted, laying your arm fully along the backrest, wordlessly offering him more of your skin.
He took it as permission, or maybe as invitation and let his fingers move again, slow and absentminded, tracing small patterns against the soft inside of your arm.
Neither of you said a word.
Your breath caught slightly, but you didn’t move. It wasn’t awkward, it wasn’t strange. It felt right, warm, intimate, grounding. Like something that had been waiting to happen all along.
When you glanced up at him again, his gaze met yours, steady, unguarded, with that quiet fire that made your chest tighten.
You gazed at him, wondering if he thought the same thing as you. You could practically see it.
You could feel it too.
But for now, neither of you broke the spell.
You just sat there, with the wine, the quiet, the warmth between you, both of you aware that something had shifted, even if neither dared to name it yet.
The silence stretched comfortably between you, only broken by the soft hum of the record player somewhere in the background.
You’d stopped thinking about the time. The wine, the warmth, the dim glow of the room, it all made the moment feel suspended, unhurried. His touch was light and almost distracted, but you could tell he wasn’t really thinking about anything else.
When he finally pulled his hand back to take a sip of wine, you felt the absence immediately, a strange little ache where his fingers had been.
You exhaled softly, trying to focus on the glass in your hands, but the thoughts in your head were louder now, all the things you’d been thinking since that very first call.
He looked so at ease right now, his posture relaxed, eyes half-lidded as he listened to the faint sound of the record.
You didn’t even realize you were speaking until the words were already there, leaving your lips softly.
“You know,” you began, your voice barely above a whisper, “I think people get you wrong.”
He blinked, a slow, surprised glance in your direction. “Hm?”
You turned your glass in your hands, searching for the right words. “All that stuff people say about you, I mean, I’ve read it, I’ve heard it. I’m sure everyone has. But I don’t see any of that. Not in you.”
He gave a quiet laugh, the kind that wasn’t really amused. “Yeah, well. Most people don’t see much past what’s printed about me.”
“I know,” you said softly. “But I do. Or at least… I think I do.”
He looked at you again, properly this time. The shift in his expression was subtle but it was there, something flickering behind his eyes, guarded but curious.
You felt your pulse in your throat. The wine made it easier to speak, but also harder to filter. “I just think you’re a good man, Axl. For what it’s worth.”
The room felt suddenly smaller after that, your words hanging between you like something fragile and real.
He stared at you, not the kind of stare that demanded, but the kind that searched, quietly disbelieving. He opened his mouth, then closed it again, as if whatever he wanted to say got lost somewhere along the way.
You smiled faintly, nervous now that you’d said too much. “Sorry, that probably sounds ridiculous. I just, I know I don’t really know you that well, but the way people talk… it’s not fair. And I wanted you to know that I don’t think that way. You’ve been nothing but kind. You’ve been… real.”
For a long moment, he didn’t answer.
Then he exhaled, a deep, quiet sound, like something loosening in his chest. When he finally spoke, his voice was low, almost rough. “You don’t know how long it’s been since someone’s said something like that to me.”
His words hit you harder than you expected. There was something in the way he said it, not grateful, not emotional exactly, but stripped of all that armor he usually carried. Vulnerable in a way that made your throat tighten.
You didn’t know what to do except smile, soft and genuine. “Well, then maybe someone should’ve a long time ago.”
He looked down for a moment, his fingers absently tracing the rim of his glass. Then he laughed quietly, but there was no humor in it, only disbelief. “You don’t even know me,” he said again, almost like he was trying to convince himself of it.
You tilted your head, watching him. “Maybe not everything. But what I do know? I like.”
Something broke in his expression then, a small crack, almost invisible, but you saw it. The slight tremor in his jaw, the way his shoulders fell just a little, the brief glimmer of something raw in his eyes before he looked away.
He cleared his throat, trying to mask the emotion tightening it. “You really shouldn’t say things like that,” he murmured, half to himself.
You smiled softly, eyes still on him. “Why not?”
“Because I’ll start believing you.”
You felt your heart stutter at that, your breath catching somewhere between a laugh and something deeper. You wanted to tell him to believe it, that you meant every word but you stayed quiet, just letting the silence settle again.
Only this time, it wasn’t heavy.
It was soft.
It was warm.
The red wine softened the room into something warm and hazy, a comfortable blur where the lines between you and him weren’t so sharp anymore. You felt loose, open, heavy in that pleasant way that came just before sleep. Axl, meanwhile, seemed steady, relaxed, yes, but clear-eyed and very present.
Dijon had been asleep on your lap for so long he felt like an extension of your body, warm, heavy, purring faintly. Axl was sitting beside you, turned slightly in your direction. Close enough for your knee to brush his when you moved. Close enough that you could smell his cologne every time you breathed in, that damn scent bringing your thoughts back to his hoodie.
And then Whiskey decided he needed attention.
He strutted across the backrest with all the confidence of a creature who owned the place, paused behind Axl’s head, and meowed dramatically into the room.
Axl snorted. “Alright, alright. Come here, you little dictator.”
He reached up to stroke behind Whiskey’s ears. The cat accepted it for maybe four seconds, then meowed again, louder this time. The cat moved again but didn’t step in between the two of you, no.
He hopped down, strolled with purpose, and plopped himself right next to Axl on the far end of the couch leaving Axl directly between you and the demanding little feline.
Whiskey meowed at you. Loudly.
You laughed quietly. “Oh, you want me?”
Whiskey meowed again. Absolutely.
So you shifted, leaning closer, reaching over Axl to scratch under Whiskey’s chin. The angle was awkward, but Whiskey immediately melted into your hand, tail quivering with contentment.
As you lifted your hips up to scoot closer to the cat (and Axl), Dijon just merely lifted his head, not bothering to move an inch and just looking up at what you were moving around for. He lazily dropped his head again but remained in your lap.
Your shoulder began to complain about the way you had to stretch, but Whiskey melted into your touch and refused to let you pull back. Every time you tried to draw your arm back even an inch, he chirped in protest. You groaned softly and leaned forward again, stretching over Axl to continue petting him.
You shook your arm out once, trying to ease the ache, before settling it back down, this time resting gently on Axl’s upper arm as you reached past him to keep petting Whiskey. You didn’t even fully register the contact. The wine, the warmth, the animals: all of it made the closeness feel natural.
Axl noticed, though.
He felt every point of contact, your arm, your thigh brushing his, the faint warmth of your body leaning closer than before.
You didn’t. Not really. The wine kept you blissfully unaware of little things like that.
But he noticed.
And he liked it more than he would ever admit.
Whiskey purred loudly, Dijon purred softly, and the whole room seemed to hum.
You shifted a bit more, adjusting your angle, and that’s when your neck gave a warning throb. You inhaled sharply, rolling your shoulders once, trying to shake off the tension.
It didn’t help.
Instinctively and without really thinking, you tilted your head, then let it settle onto the nearest comfortable place.
Axl’s shoulder.
“Is that okay?” you murmured, the words slow and soft, your head already resting there.
His breath caught just slightly.
Then, quietly: “Yeah. ‘Course it is.”
You let out a tiny, relieved sigh and relaxed fully, your body molding into his side like it was the most natural thing in the world. You were warm. Soft. Completely unguarded.
Whiskey purred loudly under your hand, Axl’s arm brushed yours every time he moved, and the blanket pooled warmly around both your legs. Dijon shifted in his sleep, leaning a little heavier against you.
The couch felt smaller now.
Or maybe you simply felt closer.
Conversation faded into small murmurs. A hum from you. A quiet chuckle from him. Then quiet again.
Your eyelids kept drifting lower. You tried to keep them open, once, twice, three times but the warmth, the wine, the steady rise and fall of his breathing, the soft heartbeat you felt where your head rested…
It all tangled together into this slow, sinking comfort you couldn’t fight.
You yawned, a tiny, sleepy sound that made him smile.
Just resting them for a second, you thought. Just a second.
A minute later, the weight of your body softened entirely, your hand slipping gently off Whiskey as your breath evened out.
Axl felt the exact moment sleep took you, the way your head settled fully onto his shoulder, the way your body melted into his side like it belonged there.
He didn’t move you.
He didn’t dare.
He just sat there, still and warm and quiet, listening to your soft breathing.
For the first time in a long time, the quiet didn’t feel empty.
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