Summary: When you find out you’re pregnant you can’t believe it, only a year out from leaving hogwarts but Fred reassured you everything would be fine, but when things turn for the worst you fall into a dark feeling and you don’t know how to get out of it
Includes: Anxiety, Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Fred George and Molly being angels
Pairing: Fred Weasley x f!reader
Let’s start at the begging, when I first met Fred and George Weasley I was sitting in a compartment alone on the train to hogwarts, my first day had my nerves going haywire, and like some miracle they both wandered into my compartment and sat across from me, their fiery red hair and mischievous smiles drew me in
From that moment forward the three of us were best friends, it was normal for me to join them at their burrow during summers, we’d swap Christmas gifts the night before we went to our own homes, and some how along the way I grew a different relationship with both
George became my confidant, the person I could tell absolutely anything to and he never judged me and I was that for him along with Fred, but through the years my heart grew for Fred the way he’d always stick up for me, sharing gentle moments that stayed with me forever only making me fall for him more
My fondest memory was when he asked me to be his date to the Yule ball, he was so nervous which was so unlike him, he and George had created a trick that when I opened the letter out flew colorful little fireworks that formed into a heart, the letter reading “You must have many suitors ready to take your hand to the ball but you know you’d have more fun with me;) plus I can’t miss my chance to go to this ball with the most beautiful girl in all of Hogwarts, so what do you say will you be my date angel?”
I remember how happy I was when I read that letter when I looked at him across from me seeing how nervous he was I couldn’t possibly say no and neither could my heart
That leads me to now, sitting on my shared bed with Fred, reading the letter I had kept all this time, tears falling down my face remembering everything between us that led to now
And with the news I just found out I’m even more vulnerable to being nostalgic, I’ve been feeling off lately and after Ginny suggested I might be pregnant my world started spinning, I mean I’ve been with Fred for forever but I was still scared we are young and their joke shop is still growing, what if it’s too soon? Times like this alone always made me spiral and Fred or George were the only ones to ground me
The test was positive….pregnant, I’m actually pregnant, Fred and George will be home any minute now and my heart is racing, the best plan is to probably tell them at the same time, just rip the bandaid off all at once and just pray Fred isn’t upset
I hear them open the door, coming in laughing and for a second my heart has hope that everything will be okay as long as they’re by my side, my boyfriend and my best friend
I suck up as much courage as possible tucking the test into my pocket and go to meet them in the living room, they’re all smile and it makes me feel better, when they notice me Fred picks me up spinning me in his arms and I can’t help but hold him a little tighter
“I missed you” I whisper as he sets me down, his eyebrows furrow, his thumb brushing my cheek
“Hey what’s got my girl down?” He could always read me like an open book
“I need to tell you guys something” I say sitting on the cozy chair and they quickly sit on the couch across from me and I could see how worried I’ve made them
“You’re kinda scaring us here y/n, what’s going on?” George asks gently
“I…..I’ve been feeling sick lately, just…..not really right” Fred sucks in a breath
“Oh godrick, tell me you’re not ill angel” I shake my head to ease that thought
“No….ginny suggested something and I took a test” I took the pregnancy test out of my pocket and placed it on the coffee table infront of them, letting them process
“Wait…..is this a pregnancy test?” Fred asks in a tone I couldnt decipher
“Obviously bro and it’s positive” George says with a smile that only said how incredibly happy his was but Fred…..his face was flat
“Fred? Please say something, I know this is sudden I know this isn’t the ideal time but I need you….both of you, I can’t do this alone…..please” my voice waivered
His expression softened as he got up and switched me so he was sitting in the chair and sat me in his lap with me legs across him
“Angel I would never leave you to something like this alone, sure we’re young but I know there’s no one else I’d rather start a family with, you’re everything to me and now so will this baby” his words filled me with so much relief and I could finally breath, I sigh with a subtle smile and lay my head on his chest
“I’m nervous but I can’t deny I’m a little excited too” his hands wrap around me rubbing my back like he always did to soothe me
“Bet it’ll be a girl” George states and I hear Fred huff
“Guys you’re really gonna make a bet, what does the winner get?” I smile loving to rile them up
“Uuuuuuh how about the winner get to name the baby” my eyes widen
“Oh you’re on Fred” they shake hands and I see the glow bond around them
“If either of you name my baby something ridiculous I swear” we all laugh and it feels like a new start to something wonderful
We found out I was about 3 months along, Fred was so excited, he already started buying little things for the baby, like cute gryffindor onesies, a pair of fuzzy little socks and a blanket for me to cover up in when I’m feeding he said it was very important for me to be comfortable always
George was even excited too, saying they had a new little trickster to teach their tricks too and show them how fun magic can be
It’s been a week since I found out and today we decided to head to the burrow for the weekend and tell the family the big news, I couldn’t wait to see mollys reaction
Plus Hermione, Ron, Ginny and Harry would be visiting so we didn’t have to make a bunch of trips and just tell everyone at once
“Hey Angel are you ready?!” Fred asks as he comes into the bedroom where I’m just finishing packing
“Yup I’m all set….im a little nervous”
“Why you know everyone will be over the moon darling” he says as he places his hands on my hips
“Oh I know it’s just the anticipation but as long as I have you with me I know it’ll be okay”
“Godrick I love you darling” he whispers as he pulls me into a gentle kiss
“I love you too, so much”
The three of us travelled through the fireplace as it was safer than disaperating, and the second we stepped foot into the burrow I was welcomed with a tight hug from Molly, her warm scent comforting me, she smelled like cookies and amber
“Oh dear how I’ve missed you, you must be going crazy staying with my two crazy boys” she giggles as she pulls back for the twins to both hug her, they sure did love their mum and it warmed my heart
“Come now I’ve just finished dinner and everyone is already here!” Fred laid my luggage to the side for now, taking my hand as we walked to the big long family table, I always loved this house I was so homey and wild with character
“You ready?” Fred whispers as we sit at the table, I nod as my heart picks up
“Y/n!! I haven’t seen you in a while! I hate that you’re not at hogwarts anymore me and Ginny miss you, it’s like we lost a part of our trio” Hermione says pouting
“I miss you guys too, I could really use a girl talk later” I looked at Ginny and she smirked already knowing the news we were all gathered here for and I couldn’t help but blush
“Dinner is served!” Molly says as she lays all the food out on the table and everyone began to scoop up
“So dear what was it you wanted all of us here for! Don’t get me wrong we’ve definitely missed you three, it’s too quiet now” Arthur asks as he bites into the roast
“Well…..oh goodness this is hard” Fred squeezed my thigh and George patted my back, one twin on each side of me
“You’ve got it!” Fred encouraged
“Well after a little chat with Ginny and feeling sick I took a test and well…..I’m pregnant” the sound of utensils against plates stopped and the room became too quiet, that is until Molly squealed out
“I KNEW IT! IT TOLD YOU ARTHUR!” She ran around the table hugging me over my shoulder doing the same to Fred, squishing us together
“I am proud of you son, congratulations!” Arthur cheered
“Well they’ve been going at it like rabbits so it was bound to happen” George said smirking and Molly thwacked his arm as she walked past to go back to her seat
“George Weasley watch your mouth” she reprimanded but everyone at the table laughed and my face exploded in red god the walls must be thin
The others congratulated us and the girls were beyond excited I knew they definitely wanted the details later
“I’m 3 months along! I was nervous at first but now I can’t wait, knowing I’ll be starting a family with the man that I love with all my heart” Fred smiled as he placed a kiss to my forehead, just looking into his eyes made me melt
“Aweeeeeee” Hermione, Ginny and Molly swooned at the same time making Ron fake a gag
It felt so good that everyone that meant the most to me know knew and that they were all excited for us and that they’d be here for us
I sat in Ginny’s room with her and Hermione and they were smiling so wide it bordered on creepy
“I cannot believe I’m gonna be an aunt, I can’t believe you didn’t get pregnant sooner” Ginny giggles and I huff smiling
“Oh please what’re you talking about”
“Come on y/n the second you and Fred got the chance to make out or sneak off at hogwarts you took it, it was pretty obvious what you guys were doing”
“Well what can I say Fred drives me crazy plus, the way he looks at me with the loving look just makes me wanna be close to him” I say placing my hands on my tiny bump
“You both really are head over heels for eachother it’s so sweet” Ginny said
“You guys got lucky too, I see the way Harry and Ron look at both of you, but no getting pregnant ladies” I say and we burst out laughing god I missed this
The weekend was lovely, Molly treated me like I was made of glass and it was sweet because I know how she must be overjoyed to have another little one running around and especially because this would be her first grandbaby
She sent me off with a freshly knitted blanket thinking just like Fred, that I should be cozy while this little baby grew
We got home and Fred put all the food Molly have us into the fridge
“I’d say we’re set on food for atleast two weeks now” he says and I can’t help but laugh
“I love her, she’s the best”
“I think she might like you darling more than she likes us” George says as he slumps onto the couch to relax before the week of crazy work in the shop
“No she’s just happy, I am too….i hope she has your hair” I say rubbing my belly as Fred stands behind me placing his hands over mine
“She huh? You’re betting on a little lady too?”
“Just mothers intuition” I hum
“Well if it’s a girl she’s gonna be as beautiful as he mum”
“Oh Fred ever the charmer” he kissed my hair before sending me off the take a nap while they pack away the luggage
I tried to cozy up and get some sleep but it wasn’t coming, I couldn’t get comfortable and I started feeling hot and a wave of nausea rolled through my body
I sat up trying to ease whatever this feeling was and I just needed to have Fred with me right now
“Fred!” I call out and in a second he’s in the room sitting on the bed next to me
“Hey everything alright? You’re looking a little pale darling”
“I…I don’t know I just don’t feel good, probably just morning sickness but I just didn’t wanna be alone” his eyes soften and he pulls me into his arms as we lay back down
“I’m here, I’m sure that little bean in there is just playing around” he says as he rubs his hand down my side leaving a trail of calming chills down my body
“I can’t wait to start this family Freddie, I always dreamed of it seeing you with our little baby in your arms” he snickered as he kissed my hair line
“Soon darling, she’ll be here soon”
Being held by him let me ease into a deep sleep even though that feeling still lingered
I woke up to a blinding pain in my stomach, I sat up the room dark the only light coming from the lamp in the corner, I reached for Fred shaking him, feeling my stomach drop when I feel something wet under me
Fred groaned as he sat up rubbing his eyes
“Hey you okay? Nightmare?”
“Somethings wrong” I threw back the sheets and my heart stopped, the sheets covered in blood and I hear Fred suck in a breath but everything started to blur, I couldn’t focus my ears ringing……not my baby
My chest tightened at the imagine in front of me but now was not the time to cry, I jump out of bed gently picked her up into my arms, her eyes unfocused and her breathing shallow, he skin so pale it was almost green
I run out of the room screaming for George and he’s a mess stumbling out of his room in a pair of plaid pj pants and a sweater mum knit
“What’s going on?” He follows us the the door as we both slip into shoes
“We’ve gotta go to the hospital now” we travel through the fireplace and emerge into the lobby of a wizarding hospital
“WE NEED HELP!” I call out as a few nurses run our way leading us to a room
“She’s pregnant and…..and there was blood and I….please help her” the feelings were starting to crash down on me as I stubble over my words
“We’ve got her sir, you’ll have to wait outside”
“No im not leaving her” I say as I sit in the chair next to her, they didn’t argue and continued to check on her and clean her
“Fred do you want me to get the family?” George asks behind me and all I can do is nod
“It’ll be okay Angel, you’ll be okay” I whisper to her, her eyes glossy with tears as she turns her head away from me, something she always did when she didn’t want me to see her pain
The family was sat in the waiting room for hours waiting anxiously for news, Molly was a wreck hating the thought of the physical and emotion pain you were going through, that her boy was hurting, that this wasn’t suppose to be part of either of your stories
Arthur helped try and comfort his wife as the kids tried to distract themselves by talking about up coming exams knowing if they just sat in silence thinking about you and the baby then they’d be bawling their eyes out and that wouldn’t help anyone right now, they all had to be strong for you and Fred
Moments later as the sun was finally rising casting an orange hue through the waiting room, Fred came out of the room and George instantly got up pulling him into a hug
But it was when Molly stood after, gently placing her hand on his cheek that he broke down hiding his face in her shoulder letting all the emotions out and that was when everyone knew that you had lost the baby
“I should’ve done something mum, I should’ve been able to protect them” Fred cried and it broke everyone’s heart
“It’s not your fault dear sometimes……sometimes these things happen even though it hurts so much”
“How is she doing?” Ginny asks now as everyone is stood around comforting him
“She won’t look at me, she can’t stop crying either she’s curled up in bed and it’s killing me that I can’t take away her pain……she was so excited, I was too”
“You need a moment son, come with me we’ll get something from the cafeteria” Arthur says wrapping his arm around Fred’s shoulders
“Mum and I will stay with her” Fred nods even though he hesitated leaving you
“Please be gentle with her”
When the doctor told me what I already knew deep down I felt…..ashamed, broken, lost, I couldn’t even look at Fred I didn’t wanna see the hurt etched on his face
I laid curled up on the bed feeling hollow then the door opened and Molly and George came in, they both sat in the chairs on the side of the bed I was facing
“Oh honey” Molly says holding my hand and I burst into a new wave of tears
“What did I do wrong? I wanted this so much and Fred….i can’t see him I feel like I’ve let him down”
“Hey don’t talk like that, this wasn’t your fault either, and you know Fred adores you and all he wants is to be here for you, we’re all here for you, this is gonna be a hard journey but me and Fred are gonna be by you every second, we love you we all love you” George says as he brushes my hair back gentle in a repeated motion
George was always able to get through to me even though the pain was still strong
“But what if he resents me now, we wanted a family and what if every time he looks at me now that’s all he will see”
“My son would never look at you with anything but absolute love and adoration” I breath out shakily
“I just….it just hurts so much”
“Do you want me to get Fred?” George asks with that knowing look
Soon George came back with Fred and after George and Molly said goodbye and that they’ll be in the cafeteria with the family, it was just us two and for the first time ever I was nervous around him
I finally looked at him and by heart thumped and I sucked in a breathe
“Please lay with me” he kicked off his shoes and laid next to me, our hands intertwining my forehead pressed to his chest
“I’m so sorry darling” he whispers
“I wanted this for us so badly….we never even got to find out what the gender was”
“It was a baby girl, if that’s what you felt then she was a girl darling”
It’s been a month since we lost her and it’s been hard, everyday is a new day though that’s what Hermione told me and slowly it was helping
Fred was extra extra sweet with me, patient, loving, a million kisses every morning, sweets he brought home from work
Molly would drop off baked goods or meals for us and it did make things a lot easier, Hermione and Ginny would send me letter all the time with words of encouragement and even just filling me in on their lives lately
But when I woke up this morning something felt different, like the gloom and heaviness that weighed down on me had lifted, even though I’ll grieve her forever
“Good morning darling” Fred chimes as he comes in the room with a plate of berries and waffles
“Morning Freddie, is this for me?” I asks smiling as he sets it on my lap
“Only the best for my girl” I pull him into a kiss quickly and his eyes open wide
“For everything, you’ve shown me so much love and I know you’re hurting too, I just wanna move forward I wanna live even though we only had her for a short time, if I dwell on it forever I’ll lose what we could grow into, I’ll keep us in that gloom and I don’t want that, I want us, I want to laugh again and you and George pull pranks on me without being scared I’ll cry, I want to be us again because I love you” his breathing came out shaking
“I’m so proud of you, I know it hurts but I know you felt it so much more, you’re so strong darling and she’ll always be with us and we’ll remember her forever”
“Do you….do you still want to have a family together?” I ask placing my hand on his
“Of course I do, you’re my dream girl but I think we should wait and give it time till you’re completely ready” godrick how did I get so lucky
“And I love you, till my last breathe and even after that, I will find you in every life time”
“And I will always look for you” our foreheads placed together just living in this moment, with a piece of our hearts always holding a placing for our little girl
