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18k later and my vacation is over :( least I got a lot written and even went to see a concert (Dark Horizon tour w/ In this Moment, MiM)
Yesterday I had a different kind of self care day (that’s actually probably better self care) where I woke up, took the dog on a car ride while I ran a few errands, and got a lot done-- while taking breaks and downtime as needed.
I got a breakfast treat and my favorite caffeinated beverage, and I went to an ATM to make a deposit I needed to make. I washed my clothes, and between loads I played Minecraft and watched a show I enjoy. I cleaned my bathroom while listening to my favorite drag queens. I washed towels and folded them while they were still all warm and fluffy. I fed my dog his favorite food, and made a nice hot meal for myself, and did the dishes when I was done. I changed my sheets and took out the trash and finished the day by taking a long hot shower (listening to a musical soundtrack I like) and tidying up my shower supplies. I brushed and flossed my teeth, folded my clothes, dried my hair, and went to sleep in a freshly made bed with hospital corners. I read until I fell asleep.
Sometimes, self care means “I can’t today”. And that’s ok! Sometimes, we all need days where we are free to just exist and do nothing, and I applaud that on occasion. That’s what last weekend was for me. I had a PMDD flare up that was less emotion, all pain. I woke up, took painkillers, got a heat source, and didn’t move for 14 hours. I watched all three extended edition Lord of the Rings in one sitting, and nothing else. But sometimes, self care means “I can today... so I will.” And I did!
Haven't been around much the past few days because of an allergic reaction. Still don't know what it is. Maybe I'm allergic to confidence.
*has one good day*
Me: I think I’m getting better!
My brain: I think the fuck not!
Today, wasn’t too bad for effort.
- I slept in( rarely happens).
- I wondered through 1/3 of my day listening to ocean waves and just thinking about my past and what has formed “me” to this point. ( really loving the sounds from “MyNoise” app).
- Did my yoga and continued slowly building my interval body weight training again ( stupid knees!)
- Spent an hour or so writing. I’ve decided to re-write my life and memories of my past as if I’d been born a girl - have a few hrs into it. It’s weird, but I’ve never really dwelt on my past and really don’t have a lot of “memories”. The ones I do always seem to be remembered as if I was watching me ( not feeling them).
- made choc/date/almond energy bites and then later supper.
- petted our miniature poodle a lot (spouse calls her my therapy dog and I suspect she is right... but she had a standard rabies shot yesterday and needed the petting too I suspect)
Not much else - but that was better than usual.
Guess who spent today binge-playing/recording all of DeltaRune, after witnessing the Fortnite event happen??
Yup.
Gonna watch some Doctor Who, & The Walking Dead tonight to cap off today’s day!
Hope y’all are having a great Sunday..!❤️
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I used up all my happy yesterday