Summary: Jaebum and you broke up he didn’t loved you anymore or so he thought. You temporarily move in with your long time best friend jung jinyoung
It’s been a month since Jaebum and I broke up it was a really hard brake up it all happened because he lost interest in me he stopped loving me. He will make excuses to not see me. One time I was making dinner for Jaebum I texted him after I was done but, he never responded he just left me on seen, I thought he was coming. I give up waiting for him I made my way to our shared bedroom and fall asleep.
The next day it was the same I texted him wish him a good day but, he left me on seen again I thought he was busy so I left it like that. I was cleaning the house when he arrived home he was as early like really early it was around 3:20 when he arrive he usually came home around 9pm he went to take a shower than graved some stuff from his home studio and left but, not before he kissed each and every single one of his cats he looks at me and give me a half smile and left. I was getting frustrated and I needed to confront him this haces been going on for a 2 weeks or so.
It was Wednesday and I was finally going to talking to Jaebum I was getting pissed by his behavior and I needed an explanation. Once he got home he went to take a shower and after Che was done I new was the perfect time.
I made my way to out bedroom where he was reading a book on the bed.
“Hey Jae can we talk? "I asked standing by the door.
“Yeah come sit down”. He replied as he changed his seating position.
“Jae what’s going on is everything okay are we okay?” I asked looking at him in the eyes.
“What are you talking about y/n?” He replied looking at me confused
“Well you been avoiding me and, when I send you messages you leave me on seen”. I told him feel sacred
“I’m telling you the truth there’s no way I can hide this any more but, your right I been doing that and the reason is I just don’t feel the same you feel for me I look at you and I don’t see love I tell myself I love y/n but that’s a lie I just lost the love I had for you and I’m sorry I was thinking of a better way to tell you this but there’s no a better way”. Jay said looking at me with pity
“I-“ I didn’t know what to say to him I just looks at may hands and I let tears fall.
“Look I’m sorry for how this ended I really I’m”. Jay said getting up
“I will be out of the house by Sunday”. I said trying to stop crying.
“Oh okay I’m gonna go stay at a friends house you can stay tonight and you can leave when ever you want let me know when you fin a place to stay.” Jae said walking into our share closet and taking out a bag and but clothes in it and walk out of the room and than out of the apartment.
As soon as he was out the door i broke down crying I felt so bad I felt like I did something to make him stop loving me he didn’t give me a reason as to why he stop loving me he just said he lost feelings but, I couldn’t help but feel like it was all my fault.
I fall asleep after two hours of crying. I was woken up the next day by Jaebum’s cats meowing I got up and feed them I eat and when back to the room to start packing. I called a fired of mine and asking if I could stay with him till I find a place to live. He thankfully let me stay at his place.
When I was done packing some of my clothes my friend Jung Jinyoung came and helped me. Junyoung and I new each other from a drama we did once and we become best friends he was the one who introduced me to got7 and after that I meet Jaebum from a mutual friend.
He took the few boxes I had ready to go, and than I told him I had a few other stuff I Needed to pack and he left. I was halfway done with packing and I took a brake I made dinner feed the cats and eat when I was done I went to the couch and watch a movie with Nora and cake cuddling me. I was gonna miss them I mad so many memories with them and I didn’t want to leave them behind.
The next day I had everything packed Jinyoung came and helped me. I looked around the bed room and I looked almost empty and so did the leaving room I took down the couple pictures and place them in a bock next to the trash and left a not on top of it. I look at the cats and give them a big hug and kiss telling them I will miss them I cry one I place them back on the couch I will mis this place and I will miss them so much. Once I was out of the apartment I locked the door and left my keys under the front door mat and made my way to my car and fallow Jinyoung to his apartment.
Once we got to his apartment we took my stuff to his apartment and place everything in my temporary room and I got started on unpacking. Once I was done I went to the kitchen for dinner that Jinyoung made.
“Hey y/n dinner is ready take a seat”. Jinyoung said placing a place in front of me and I eat it silently.
After dinner I did the dishes and went to the leaving room were Jinyoung was seating with his computer. He Close his computer and put it on the coffee table and open his arms out for me.
“ hey it’s okay to cry if that how you feel like. I won’t judge you. it’s not okay to keep you feeling hidden you can cry I got you” Jinyoung said rubbing my back
“Was it my fault he stopped loving me, was I a bad girlfriend” I asked finally letting all my feelings out
“ what not its not your fault. You were a good girlfriend I could tell my the way you always look after him, and the way you talk about him. It’s his fault for not seen what he had in front of him, he let the beat thing that could ever happen to him go”. Jinyoung said looking down at me
I keed crying until I fall asleep and he took me to my room. I woke up the next day with a headache and I went to the kitchen for a pain relief when I saw pancakes with a note Note Next to it.
Good morning y/n I made you pancakes. I left to a meeting I will see you tonight after filming.-Jung Jinyoung 
When I was done eating I got my laptop and got to do some working I was so lonely I usually had Nora next to me or cake meowing or kunta on my lap so this felt different and out of place.
I look for animals that need to be adopted and I saw quite a few but I need to ask Jinyoung if He was okay with me getting a pet.
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I was at the studio in h1gher music when a stuff came and told me some came and left a message for me saying that they are out of the apartment. I thank the stuff member and I clean up the studio and left to the apartment when I got there my cats were waiting for me on the couch I made my way to my room and there was nothing the belong to y/n I took a shower and once I got out I made dinner and feed the cats when i walk back to the trash that was in the kitchen I saw a box with a note on top of it I picked up the box and read the note.
Hey Jaebum these are some of our couple pictures I took them down for you. You can throw them away burn them I don’t care. Also I feed the kids and clean before I let. Ps. I left you a anniversary present since it was next week and I didn’t want to return it. I don’t want it back you can keep it or re-gift it. Good bye - y/n
I open the box soon after I finish reading the note and I saw all out couple pictures we had on the wall and I couldn’t help but smile we look so happy and so In love i saw some pictures of y/n with the cats or as she calls them kids and some of her with my parents she looks so happy and full of life. I love her smile I look at the picture of y/n and i with my parents that i haven’t seen before, and run to my bedroom.
“Hey baby since when do we have this photo of us with my parents”. I said still looking at the pictures.
I look up after I receive nothing but, since and a meow. Than I relies that I broke up with her and she moved out, I look at the picture and I cry. why did I had to brake up with her why did I had to be so stupid. I fall on my knees and I cry so hard. I thought I stopped loving her I though I didn’t have feelings for her any more and I believe that for a month. It took her Bing gone for me to release that I love her that I need her but, I’m to late to ask for forgiveness to take all the back I hate my self for that. Now I’m all alone with out the girl that made me happy.
After crying for hours I got up and when to sleep or try to all night I was looking at her side of the bed like of out of nowhere she will apear. I regret my choice now I’m all alone. I lost my love now I have to live with that.
The next day I went back to the studio I needed to be out of the apartment as soon as possible I couldn’t stay there it smells like her and it so lonely.
I return back home but it feels wired Bing there with out her there so I back some cloths and got my cats and I left to my parents house I needed some time away from this place that gives me so much memories of her. So I got everything I need and I let to my parents house.
When I got there my parents were happy to see me but give me a wired look. They look behind me hoping to se the person they were hoping to be there too.
“Hey sweetheart we’re y/n I miss her”. My mom asks still looking out the door.
“Yeah son we’re is our future daughter in law?” My dad ask coming from the leaving room.
“Well Um something happened how about you seat down and I’ll tell you”. I said walking to the leaving room
“Okay son tell us what happened is she okay did something bad happened to her?” My mom asked alarm.
“ I broke up with y/n thinking I stopped loving her I had the thought for a while and I started to ignore her making excuses to not be with her, I ignored her messages and always made sure to got back home when she was already sleeping”. I said looking at the photos they had on their wall of y/n and i
“ I’m so sorry son and how are you feeling now she was your longest and serous girlfriend”. My dad said rubbing my back
“ fell like the worst human being I lost her I thought i didn’t loved her I didn’t release what I had until I let her go now here I I’m”. I said puling the hair out of my head.
“ it’s okay sweetie take your time and when your ready talk to her but give her space she’s broken too I’m sure of you tell her how you really feel she might give you a second chance”. My mom said hugging me
“ okay go take a warm shower and go to sleep you need it and also if you need anything tell us we are here for you”. My dad told me as he got up from the couch
When I was in my old bed room I took a shower and change than my mom knocked.
“Come in”. I said from my bed
“ hey baby I know this is a bad time to give you this but got you something for you and y/n for your anniversary that’s happened to be next week . Again I know is a bad time but, I think you should have it”. My mom said as she gives me the gift and walk out of the room.
I place the gift next to y/n’s gift and turn the light of and when to sleep. The next day I woke up and I just stayed there, than I got up and went to feed my cats than I ate my cereal and when back upstairs. As soon as I got to my room I saw the presents and i open them I wanted to se what it was.
I opens my moms first it was a photo album of all them photos she’s haves taken of us with out noticing. Than I saw a black velvet box with a letter I lead the letter
Dear Jaebum I known how much you love y/n and your father and I love her too you been telling us that your sure she’s the one and I can tell that’s she is and I’m hoping so to. I I’m giving you my wedding ring for you to give it to her for you engaged me to for the wedding that’s up to you my love. I can’t wait to see you at the altar with her. All the love mom ♡
I looked at the ring and i smile I was gonna do anything in order to get my y/n back and make her my wife is she left me. Than I open y/n gift it was a watch that I wanted and there also was a plain ticket to the Bahamas. Y/n and I always wanted to go for a get away for just her and I no phone no social media just her and I and how I wish we could go there now.
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I was walking around town doing some shopping for my new furry friend, after Jinyoung let me get the cat, I was excited and didn’t know witch one to pick but, he help me and it was the cutes cat it was white with brown ears, I named him blue because when we saw him he was trying to drag a big blue toy it was funny to watch.
I was walking out of the pet store and made my way to the restaurant and order something. I was starving after I stand all day out shopping. As I finished eating I hear the door of the restaurant open and saw Jaebum with a girl i got so sad seen him with a new girl he looks like he haves move on fast.
They took a seat a few tables down from so I could see them pretty well. I saw how happy Jaebum look well talking to this new girl it hurt me seeing him so happy I got up left grabbed my stuff went to play and walk away crying.
I run to the apartment and run to my room we’re blue was sleeping on my bed I sat next to him and he came and laid on top of me I look down at him and smile and I stated talking to him. I had a habit of doing that when I was with Jaebum I used to talk to Nora and cake a lot.
“Blue I can’t believe Jae move on so fast. What have I done to make him not love me did I do something wrong”.  I said looking at my cat
And blue just meow rubbing himself in my hands as if he was telling me that it was okay that I did nothing wrong.
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I needed some time to think and one of my cousins have asked to bing out witch i agree she notice how down I looked she ask me what was wrong and I told her. She look disappointed Know that truly love y/n she was piss of telling me if It was her and her husband and she felt like she didn’t love him anymore she would have gone and talk to her husband and I new I should have gone and told y/n how I was feeling but I didn’t.
“Jaebum why did you ever said that do you still feel like that? Did you really had to lose her to realize how much you need her ?” She said pissed off
“ I know I should have talk to her but I thought I was doing the right choice but it turn out I wasn’t” I said looking down in embarrassment
“ your smart but sometimes I think your more dumb than smart dude you better fix this I have never meet y/n but from what my auntie tells me, y/n is the best girlfriend you have ever had and you know how your mom hates all your ex’s y/n is a big deal if your mom likes her this much” she said taking a sip of her water.
“ yeah mom loves her she give met her wedding ring to propose to y/n that’s why I need your help” I said hoping she will help me
“ oh I will not be helping you on anything you did all this and you will fix it your a big boy Jay you need to fix your own mistake no have anyone help you out but, if you do end up wine her over send me an invitation to the wedding”. She said getting up and walking away
Now I needed to think on a way to really win y/n over I hope I do but if she doesn’t give me a second chance I’ll be okay if she at last let me be her friend. I need her in my life in one way or another but if she chooses to not know about my existence than I’ll respect that.
I got up payed for the food and drinks and walk home imagining that I was walking home to y/n we’re she will be waiting for me with a big smile and open arms. 
** this is my first story like this I’m not really good that this I hope you enjoy it and if I made a mistake please correct me on my mistakes. **
sumerry: Jaebum plans to talk to y/n and get her back. Everything is getting back to normal and after a while Jaebum plans on popping the question in his parents backyard.
(Again if I made a mistake please correct me ☺️)
I was on my phone with Jaebum’s mom since I haven't talk to her in a long time, and even if Jae and I weren't together I still care for his parents. I wanted to catch up with her.
“hey y/n how are you sweet heart it’s been so long that you haven't talk to us “ said Jae’s mom
“ I been doing good, been busy doing some work” i responded
“ oh that good, I’m sorry for this but I hope not to he hurt me and I don't know if I can ever forgive him. “ I said getting a little upset
“ I understand that but if he was willing to talk to you I think you should let him talk to him, but if you choose not than that’s okay.” she said sounding sad
“ If he ever wants to talk I will prefer to do it in person so whatever he wants to tell me he can do so in my face.” I said
“ Anyway were have you been staying?” she ask
“ I been staying with my friend Jung Jinyoung” I said well chancing room locations
“ oh that good you have a place to stay.” she said sounding unsure
“ yeah his been there for me since we meet and was there every time I got in a fight with my parents or I had problems with my work.” I said proud of my friendship
“ He sounds like a sweet nice friend, anyways I have to go I need to make dinner. y/n if any time you want to drop by please do so your always welcome here.” she said happily
“ I sure will I miss you guy's so much ill let you know when I have time to come visit.” I told her feeling loved by her
“ of course sweetie well I have to go bye.” she said
“ bye love you” I said well hanging up the phone.
I got up from the chair in the balcony and walk in side. well I was making a cup of tea Jinyoung walk in and told me that he needed cloths for his new drama premier and ask if I could help I’m pick a suit, and I happily agree.
the next day we woke pearly, eat breakfast and we made our way to the mall we booth a few top than me made out way to Jinyoung’s favorite suit store and we enter. as he looked around I followed him and he was giving me some suit’s that he thought they were good and he made his way to the dressing room as I sat out side of them waiting for him to get out.
“ What do you think of this one?” he asked as he got out with a dark green suit
“ I like it but I think that doesn't look good for that type of night ,” I sed looking at the suit jacket
“ okay let me try another one.” he said getting back to the dressing room
“ and this one ?” he asked as he walked out wearing a black and white suit
“ oh I like it.” I said moving him back to see the back of it.
“ okay I have two more lets see if you like one of those better” he said walking back to the dressings room.
after he try out the other two suit we both liked the all gray suit and we walked to the casher and paid. after that we went to a dress shop and I told him Wanted a new dress and as soon as we walked in I saw the perfect dress and I garbed it and when to try it out. When I saw it on me I New I had to get it.
when we walk out we went to a ice cream store and got out order and sat down, we talk about our jobs and other stuff. when we got home we made dinner and watch a movie and cuddle Blue.
I was at the mall getting new clothes and when I was walking pass a store i saw y/n with another man and I felt like my hole world was gonna came down onto me I felt so hurt so stupid I saw the only girl that I have ever love with another guy and all my hopes on getting her back went out the window.
I was at work when my cousin called me again asking if I talk to y/n and i told her what I saw at the mall but the only thing she told me what to talk to her and find out if she was with some else
I thought of ways to talk to y/n and I finally decided on sending her a text message asking to meet up at a restaurant and she surprisingly she said yes.
the next day I got up early and went to work and when I got back from work I went home to get ready and mentally prepare myself word what ever happens tonight .
the next day I got up and got ready for work. I was doing my own stuff when I got a message from Jaebum asking if we could talk tonight at 7 in a restaurant he send me the address to it and i agree remembering that his mom told me to let Jaebbum explain himself so i send him a message back telling him that ill see him there.
when I got home I went to take a shower and got ready for tonight's meeting with jaebum. once I wad done I told Jinyoung and got on my car and made my way to the restaurant.
When i got there Jaebum was already there waiting for me I got to my table and he help me with my chair like the gentleman he was. We order our food and as we waited we talk he asked me how i was if i was doing good and other basic questions, and after dinner he took me on a walk and we end up at the beach.
we sat down close to the edge of the beach we the water could beardly touch our feet. we stayed there in silence until Jaebum started talking.
“ I saw you the other day with a guy is he your new boyfriend?” he asked me with pain in his voice
“ does that matter? I saw you with a girl too a few weeks ago”
“ what? I haven't gone out with nobody the only female i been seen is my cousin and that because she found out we broke up” Jae said looking down at his feet
“ The boyfriend you think you saw is my best friend Jung Jinyoung” I said looking at jaebum’s shook and embarrassed face.
“wait his not your boyfriend” Jae asked to make sure I said it correctly
“ yeah its the guy that introduced us” i said laughing
“ oh thank god I thought I lost my change to fix my mistakes .”he said getting in front of me as he garbed my hands
“y/n I didn't asked you to meet up to catch up i asked you to meet me so I can I can tell you that I regret saying that I lost feelings for you that I didn’t love you anymore all that’s was a lie I thought that I truly didn’t love you I feel so stupid thinking that I lost feelings for you I needed to lose you to relies that I truly love you that your my everything.” Jae said well squeezing my had.
“ Jae you really did hurt me for saying that I thought that you actually stop loving me you pushed me aside you made excuses to no see me it broke me.”
“ I know it hurt you I can’t imagine all the pain I made you go though but, if you give me a second chance I promise you that I’ll show you how much I love you I’ll show you that I really want to be with you. If you choose not to be with me and give me a chance I’ll understand I’ll walk away from here with no heart feelings.” Jae said looking at me dead in the eyes
“ I’ll give you a chance because I love you and I want to try this but one strike and your out got it and we have to take this slow we can’t just jump to we’re we left of.” I said smiling at him
“ of course I’ll wait for you anytime I’ll do anything you want me to as long as I have you at the end of the night your all the matters to me.” Jae said getting up and pulling me up with him
We walk for a bit more than me drop me off at my apartment and we said our good byes. When I walk inside I saw Jinyoung with my cat watching a movie I sat next to him and told him everything that happens with Jaebum than I took a shower and md went of to sleep.
The next day I went work and got my self busy I got a few messages from Jaebum checking up on me and a few from Jinyoung telling me to eat the lunch he made me. After work I went home and cuddly with my cat and clean up the place.
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It’s been 3 moths since y/n and I got back together and I was going ask her to move in with me I got a new bigger apartment that had more space for the cats to play and since y/n haves a cat we will be needing more space for it too.
When I got to the new apartment I got started on putting it together I was making space for y/n stuff and I got new cat towers and some cat stuff than I want to the bedroom and got started on putting the bed after I was done I went grocery shopping. When it was 6 I got ready for my date with y/n. My outfit was all black I wanted to feel comfy and look presentable at the same time.
When I got to the y/n and Jinyoung’s apartment I knock on the door and Jinyoung open it for me letting me in we walk to the leaving room and talk waiting for y/n to be done getting ready. After 20 minutes she walk out from the hallway looking like the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, she was wearing a beautiful silk pink dress she was so gorgeous. We walk out out the apartment and said our goodbyes to Jinyoung.
when we got to the restaurant we talk and joke around for a bit and when our food came we ate in a peaceful silence. after dinner we went to for a walk well we ate ice cream than we made our way to my apartment.
when we got there y/n was confuse thinking we were going to my old apartment I just smile and let her in.
“wow Jae this is so big and pretty” I said walking inside
“I’m glad you like it because if you agree you can move in any time you want” I told her
“wait what” she asked surprised
“well yes I want you to move in with me that if you want to of course “ I responded
“wait your not joking right” she said not really believing me
“ y/n will you move in with me ?” I asked her looking at her dead in the eye.
“yes I will love to” she said getting existed
“okay than we can start to bring your stuff here on Monday if that okay with you” I said seating on the kitchen chair
on Monday we started to move all of y/n stuff and since she didn't had to much stuff we ended at 10 pm when we were on the apartment unpacking.
y/n and i were getting ready to go visit my parents house were I had a surprise plan out right after dinner. when we arrived to their house my home opened the door and y/n run to hug them
“ hello sweet heart how are you” my mom said hugging y/n
“I’m doing good and you” y/n said happily
“we are glad wearer grate me we miss you guys so much” my dad said patting her back
“I so happy you guys came the house gets lonely with out you guys here” my mom said pulling me in a hug
“ I know mom but we ben busy” I said looking at the three of them
“ we you guys go to the living room I’m gonna finish cooking” my mom said walking to the kitchen
“ let me help you” y/n said following my mom
“ you don't have to sweet hear go and hung out in the couch” my mom said turning to y/n
“oh no I want to help I will feel bad if I don't” y/n protested
“ well okay lets go” my mom said garbing y/n by the arm
my dad and I went into the leaving room and he asked me about my work and y/n I told him that I was more happy now that I have her and that I will never let her go.
during dinner we talk for a hole hour straight than y/n and my mom got up and clean the dishes and the table and I went out to the back yard to prepare the surprise for y/n with the help of my dad. once everything was ready I went inside and call y/n to the back yard
when she walked our she looked for me and i was standing in the middle of the back yard she looked at me funny and made her way to me once she was standing right in front of me I got on my knee.
“y/n i know that not long ago we got back together but let me tell you that my biggest fear is letting you go and I dot want that to happen again I love you so much and if I don't have you with me I might go crazy because your the only person that knows how to control me and how to make me happy so y/n will you make me the happiest man in the universe and be my wife?” I said well puling the sing out
“ omg Jaebom yes I will love to be your wife my love” y/n said gibing me her hand for me to put the ring on her ring finger
once the ring was on her ring finger she jump on me and kissed me she was smiling so big with some tears rolling down her eyes and telling me how much she loves me I was so happy I finally asked my girl to become my wife.
when we pulled apart my parents came to us and congratulated us my mom also had some happy tears on her I knew that she was proud of we and that she approved of my future wife since day one my dad told me that he was proud of me and he wised us luck on our new chapter of our life.
( credit to the owners of the photos from the links )
The love I lost PT 3 ( not happy ending for Jaebum )
Jaebum x reader x Jinyoung (B1A4)
Summary: Jaebum doesn’t love reader any more and they brake up but after a long line Jaebum sees y/n again with her new boyfriend how happened to be the same man who introduce them. And Jaebum just smiles seeing her happy even if it brakes him.
song / lyrics translation
It has been almost 5 months since jaebum and I broke up and it’s haves been the best 5 months of my life yes I cry at first I loved Jaebum a lot but I realize that I was not truly happy with him he changed a lot from being a sweet boyfriend to constantly calling me names and making me feel like I couldn’t leave without him he made me look like I was nothing next to him like I didn’t deserve to be loved my him but now I'm happy in a relationship with the perfect man.
*Flash back*
“Jaebum plese cut the bulshit now I know that you don't love me I can't look you in the eyes and see the love you had for me and your kisses don't taste the same” I said walking around pissed “ you know what no I don't love you I stopped loving you for awhile now” he told me with an annoyed tone “why didn't you said anything why didn't you told me sooner” I said as I turn to look at him “ I was trying to love you I was trying to be happy with you” he replied as he sat down in the couch. “ Well see, that didn't work out and let me tell you something. LIm Jaebum love is not about trying” I said, more angry than I was.
“ yeah I know it doesn't feel the same when we make love any more. The spark is gone and I guess that is my fault”, Jay replied as he rubbed his eyes. “ Yeah, trying to forget all the fights and all the times we avoid the problems, has been our biggest mistake and the wounds we have won't heal overnight either” I told him and he got up and started to scream at me once again. “ I tried to do everything I could but I'm not happy anymore, can't you understand that?” he asked, getting up and yelling in my face. “ Oh I understand this to perfection but if this relationship is over just let me know please don't make it worse,'' I said, getting away from him. “ I still remember the day I meet you and your smile after saying yes I kissed you and I was in the stars I had so little and I offered you everything I had we been together for years and now we are two strangers again” I said as i sat down in the kitchen stool
“ I still remember our rounds on top of the tableand the bathroom, movie nights and dinner for two but those days are over'' Jay said sounding somewhat upset “all your I love yous now days sound wired it change in you voice”, I said well playing with my fingers. “And here I I’m like a dumb ass believing everything we told each other but i guess it time to say goodbye” I said well finally letting my tears fall. “I know i'm at fault but that doesn't matter anymore, I’m giving your heart acki know it's in pieces but I know you can glue it back step by step i'll let you leave in peace For your sake, for my sake we both know that this love thing ends in drama and if I see you with another i'll smile at you What hating after what I have lived?.”Jay said finally walling out of the apartment
*End of flashback*
Now that I'm in a relationship with JInyoung, I have been so happy with everything. Jinyoung is the perfect boyfriend that every girl will want in a man. The day he asked me to be his girlfriend I thought he was joking because our friendship has been all about pranks and jokes but by the way he looked at me I knew he was being serious and after living with him for 5 months I developed a crush on him and now I'm happily in a relationship. Jinyoung has made me so happy in the small period of our relationship. He has helped me move on from my last relationship and has made me stronger than I was before.
Today Jinyoung invited me to go to a theme park for our date and I was so excited for this date since it's been so long that I haven't gone to a theme park. Once I was done getting ready I went to the car where Jinyoung was waiting for me. When we got to the theme park we payed for the parking and the bracelets that let us get to the rides faster, than we wasl around for a little then we started to get on the rides than after hours of getting from ride to ride we made our way to the ferris wheel well we went to the top slowly we held hands since I was a little scared of heights. Being around Jinyoung is so nice and calm. I feel at ease with him. When it was time to go home we picked up food then we went home.
One we were home we rated and watched a movie but we were making out instead of focusing on the movie. Jinyoung kisses taste sweet and his lips were soft and plump different from Jaebum's. His hands also fit perfectly in mine. After the movie was over we cleaned up and went to sleep.
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Today I went out to the museum tring to have a good time with my friends and at first I did until everyone was talking about their partners and I saw the one person I didn't expect to see again. I saw y/n standing in front of a painting than a tall guy came and told her hand kissing the top of her head as she look up at him and smiled than he reach down to kiss her lips and i saw how happy she looked with him her smile reached her eyes and she blushed this new guy did know how to make her happy than i saw his face and it was the one and only Jung Jinyoung. As I walked away I smiled down to the floor knowing that She was in a happy healthy relationship with a guy who truly loves her.
When I got home I realized that I had her and I hurt but to the point it broke her and now I’m here seating on my couch with phone in hand see articles of y/n and Jung Jinyoung we’re they announce their relationship to the public and seeing the comments they all love them together and I wish I was Jinyoung I wish I was in his shoes but I’m to late.
When I was coming home from the studio it started to rain and I saw them once again smiling well dancing in the rain like two little kids in love and I feel so alone and so jealous how I wish I could punch his face and tell him that y/n doesn't love him that she loves me but I have to Accept that she doesn’t love me and will never love me again.
Every time I see them I blame jinyoung for stealing my girl when I reality I was the one that lost her for my stupidity thinking that I didn’t loved her that I was not in love with here but seeing them like that it pisses me if I wish I could turn time back but I can’t. And it’s true what people say. You don’t know what you have till you lose it.
Now I want to go up to him and tell him that I hate him for having what was mine although the one to blame is me. That today I consider him an enemy. And I believe that I was only one that she will only love so stupid and now his the owner and I’m the loser. I was convinced that she was gonna be the one, but no one chooses who to love.
Now I’m starting to think that I lost you, that in truth I no longer have you. All I want is to Close my eyes and start again.she showed me how to love and I still hurt her. I remember when I stopped giving her roses and usted i give her fights. I even called her ugly when she was beautiful. That's why I just smile at her every time I see her knowing that she’s with a man that will give her roses instead of fights call her beau Inter of ugly because that what she deserves and not the pain and the insults i give her now I regret everything not knowing why I did everything to hurt her.
I wish her the best and happiness even if it’s not with me. She was a good teacher she thought me that love isn’t a game and I see that now.
